Hmm... If only life's like fantasy, where guys and girls can just be in purely in love and be happily ever after. Or maybe there is, just that it hasn't happen on me. I still find that I cannot be the unfeeling person I've tried to be. It's hard being a cold, ruthless person. Sometimes, I just don't like to admit things directly or it's just more natural of me to be truthful to trusted friends whom I believe that they won't hurt me..
Shi ne... That's romanji word for die.. That's how I'll become for JCT. Just merely touch a bit of organic chemistry today only... Yucks, that's sheer slow. Got to hasten my pace triple!!
Ha, I can't seem to find things of some cartoon characters to buy as gifts. Not like winnie the pooh whereby I can see almost anywhere... Hmm...
Just downloaded a few lyrics to my comp, maybe I'll just post one of those lyrics here. =P
=98 Degrees - The Hardest Thing=
We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
Chorus:
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
There can be no happy ending
Chorus
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
(Ooh)
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
Chorus
I don't want to live a lie
What can I do
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Yo people, I'm finally tagging another entry after the last entry which was quite outdated already. I don't know why but I just don't feel the addiction to come online that often for those days. Somehow I feel fatigue's accumulating a lot even though I try to relax myself.
Thanks people for making the chalet a nice one! The only regret was that not many year 1s are free on these dates of chalet. Otherwise, year 2s will need only to idle around during bbq. Ha, joking. This time round only manage to get Jaron to come down for the bbq. Youquan and Sabrina are uncontactable.
=Chalet Day 1=
Before I set off to meet y3 2.45 at downtown east lobby, I have myself searching for ezlink card for 15+ minutes that caused me to be slightly late. Therefore I may as well wait for lim pin knowing he's on the way to interchange soon.
Turnout's pretty good on day 1. The room isn't big so it seems squeezy for all that turned up. Compared to the last visit to Downtown East, the room decoration seems to have improved. When the TV ads of DE show up, it's a strange how fun the ads show DE to be when I'm not ready to spend on anything much.
Don't know how the check in system works. The lobby changes its place to another part of DE. Got a free swim board upon checking in. The receptionist somehow gives me that stare when I tell her I'm over 18. I don't look that old yet? Perhaps she didn't mean that way. Ha I think maybe I was just too sensitive. Ha.
The couple now willing to let others acknowledge their relationship after a long time... Hahaha, wanted to grill them with more (interview-type) questions but didn't as I thought somehow it'll turn out to be pretty stupid.
Everyone first watch superstar on channel U then spongebob squarepants on central.. It's y3's favourite show, so she cannot miss it. Lim pin was commenting on the lameness of the show. Ok, I've witnessed it.
Had dinner at BK which is so damn expensive. The only thing nice was the star wars bottle. But since there's no cap, I doubt it can be used as a bottle. Anyway, I should have tried the "galatic burgers". Looks yummy at least.
Didn't have mahjong sets to rent this time. We resort to borrow one from gerard's mother. Haha. Jaron and lim pin's hands already itching for mahjong. Ha.. Gibson's luck was really extremely bad. Lost all rounds, hahaha...
Halo 2 was most of the time what is on the TV set. Gerard brought that and MX, james, gerard were taking turns to play that. Everyone else seems bored. Or at least I am. I think y3 too, she's either stoning or smiling at her handphone.
=Chalet Day 2=
Y3, Mx, Gerard, James, DK and me stayed overnight. I was playing cards initially, then change to become a teacher. I taught y3 and DK mahjong after I teach DK bridge. There's many terminologies to remember which seems to pose more difficulty to beginners than other things else. DK has exceptionally strong sense in entertainment stuff. He picks every fun things rapidly. Oh man, either I'm just dumb or he's just smart. It takes me quite a while to pick off last time. James joined in later on and I got to re-explain.
Occasionally, I need to purposely refocus my eyes to elsewhere but it's hard with the loving couple eh... I wonder if DK has the same sentiments. =P
Had my shower quite late. Around 12 plus I think. I thought at least 1 person will bring toothpaste but turn out, opps, NO ONE!? Everyone wasn't in a sleeping mood then so I didn't sleep as well. I start making pyramid out of mahjong before extending it to igloo as claimed by y3. There's eiffel tower and jenga tower as well. Ha. After that, I still succumb to my fatigue. I'm so sorry y3 n mx have to help to keep those mahjong tiles away. Aiya, just take that as an appreciation for my effort in teaching them mahjong then. =P
Ask so... many times for the breakfast. No one gives a proper answer. End up eating the instant noodles y3 n I bought back. Diao~ I sponsor $8 for the food but seems like not much of it was eaten. Ehh....
Lunch at the food court. It's almost half as expensive as BK. But still, I felt cheated. $3 for a damn small plate of "char siew" rice. Except for gerard's $3 "char kuey" which seems lesser than mine, mx and y3's ones are a lot more.
Felt kind of bored so request wei jie to come earlier. I went for a swim with him at the pool which people can see through the sides and bottom. Yay, I think I learn a few more interesting tips from him to improve my frontcrawl style aka freestyle. I still need to practise more to ensure I can swim a longer stretch.
BBQ goes as normal... The part about skewering chickens is a bit more problematic. It's not "I" who want to skewer it. I just think it'll be easier for even heat distribution and for everyone else to eat easier.
Heineken made me quite bloated. I wasn't feeling drunk, just super uncomfortable due to the fizzy gas in my stomach.
=Chalet Day 3=
No Halo this time. Only bridge, bridge and more bridge... Somehow, mx is in his madcat form. He's rather high, keep raising the bid to 4 no triumph level and make everyone go crazy with it.
Woke up later than the checking out time. Rushed to pack and go...
=Election of New EXCO=
It's roughly the same way how lp, wj and I got elected last year. It's an event that will make some people surprised and some disappointed. There was really a serious consideration of every year 1s, who'll be more appropriate for the EXCO posts. I think that communication within EXCO and to other members need to be stressed. For my batch, I think I can work really well with lp and wj but maybe slightly lacking in the way message is passed down to members.
One who have the technical experience for a job is of course good. But for certain things, character is very important to look at when choosing a suitable person for a role as interpersonal relationship is often the underlying factor to keeping the club united.
Of course, whoever got or didn't get the posts, I wish to see all to stay united. We're still as 1 club. Hopefully, everyone can contribute indiscriminately to the club.
=Misc=
Somehow I find myself rather immature. I don't know myself that well yet. I take things on when maybe I may not even be prepared. That can only end up hurting myself ultimately. Opportunity is rare and it often slips through my hand as I'm indecisive. I need to learn to be a better person and then perhaps others will learn to cherish me as a valuable individual more.
Thanks people for making the chalet a nice one! The only regret was that not many year 1s are free on these dates of chalet. Otherwise, year 2s will need only to idle around during bbq. Ha, joking. This time round only manage to get Jaron to come down for the bbq. Youquan and Sabrina are uncontactable.
=Chalet Day 1=
Before I set off to meet y3 2.45 at downtown east lobby, I have myself searching for ezlink card for 15+ minutes that caused me to be slightly late. Therefore I may as well wait for lim pin knowing he's on the way to interchange soon.
Turnout's pretty good on day 1. The room isn't big so it seems squeezy for all that turned up. Compared to the last visit to Downtown East, the room decoration seems to have improved. When the TV ads of DE show up, it's a strange how fun the ads show DE to be when I'm not ready to spend on anything much.
Don't know how the check in system works. The lobby changes its place to another part of DE. Got a free swim board upon checking in. The receptionist somehow gives me that stare when I tell her I'm over 18. I don't look that old yet? Perhaps she didn't mean that way. Ha I think maybe I was just too sensitive. Ha.
The couple now willing to let others acknowledge their relationship after a long time... Hahaha, wanted to grill them with more (interview-type) questions but didn't as I thought somehow it'll turn out to be pretty stupid.
Everyone first watch superstar on channel U then spongebob squarepants on central.. It's y3's favourite show, so she cannot miss it. Lim pin was commenting on the lameness of the show. Ok, I've witnessed it.
Had dinner at BK which is so damn expensive. The only thing nice was the star wars bottle. But since there's no cap, I doubt it can be used as a bottle. Anyway, I should have tried the "galatic burgers". Looks yummy at least.
Didn't have mahjong sets to rent this time. We resort to borrow one from gerard's mother. Haha. Jaron and lim pin's hands already itching for mahjong. Ha.. Gibson's luck was really extremely bad. Lost all rounds, hahaha...
Halo 2 was most of the time what is on the TV set. Gerard brought that and MX, james, gerard were taking turns to play that. Everyone else seems bored. Or at least I am. I think y3 too, she's either stoning or smiling at her handphone.
=Chalet Day 2=
Y3, Mx, Gerard, James, DK and me stayed overnight. I was playing cards initially, then change to become a teacher. I taught y3 and DK mahjong after I teach DK bridge. There's many terminologies to remember which seems to pose more difficulty to beginners than other things else. DK has exceptionally strong sense in entertainment stuff. He picks every fun things rapidly. Oh man, either I'm just dumb or he's just smart. It takes me quite a while to pick off last time. James joined in later on and I got to re-explain.
Occasionally, I need to purposely refocus my eyes to elsewhere but it's hard with the loving couple eh... I wonder if DK has the same sentiments. =P
Had my shower quite late. Around 12 plus I think. I thought at least 1 person will bring toothpaste but turn out, opps, NO ONE!? Everyone wasn't in a sleeping mood then so I didn't sleep as well. I start making pyramid out of mahjong before extending it to igloo as claimed by y3. There's eiffel tower and jenga tower as well. Ha. After that, I still succumb to my fatigue. I'm so sorry y3 n mx have to help to keep those mahjong tiles away. Aiya, just take that as an appreciation for my effort in teaching them mahjong then. =P
Ask so... many times for the breakfast. No one gives a proper answer. End up eating the instant noodles y3 n I bought back. Diao~ I sponsor $8 for the food but seems like not much of it was eaten. Ehh....
Lunch at the food court. It's almost half as expensive as BK. But still, I felt cheated. $3 for a damn small plate of "char siew" rice. Except for gerard's $3 "char kuey" which seems lesser than mine, mx and y3's ones are a lot more.
Felt kind of bored so request wei jie to come earlier. I went for a swim with him at the pool which people can see through the sides and bottom. Yay, I think I learn a few more interesting tips from him to improve my frontcrawl style aka freestyle. I still need to practise more to ensure I can swim a longer stretch.
BBQ goes as normal... The part about skewering chickens is a bit more problematic. It's not "I" who want to skewer it. I just think it'll be easier for even heat distribution and for everyone else to eat easier.
Heineken made me quite bloated. I wasn't feeling drunk, just super uncomfortable due to the fizzy gas in my stomach.
=Chalet Day 3=
No Halo this time. Only bridge, bridge and more bridge... Somehow, mx is in his madcat form. He's rather high, keep raising the bid to 4 no triumph level and make everyone go crazy with it.
Woke up later than the checking out time. Rushed to pack and go...
=Election of New EXCO=
It's roughly the same way how lp, wj and I got elected last year. It's an event that will make some people surprised and some disappointed. There was really a serious consideration of every year 1s, who'll be more appropriate for the EXCO posts. I think that communication within EXCO and to other members need to be stressed. For my batch, I think I can work really well with lp and wj but maybe slightly lacking in the way message is passed down to members.
One who have the technical experience for a job is of course good. But for certain things, character is very important to look at when choosing a suitable person for a role as interpersonal relationship is often the underlying factor to keeping the club united.
Of course, whoever got or didn't get the posts, I wish to see all to stay united. We're still as 1 club. Hopefully, everyone can contribute indiscriminately to the club.
=Misc=
Somehow I find myself rather immature. I don't know myself that well yet. I take things on when maybe I may not even be prepared. That can only end up hurting myself ultimately. Opportunity is rare and it often slips through my hand as I'm indecisive. I need to learn to be a better person and then perhaps others will learn to cherish me as a valuable individual more.
Weather's getting so freaking hot nowadays. Imagine having intense heat from both the weather and the fire from bbq, how will that be like? I've got nothing to say about any other things else. I came across this short story which seems like a new one as I've not seen this one before. Here it goes:
==============================================
my mom only had one eye.
i hated her... she was such an embarressment..
my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.
she collected little weeds and such to sell...
anything for the money we needed
she was such an embarressment.
there was this one day during elementary school..
it was field day, and my mom came.
i was so embarressed. how could she do this to
me? i threw her a hateful look and ran out.
the next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they
taunted me.
i wished that my mom would just dissappear from
this world
so i said to my mom,
"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!
if you're only gonna make me a laughingstock,
why dont you just die?!!!"
my mom did not respond..
i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it
felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to
say all this time..
maybe it was because my mom hadnt punished
me,
but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very
badly.
that night...
i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass
of water.
my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she
was afraid that she might wake me.
i took a look at her, then turned away.
because of the thing i had said to her earlier, there
was something pinching at me in the corner of my
heart.
even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of
her one eye. so i told myself that i would grow up
and become successful.
cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our
desperate poverty..
then i studied real hard.
i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University with all
the confidence i had.
then, i got married.
i bought a house of my own.
then i had kids, too..
now i'm living happily as a successful man.
i like it here because it's a place that doesnt
remind me of my mom.
this happiness was getting bigger and bigger,
when..
what?!
who's this?!
...it was my mother...
..still with her one eye.
it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.
my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.
and i asked her,
"who are you?!"
"i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. i
screamed at her," how dare you come to my
house and scare my daughter!"
"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
and to this, my mother quietly answered,
"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong
address,"
and she dissappeared out of sight.
thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me..
i was quite relieved.
i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think
about this for the rest of my life.
then a wave of relief came upon me...
one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came
to my house. so, lying to my wife that i was going
on a business trip, i went.
after the reunion, i went down to the old shack,
that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity
there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.
but i did not shed a single tear.
she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a
letter to me.
my son...
i think my life has been long enough now..
and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...
but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to
come visit me once in a while?
i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i
heard you were coming for the reunion.
but i decided not to go to the school.
...for you...
and i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was
an embarressment for you.
you see, when you were very little, you got into
an
accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldnt
stand watching you having to grow up with only
one eye... so i gave you mine...
i was so proud of my son that was seeing a
whole
new world for me, in my place, with that eye. i
was
never upset at you for anything you did.. the
couple times that you were angry with me,.. i
thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me..'
my son... oh, my son...
i dont want you to cry for me, because of my
death.
please dont cry....
my son, i love you so much.
something gripped the corner of my heart.
and tears were flowing from the eye that my
mother had given me..
my mom... my loving mom..
===============================================
==============================================
my mom only had one eye.
i hated her... she was such an embarressment..
my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.
she collected little weeds and such to sell...
anything for the money we needed
she was such an embarressment.
there was this one day during elementary school..
it was field day, and my mom came.
i was so embarressed. how could she do this to
me? i threw her a hateful look and ran out.
the next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they
taunted me.
i wished that my mom would just dissappear from
this world
so i said to my mom,
"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!
if you're only gonna make me a laughingstock,
why dont you just die?!!!"
my mom did not respond..
i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it
felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to
say all this time..
maybe it was because my mom hadnt punished
me,
but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very
badly.
that night...
i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass
of water.
my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she
was afraid that she might wake me.
i took a look at her, then turned away.
because of the thing i had said to her earlier, there
was something pinching at me in the corner of my
heart.
even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of
her one eye. so i told myself that i would grow up
and become successful.
cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our
desperate poverty..
then i studied real hard.
i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University with all
the confidence i had.
then, i got married.
i bought a house of my own.
then i had kids, too..
now i'm living happily as a successful man.
i like it here because it's a place that doesnt
remind me of my mom.
this happiness was getting bigger and bigger,
when..
what?!
who's this?!
...it was my mother...
..still with her one eye.
it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.
my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.
and i asked her,
"who are you?!"
"i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. i
screamed at her," how dare you come to my
house and scare my daughter!"
"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"
and to this, my mother quietly answered,
"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong
address,"
and she dissappeared out of sight.
thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me..
i was quite relieved.
i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think
about this for the rest of my life.
then a wave of relief came upon me...
one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came
to my house. so, lying to my wife that i was going
on a business trip, i went.
after the reunion, i went down to the old shack,
that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity
there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.
but i did not shed a single tear.
she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a
letter to me.
my son...
i think my life has been long enough now..
and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...
but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to
come visit me once in a while?
i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i
heard you were coming for the reunion.
but i decided not to go to the school.
...for you...
and i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was
an embarressment for you.
you see, when you were very little, you got into
an
accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldnt
stand watching you having to grow up with only
one eye... so i gave you mine...
i was so proud of my son that was seeing a
whole
new world for me, in my place, with that eye. i
was
never upset at you for anything you did.. the
couple times that you were angry with me,.. i
thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me..'
my son... oh, my son...
i dont want you to cry for me, because of my
death.
please dont cry....
my son, i love you so much.
something gripped the corner of my heart.
and tears were flowing from the eye that my
mother had given me..
my mom... my loving mom..
===============================================
It's really dreadfully hot for the past few days. I've been sweating awfully much, making my neck itchy. Yucks, especially when I'm doing housework.
I felt so guilty exploding on my parents when my mood is so foul. I don't know since when have I become so sensitive to words. Some words that were mentioned by them pricked me a lot even though after thinking through, it's rather mild which when similarly said by a friend, I won't even react to that.
A friend actually asks me what do I do in Friendster. It's a funny thing really. I can't even give a reasonable answer for that other than just accept "friends" whom I don't even know? There's a lot more features coming up like the "Classified" section but it's not for me yet. Haha... I doubt if I really do keep in contact with even 1/4 of all my primary friends in there.
I've seen a couple of lines I came across I thought seem to describe how I am.
- The guy who love you, actually always make you mad, but he never knew what stupid things he had done, as everything he did, is for your own good.
- The guy who love you, seldom praise you, but in his heart, you are the best, only he knows it.
- The guy who love you, maybe can't remember special occasion like some kind of anniversary, but he do know that every second he live, he's loving you no matter what day is today.
- The guy who love you, if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.
- The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy bear, but he will always put the bear you give him at his bed.
- The guy who really love you, will feel that sometimes, something have to be told for only
once, because he thought that u might already understand him, if talk so much, he will feel that
there's nothing you will cherish.
I felt so guilty exploding on my parents when my mood is so foul. I don't know since when have I become so sensitive to words. Some words that were mentioned by them pricked me a lot even though after thinking through, it's rather mild which when similarly said by a friend, I won't even react to that.
A friend actually asks me what do I do in Friendster. It's a funny thing really. I can't even give a reasonable answer for that other than just accept "friends" whom I don't even know? There's a lot more features coming up like the "Classified" section but it's not for me yet. Haha... I doubt if I really do keep in contact with even 1/4 of all my primary friends in there.
I've seen a couple of lines I came across I thought seem to describe how I am.
- The guy who love you, actually always make you mad, but he never knew what stupid things he had done, as everything he did, is for your own good.
- The guy who love you, seldom praise you, but in his heart, you are the best, only he knows it.
- The guy who love you, maybe can't remember special occasion like some kind of anniversary, but he do know that every second he live, he's loving you no matter what day is today.
- The guy who love you, if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.
- The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy bear, but he will always put the bear you give him at his bed.
- The guy who really love you, will feel that sometimes, something have to be told for only
once, because he thought that u might already understand him, if talk so much, he will feel that
there's nothing you will cherish.
I feel kind of weird when people treat me overly nice. Sounds stupid and contradictory but that's just how my brain works. Subconsciously, a comparison will be drawn of how badly I've been treated and how nice some people can be. If only I can choose what to be remembered, what to be forgotten. (eg: tutorials and revision can't be forgotten... birthdays also. Will get blamed for sure)
Tired. I shall stop here. =X
Tired. I shall stop here. =X
=qiaonan service learning=
Hurray, the last session at qiaonan is over. Can free up my tuesday time slot after that.
My group's supposed to plan for the so called "Treasure Hunt" item which is the last item in today's final activity. Therefore, we have plentiful of time to source for information regarding their school and draft out the questions. Remember Han Sui telling me shane's disgusted expression when he glanced at our piece of paper which is supposed to be the proposal. Fortunately, the outcome didn't disappoint everyone. It's quite a success.
I can't believe the kids can get the answers in such a short time. Of course, the leaders must have helped a great deal also. Or else, they can't be sweating madly. Oh well, for today, they seem just as enthusiastic as the kids. May Ee was jumping around with the kids, so is Felicia. I remember taking more than 1 hour collecting all the resources...
Other games like the egg game looks fun also. I didn't see how exactly it's played but it seems to pump adrenaline in everyone.
I saw very large spiders on cobwebs spanning across 2 trees. Gosh, they are so humongous not like what I've seen before for a normal spider. Wanted to take pictures of them but appear just as dots in my phone. Ha..
=BBQ=
Accompanied maoxin to go shop and save to look for prices of the items to buy for barbeque. Ha, he's very efficient in helping y3 look at all the prices. Wonder if he's that efficient if i ask him for help. O_O
=misc=
Got blamed when i returned home today for not staying home to take care of my mum. Brother's at home and she can always call me if there's urgent stuff I need to help with. Besides I have school activity and not like I'm simply hanging out for no particular purposes...
My jukebox got a lot of stars. Maybe not a lot, just 2. Argh, it just looks weird... Not used to it.
Didn't know hc's blog got mp3. Or rather it's when i switch back to Internet explorer that I know there is because firefox cannot stream it.
Hurray, the last session at qiaonan is over. Can free up my tuesday time slot after that.
My group's supposed to plan for the so called "Treasure Hunt" item which is the last item in today's final activity. Therefore, we have plentiful of time to source for information regarding their school and draft out the questions. Remember Han Sui telling me shane's disgusted expression when he glanced at our piece of paper which is supposed to be the proposal. Fortunately, the outcome didn't disappoint everyone. It's quite a success.
I can't believe the kids can get the answers in such a short time. Of course, the leaders must have helped a great deal also. Or else, they can't be sweating madly. Oh well, for today, they seem just as enthusiastic as the kids. May Ee was jumping around with the kids, so is Felicia. I remember taking more than 1 hour collecting all the resources...
Other games like the egg game looks fun also. I didn't see how exactly it's played but it seems to pump adrenaline in everyone.
I saw very large spiders on cobwebs spanning across 2 trees. Gosh, they are so humongous not like what I've seen before for a normal spider. Wanted to take pictures of them but appear just as dots in my phone. Ha..
=BBQ=
Accompanied maoxin to go shop and save to look for prices of the items to buy for barbeque. Ha, he's very efficient in helping y3 look at all the prices. Wonder if he's that efficient if i ask him for help. O_O
=misc=
Got blamed when i returned home today for not staying home to take care of my mum. Brother's at home and she can always call me if there's urgent stuff I need to help with. Besides I have school activity and not like I'm simply hanging out for no particular purposes...
My jukebox got a lot of stars. Maybe not a lot, just 2. Argh, it just looks weird... Not used to it.
Didn't know hc's blog got mp3. Or rather it's when i switch back to Internet explorer that I know there is because firefox cannot stream it.
The ticket was yours, and it's still yours. It hasn't become of any worth since you said before that you don't want already. Don't want to be labelled as thick-skinned because I'm already rejected for going with you before that. Even when I'm angry, I never once say I'm going to give that ticket away...
I've come to see how love not only involves two people. The complications involved is much more. Especially when the family control is very different. There are many things I know you hope I can be. But I just cannot be that person. It's hard to tell you exactly how I feel but cherishing each other isn't just one sided. It's distressing to feel how I'm not cherished but maybe that's just how I see things... Feelings aren't objective. There's no rights or wrongs.
=Sports Carnival Day 3=
During the morning assembly, Principal and a few other representatives from Singapore Pools and other associations were demonstrating the launch of Adventure Tower by conquering the tower. From the position I am, I can't tell who reached the top first which is really a WOW... "that's fast!" One did a special route which is to walk over the balancing wooden log and was described as walking the uncertain future, bla bla... Prize presentation for the Guest of honours was up there and eh... well, it just seems weird.
I thought they're going to fly down through the belay process but ha, no. The big poster is unravelled for the finale. Somehow it got stuck and shows a bit every shake.
Came super early in the morning as I don't know the time slot for the event I'm in. Felt quite drawn back when I saw the 2.15pm slot for the year 2s. I didn't bring anything much, can't even do tutorials... Sian. Wanted to idle around with mao xin but turn out he has something on. Yep, I'll be super bright if I continue to stick around with him thus I went to library.
Thanks cp for accompanying me for the boring moments in school. There isn't any comfortable spots for me to sleep... Not even in robotics room as I don't know who will enter and see my ugly sleeping look. Lol. Had my "lunch" at 11 at KFC nearby. I thought we might be caught getting out of school by either OM or Mr Tong but nope, they aren't nearby. Besides I see torrents of TJcians coming in and out of gates... so shouldn't be a problem.. Ha. The $2 meal is nice but not satisfying for my appetite.
When it was approximately 1 hour before the event, I went to the sports complex to idle around and to check for groupings. I'm questioned by friends why aren't I with my class. What can I say? Majority didn't even come to school and those that did are those hard to talk to.
The sales of the sports apparels is good. Sports bras are running out as the selling price is very much lower than the actual price.
Sat near the 02/04 CG. Got one girl who's really talkative caught my attention with humorous and crazy things she blurted out. Can't help laughing also. Lim pin's joke was equated as cold. Ha...
Ping aik wanted to look for more people to play dodgeball as there's lack of players. Can't help as Foosball is around the same time. Mao xin and I are in the same group. The first round was a winning match but consequently lost all.. How demoralising. Every round of match, mao xin has to go back and report to somebody, Lol.. That's still all right, but b4 he goes again, he'll have to report that he has to go in a soft mushy tone. Gosh, my goosebumps are all over. Ha...
=Aurora IX=
I was feeling quite pissed off as I've forgotten to take my ticket which I've left at home but was told that it's not possible for me to enter without the ticket. After all, I've bought ticket directly from them. Moreover, I've helped with the video... Can't they give grace to that?
On my way home, I spent my time reminicising the time when I feel sad about something. I must have devoted my feelings rather much in it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be feeling that hurt.
After retrieving the ticket, I went to eat with Des. Arrived school slightly earlier so I show him around in school. Some areas are rather dark so basically there's nothing much to see. The sports complex is still very active due to the Titans activities. Des enquired if the school is always that busy with a lot of activities. Pw says he'll be late so we go ahead with the concert. Jy and cp saw us and invited us to sit near them.
The seats were running out hastily. This was when I received the message. At a dilemma what I should do. Afterall, I didn't bring that ticket out. Can't just leave my secondary school friends as they come on my behalf. Can't concentrate on watching for the 1st half interval.
The MC is quite "cold". I can't find comfort in listening to his speech. Perhaps others share my sentiments also. It's evident when he started asking teachers and students about comments of the concert. He asked the audience to ask for encore after the last piece. I felt that it's really stupid of that. Isn't it supposed to be spontaneous reaction?
Mr Lieow made the encore piece end off very "spastic". When more "encore..." was demanded, he instructed to play the last line 3 more times. Oh well, special may be, I don't really find it that amusing.
At least I'm consoled when my name is written in the aurora IX booklet and read out during the acknowledgement part. Saw Chin Seng's shocked expression when he turned around to see if it's me. Yuting also gave me a very nice made "Thank You" card. Well, I'm jubilant that my efforts are appreciated. =)
The SYF piece is really very enchanting. Firstly, it's refreshing to hear chinese piece to be played on a westernised instrument, guitar. Secondly, the switch from slow and soft to fast and loud is perfect. No wonder they got gold with honours. Ming xiu did well with the cymbals, managed to start and stop in time. Cool..
After the concert, went to see Estella. She's so surprised to see me and jianyuan. Ha, perhaps she's expecting flowers too but there aren't. =P We're too shy to give her a hug but can see that she's in a very hyper mood.
After that, we stroll around in the bedok central. Most of the shops are already closed since the time is approaching 11. Ate peanut paste and bo bo cha cha with des and pw. They've changed quite a deal. In fact, they've become quite thick-skinned with their crap. He said something about popularity. He said he's hot... lol hence I ask him about his profile view in friendster. He said 50+ so far. Mine's nearly 4 times his count... Lol
Handed over the presents to pw. He seemed a bit shocked for it perhaps he didn't even expect any presents. Hope he likes the pink shirt better than the green shirt. Ha
=School Holidays=
It's the beginning of the holidays. I should plan my days well or I'll probably end up wasting endless time playing and spend futile time lamenting on regrets. There's already a series of activities settled in the holidays already.
-Robotics chalet
-class bbq/pa's bdae
-trip with jy for e-club's stuff (er... I don't have a choice?)
-kaipin's invitations
Bingz, I can go out with you but we can do something other than night walk ok? You can also ask other NY friends to come out along also ;)
=Misc=
How long do I have to continue with the housework. Maybe I'm just not used to do almost everything myself. But I'll get use to it soon. I just need space to thrash my frustrations out.
Mood: Worn out
I've come to see how love not only involves two people. The complications involved is much more. Especially when the family control is very different. There are many things I know you hope I can be. But I just cannot be that person. It's hard to tell you exactly how I feel but cherishing each other isn't just one sided. It's distressing to feel how I'm not cherished but maybe that's just how I see things... Feelings aren't objective. There's no rights or wrongs.
=Sports Carnival Day 3=
During the morning assembly, Principal and a few other representatives from Singapore Pools and other associations were demonstrating the launch of Adventure Tower by conquering the tower. From the position I am, I can't tell who reached the top first which is really a WOW... "that's fast!" One did a special route which is to walk over the balancing wooden log and was described as walking the uncertain future, bla bla... Prize presentation for the Guest of honours was up there and eh... well, it just seems weird.
I thought they're going to fly down through the belay process but ha, no. The big poster is unravelled for the finale. Somehow it got stuck and shows a bit every shake.
Came super early in the morning as I don't know the time slot for the event I'm in. Felt quite drawn back when I saw the 2.15pm slot for the year 2s. I didn't bring anything much, can't even do tutorials... Sian. Wanted to idle around with mao xin but turn out he has something on. Yep, I'll be super bright if I continue to stick around with him thus I went to library.
Thanks cp for accompanying me for the boring moments in school. There isn't any comfortable spots for me to sleep... Not even in robotics room as I don't know who will enter and see my ugly sleeping look. Lol. Had my "lunch" at 11 at KFC nearby. I thought we might be caught getting out of school by either OM or Mr Tong but nope, they aren't nearby. Besides I see torrents of TJcians coming in and out of gates... so shouldn't be a problem.. Ha. The $2 meal is nice but not satisfying for my appetite.
When it was approximately 1 hour before the event, I went to the sports complex to idle around and to check for groupings. I'm questioned by friends why aren't I with my class. What can I say? Majority didn't even come to school and those that did are those hard to talk to.
The sales of the sports apparels is good. Sports bras are running out as the selling price is very much lower than the actual price.
Sat near the 02/04 CG. Got one girl who's really talkative caught my attention with humorous and crazy things she blurted out. Can't help laughing also. Lim pin's joke was equated as cold. Ha...
Ping aik wanted to look for more people to play dodgeball as there's lack of players. Can't help as Foosball is around the same time. Mao xin and I are in the same group. The first round was a winning match but consequently lost all.. How demoralising. Every round of match, mao xin has to go back and report to somebody, Lol.. That's still all right, but b4 he goes again, he'll have to report that he has to go in a soft mushy tone. Gosh, my goosebumps are all over. Ha...
=Aurora IX=
I was feeling quite pissed off as I've forgotten to take my ticket which I've left at home but was told that it's not possible for me to enter without the ticket. After all, I've bought ticket directly from them. Moreover, I've helped with the video... Can't they give grace to that?
On my way home, I spent my time reminicising the time when I feel sad about something. I must have devoted my feelings rather much in it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be feeling that hurt.
After retrieving the ticket, I went to eat with Des. Arrived school slightly earlier so I show him around in school. Some areas are rather dark so basically there's nothing much to see. The sports complex is still very active due to the Titans activities. Des enquired if the school is always that busy with a lot of activities. Pw says he'll be late so we go ahead with the concert. Jy and cp saw us and invited us to sit near them.
The seats were running out hastily. This was when I received the message. At a dilemma what I should do. Afterall, I didn't bring that ticket out. Can't just leave my secondary school friends as they come on my behalf. Can't concentrate on watching for the 1st half interval.
The MC is quite "cold". I can't find comfort in listening to his speech. Perhaps others share my sentiments also. It's evident when he started asking teachers and students about comments of the concert. He asked the audience to ask for encore after the last piece. I felt that it's really stupid of that. Isn't it supposed to be spontaneous reaction?
Mr Lieow made the encore piece end off very "spastic". When more "encore..." was demanded, he instructed to play the last line 3 more times. Oh well, special may be, I don't really find it that amusing.
At least I'm consoled when my name is written in the aurora IX booklet and read out during the acknowledgement part. Saw Chin Seng's shocked expression when he turned around to see if it's me. Yuting also gave me a very nice made "Thank You" card. Well, I'm jubilant that my efforts are appreciated. =)
The SYF piece is really very enchanting. Firstly, it's refreshing to hear chinese piece to be played on a westernised instrument, guitar. Secondly, the switch from slow and soft to fast and loud is perfect. No wonder they got gold with honours. Ming xiu did well with the cymbals, managed to start and stop in time. Cool..
After the concert, went to see Estella. She's so surprised to see me and jianyuan. Ha, perhaps she's expecting flowers too but there aren't. =P We're too shy to give her a hug but can see that she's in a very hyper mood.
After that, we stroll around in the bedok central. Most of the shops are already closed since the time is approaching 11. Ate peanut paste and bo bo cha cha with des and pw. They've changed quite a deal. In fact, they've become quite thick-skinned with their crap. He said something about popularity. He said he's hot... lol hence I ask him about his profile view in friendster. He said 50+ so far. Mine's nearly 4 times his count... Lol
Handed over the presents to pw. He seemed a bit shocked for it perhaps he didn't even expect any presents. Hope he likes the pink shirt better than the green shirt. Ha
=School Holidays=
It's the beginning of the holidays. I should plan my days well or I'll probably end up wasting endless time playing and spend futile time lamenting on regrets. There's already a series of activities settled in the holidays already.
-Robotics chalet
-class bbq/pa's bdae
-trip with jy for e-club's stuff (er... I don't have a choice?)
-kaipin's invitations
Bingz, I can go out with you but we can do something other than night walk ok? You can also ask other NY friends to come out along also ;)
=Misc=
How long do I have to continue with the housework. Maybe I'm just not used to do almost everything myself. But I'll get use to it soon. I just need space to thrash my frustrations out.
Mood: Worn out
This entry was intended to be long but I decided in the end to keep it short. It's already long passed my supposed sleeping time for today.
=Fizz! Store=
The sales may not be as good as other stalls like those selling ice creams, pizzas, and sports apparals, but at least we manage to recoup the sum we used to buy stuffs. I'm quite annoyed by the things some people do but I shan't mention names this time also. I hope I aren't looking at things in a tainted aspect.
It's hard to grab my friends to support my stall as in the first place, most aren't even in school. Most of them do not have events for today while some are excused for sports carnival. One of the occasion when I wanted to sell drinks to OAC, I ended up stepping on a deep puddle of mud water, resulting in an unsightly observable stain on my shoes... yargh.
=Badminton Finals=
TJ lost this time but I believe that they've tried their very best and still deserve the respect for their hardwork. I've heard news that RJ's team is very strong. There're a lot of things that come into play when determining one's championship in a match. Pressure is unavoidable.
=GP=
I was reading the markers' report for the recent essays that were marked. It's a rather terrifying experience for me. Had to seek help from dictionary every 2 lines. Imagine that on every page on that thick stack! I haven't even got the time to read through all other resources...
Perhaps there isn't a need for GP teachers to flaunt their wide knowledge of vocabulary when it comes into explanation of students' weaknesses. Introducing suggested answering techniques employs the use of good vocabs which I don't disagree but come on, it's just explanation... Make it simple for people like me!!
=Misc=
I'm told that I'm getting more spendthrift than how I used to spend. I don't think I splurge often on entertainment. Fine, since I'm not supposed to, I should just stay as a nerd and lock myself at home instead.
Mood: tired
=Fizz! Store=
The sales may not be as good as other stalls like those selling ice creams, pizzas, and sports apparals, but at least we manage to recoup the sum we used to buy stuffs. I'm quite annoyed by the things some people do but I shan't mention names this time also. I hope I aren't looking at things in a tainted aspect.
It's hard to grab my friends to support my stall as in the first place, most aren't even in school. Most of them do not have events for today while some are excused for sports carnival. One of the occasion when I wanted to sell drinks to OAC, I ended up stepping on a deep puddle of mud water, resulting in an unsightly observable stain on my shoes... yargh.
=Badminton Finals=
TJ lost this time but I believe that they've tried their very best and still deserve the respect for their hardwork. I've heard news that RJ's team is very strong. There're a lot of things that come into play when determining one's championship in a match. Pressure is unavoidable.
=GP=
I was reading the markers' report for the recent essays that were marked. It's a rather terrifying experience for me. Had to seek help from dictionary every 2 lines. Imagine that on every page on that thick stack! I haven't even got the time to read through all other resources...
Perhaps there isn't a need for GP teachers to flaunt their wide knowledge of vocabulary when it comes into explanation of students' weaknesses. Introducing suggested answering techniques employs the use of good vocabs which I don't disagree but come on, it's just explanation... Make it simple for people like me!!
=Misc=
I'm told that I'm getting more spendthrift than how I used to spend. I don't think I splurge often on entertainment. Fine, since I'm not supposed to, I should just stay as a nerd and lock myself at home instead.
Mood: tired
realised there's actually a lot of stuff to test from the 3 chaps in physics test. Quite amazed that i can at least do some. =P Surrounded by muggers this morning when all trying to ask very chim questions...
got disgusted again as usual by the food chem lecturer. She tries to impress upon us how unhealth fats is but useful to certain extent. Hmz, theoretically should be quite interesting but her voice just too monotonous, still fall aslp.
mum's cough is subsiding which i tink is good. She intro me the dried longan food to eat wif a quota of 5.. Said tt it's good for health when taken in small amount.
found his blog le, it's not entirely a small matter to say wif... but i aren't a very petty person. If he does apologise or even juz say something to me, i'll acknowledge...
=things to come=
yea, finally pass the video done by me to ming hwee le. probably get to see my production on guitar club's memories at aurora IX soon.
hope got alot ppl come buy drinks from us, gotta sell quite alot in order not to make losses!
may tink of dyeing my hair, alot of white hair le...
=reflections=
was tinking if sumtimes whether i do have split personalities. I seem to do same things differently in a rather eh peculiar ways ba. Hmz, either tt or i'm just hu si luan xiang again. =/ i tink i hav to just keep doing things to keep my mind on the right track.
or rather, it's juz some sort of inferiority complex ba. Just feel tt i'm lousy in everyway regardless how others see me as...
got disgusted again as usual by the food chem lecturer. She tries to impress upon us how unhealth fats is but useful to certain extent. Hmz, theoretically should be quite interesting but her voice just too monotonous, still fall aslp.
mum's cough is subsiding which i tink is good. She intro me the dried longan food to eat wif a quota of 5.. Said tt it's good for health when taken in small amount.
found his blog le, it's not entirely a small matter to say wif... but i aren't a very petty person. If he does apologise or even juz say something to me, i'll acknowledge...
=things to come=
yea, finally pass the video done by me to ming hwee le. probably get to see my production on guitar club's memories at aurora IX soon.
hope got alot ppl come buy drinks from us, gotta sell quite alot in order not to make losses!
may tink of dyeing my hair, alot of white hair le...
=reflections=
was tinking if sumtimes whether i do have split personalities. I seem to do same things differently in a rather eh peculiar ways ba. Hmz, either tt or i'm just hu si luan xiang again. =/ i tink i hav to just keep doing things to keep my mind on the right track.
or rather, it's juz some sort of inferiority complex ba. Just feel tt i'm lousy in everyway regardless how others see me as...
mum's back from op. Here's how it is.. long list of updates, pls read selectively if u're busy.
day 1 of op:
pale coloured, feeble, almost unable to speak... Can't move much even though her back is hot...
day 2 of op:
throat super dry, still on drip, voice a lil bit better, able to move a lil.
day 3 of op:
can speak out loud le, can do things by her self, except on da process of lying down and getting up.. gets frequent rash cough, needs pat to b alrite.
now back at home... nids constant attention. Hav to do almost all da housework including mopping, sweeping, wash clothes, fold clothes, buy food, etc... I'm bushed... At least bro and dad helps to do some... Oh well, i'll get used to this soon since it's gonna be a routine for another 1 or 2 months.
=TJ Bball match=
It's interesting to see how after so many years of curse that they won't able to enter finals until after 20 yrs? That's v long, but tis year's one is definitely good! hahaz, cos it's champion mah!
But before the match was the real headache stuff, including transportation to the competition venue itself. There's supposed to be sufficient number of buses to carry us there but perhaps the kiasu nature of TJcians make it become so hard for everyone to get on bus. CGs get separated then, how awful... Some take taxis while some take SBS bus in the end.
On the way there, the SCs were teaching house and sch cheers. All the funny funny cheers which we didn't learn during our orientation and not taught again to the whole sch... came out. But the worst thing is tt SC guy din teach Beta house cheer! Hey, tt's unfair, there's betanites u noe...
Maybe on tt day, i'm tired or i'm angry or sad... either way, i'll remain quiet. even wif apologising doesn't realli makes my mood change immediately de. Maybe i'm juz too petty for a guy ba. When we reach there, i aint really got the mood to cheer loudly for the bball, not as loud as when i cheered for the volley ball match the other time. Besides, everyone's standing up this time, waste more energy lei... hahahz
Match is quite exciting just tt there're some rules which i'm not so familiar. U're nvr noe who's the winner until the last minute cos taking consideration the scoring system and the competitiveness of the players, tt's y it's so engaging.
TJ lead for the first 20 mins or so which got overpowered for a while later on by HCI. Maybe tt's when they start to lose focus ba. But when the match seems disappointing for TJ later on, TJ went all out to play. Tt's when all the surprise came in. When TJ emerged champion, the whole stadium was filled wif TJ's cries of victory! Yea, tt's super duper loud and deafening... The volume soon reached to a saturation pt tt it seems juz like a constant high pitch vibrating through my ears... The bball ppl were overjoyed, ran abt da bball grounds, wavering the sch flag high with pride. Nation anthem and sch song were sang after the prize ceremony.
Can't meet up with the class or joe for an outing cos i gotta rush home to visit my mum. I saw zg, chris and dexter on my way home.
=SPA=
okiez, i hav only physics spa tt thurs, gotta stay back late, cos after tt i have to hold the interview. It's a realli crazy day, everyone sort of know the question, no... they have the supposed answer scheme! Well... there's actually many versions of it, purely prepared by students ba. I duno which is correct actually. Somehow, i broke another promise again... shit.. i juz hate myself for tt... it's another mistake tt can never be undone...
when desai reminded us of the time left, everyone was giggling. I guess no one needs tt time since all completed in such short time...
=interview=
muahahaz.. tis's quite fun.. ok, not that i tekan the juniors but it's juz different. yep.. besides i truly want to know how they'll answer in this situation. Some gave quite disappointing answers not what we expect but hmz... i'll juz see how things go. let's hope they can go on with the planning soon.
=college cleaning=
sux... gotta wait very long before we can clean as there's listening inside the LT. felt so bored cos there's nth to do. Some ppl in our class juz sit at the stage under the LT. In the end, we juz play the so called spastic game, "di1 di3 di2 di1 di3, di4 di4" da name is in hanyu pinyin. hahaz. I think i improve alot on the response time. Din end up with all my fingers out and i manage to drag some ppl to a worser state, muahaha..
when we're finally able to clean, we find tt the other class isn't even in the LT at all.. Oh well, so we just carry on with the cleaning. Tried a few methods to clean: with purely water, wif da duno wad spray miss fong gave, etc... Yup, it's all pretty simple except for the cleaning of walls... Wth, i spend so much energy to clean the stains while some ppl in my class juz anyhow clean... ahem, shan't name who.. ya, but cos the cleaning agent's abit too strong, somehow the wall gets clean cos it's corroded.
I was blamed for taking 20/04's mop. Bleahz, seriously, i dino tt. My frend was using it and he pass on to me cos he's on the phone n kaoz, tt's how i ended up like a fool... zzz...
after all tt, 10/04 leaves earlier than 20/04. I din go home immediately, went to see how the poster is done... and ok, the photog is doing work, hahaz... thx alot =D and... cut down the number of drinks to be sold... seriously, i dun tink we're able to sell in time... 40 cans per hour... tt's alot...
yup, tt's all. end of updates. wow, spend abt 40 mins here.
day 1 of op:
pale coloured, feeble, almost unable to speak... Can't move much even though her back is hot...
day 2 of op:
throat super dry, still on drip, voice a lil bit better, able to move a lil.
day 3 of op:
can speak out loud le, can do things by her self, except on da process of lying down and getting up.. gets frequent rash cough, needs pat to b alrite.
now back at home... nids constant attention. Hav to do almost all da housework including mopping, sweeping, wash clothes, fold clothes, buy food, etc... I'm bushed... At least bro and dad helps to do some... Oh well, i'll get used to this soon since it's gonna be a routine for another 1 or 2 months.
=TJ Bball match=
It's interesting to see how after so many years of curse that they won't able to enter finals until after 20 yrs? That's v long, but tis year's one is definitely good! hahaz, cos it's champion mah!
But before the match was the real headache stuff, including transportation to the competition venue itself. There's supposed to be sufficient number of buses to carry us there but perhaps the kiasu nature of TJcians make it become so hard for everyone to get on bus. CGs get separated then, how awful... Some take taxis while some take SBS bus in the end.
On the way there, the SCs were teaching house and sch cheers. All the funny funny cheers which we didn't learn during our orientation and not taught again to the whole sch... came out. But the worst thing is tt SC guy din teach Beta house cheer! Hey, tt's unfair, there's betanites u noe...
Maybe on tt day, i'm tired or i'm angry or sad... either way, i'll remain quiet. even wif apologising doesn't realli makes my mood change immediately de. Maybe i'm juz too petty for a guy ba. When we reach there, i aint really got the mood to cheer loudly for the bball, not as loud as when i cheered for the volley ball match the other time. Besides, everyone's standing up this time, waste more energy lei... hahahz
Match is quite exciting just tt there're some rules which i'm not so familiar. U're nvr noe who's the winner until the last minute cos taking consideration the scoring system and the competitiveness of the players, tt's y it's so engaging.
TJ lead for the first 20 mins or so which got overpowered for a while later on by HCI. Maybe tt's when they start to lose focus ba. But when the match seems disappointing for TJ later on, TJ went all out to play. Tt's when all the surprise came in. When TJ emerged champion, the whole stadium was filled wif TJ's cries of victory! Yea, tt's super duper loud and deafening... The volume soon reached to a saturation pt tt it seems juz like a constant high pitch vibrating through my ears... The bball ppl were overjoyed, ran abt da bball grounds, wavering the sch flag high with pride. Nation anthem and sch song were sang after the prize ceremony.
Can't meet up with the class or joe for an outing cos i gotta rush home to visit my mum. I saw zg, chris and dexter on my way home.
=SPA=
okiez, i hav only physics spa tt thurs, gotta stay back late, cos after tt i have to hold the interview. It's a realli crazy day, everyone sort of know the question, no... they have the supposed answer scheme! Well... there's actually many versions of it, purely prepared by students ba. I duno which is correct actually. Somehow, i broke another promise again... shit.. i juz hate myself for tt... it's another mistake tt can never be undone...
when desai reminded us of the time left, everyone was giggling. I guess no one needs tt time since all completed in such short time...
=interview=
muahahaz.. tis's quite fun.. ok, not that i tekan the juniors but it's juz different. yep.. besides i truly want to know how they'll answer in this situation. Some gave quite disappointing answers not what we expect but hmz... i'll juz see how things go. let's hope they can go on with the planning soon.
=college cleaning=
sux... gotta wait very long before we can clean as there's listening inside the LT. felt so bored cos there's nth to do. Some ppl in our class juz sit at the stage under the LT. In the end, we juz play the so called spastic game, "di1 di3 di2 di1 di3, di4 di4" da name is in hanyu pinyin. hahaz. I think i improve alot on the response time. Din end up with all my fingers out and i manage to drag some ppl to a worser state, muahaha..
when we're finally able to clean, we find tt the other class isn't even in the LT at all.. Oh well, so we just carry on with the cleaning. Tried a few methods to clean: with purely water, wif da duno wad spray miss fong gave, etc... Yup, it's all pretty simple except for the cleaning of walls... Wth, i spend so much energy to clean the stains while some ppl in my class juz anyhow clean... ahem, shan't name who.. ya, but cos the cleaning agent's abit too strong, somehow the wall gets clean cos it's corroded.
I was blamed for taking 20/04's mop. Bleahz, seriously, i dino tt. My frend was using it and he pass on to me cos he's on the phone n kaoz, tt's how i ended up like a fool... zzz...
after all tt, 10/04 leaves earlier than 20/04. I din go home immediately, went to see how the poster is done... and ok, the photog is doing work, hahaz... thx alot =D and... cut down the number of drinks to be sold... seriously, i dun tink we're able to sell in time... 40 cans per hour... tt's alot...
yup, tt's all. end of updates. wow, spend abt 40 mins here.
duno y i'm bloggin when i've juz returned home an hour ago.
had real fun singing my heart out @ KBox in tampines. Thanks jy for da idea of giving me an idea to somehow make me feel much better. I felt so cooped up for very long. actually still, It's quite ex for me.. but okie la.. so many hours. Da staff din chase us out even though we're supposed to leave 45 min ago at 7 de. ate so much free flow snakes tt my throat's so dry... yucks.. perhaps they purposely add pepper or wad to make it spicy so you'll probably nid to buy MORE drinks. hahaz
sang quite alot of songs, although there's only me, jianyuan, esmond... we manage to sing a wide variety of songs like english, chinese, japanese, males' songs, females' songs, duet etc... dun ask me how we manage to sing female songs, we juz can... LOL duno if there's such time again..
GP lesson is still v stressing. mdm lim tokin abt rate of improvements... i tink although she din mention anything abt me, which i guess isnt good. i nid to do tings to improve my GP.. but how m i to get da time... i nid to give up alot of things i guess. wanted to get gp tuition but i'm told tt it may b similar to sch's teaching methods. so i get physics instead...
hey ppl, come get guitar tix.. hahaz, helping to promote for my ex-guitar mates. =X it's quite cheap, $7 oso wif gold wif honours std de lei...
aye... rushing interview stuff out... + sports carnival stuff, argh haiz...
still tinking of sum stuff but i tink eventually i still hav to shake it off... it may be better for everyone. i duno hw sad the other can b but i juz wanted da best way out, not tied together facing unhappiness every day.
had real fun singing my heart out @ KBox in tampines. Thanks jy for da idea of giving me an idea to somehow make me feel much better. I felt so cooped up for very long. actually still, It's quite ex for me.. but okie la.. so many hours. Da staff din chase us out even though we're supposed to leave 45 min ago at 7 de. ate so much free flow snakes tt my throat's so dry... yucks.. perhaps they purposely add pepper or wad to make it spicy so you'll probably nid to buy MORE drinks. hahaz
sang quite alot of songs, although there's only me, jianyuan, esmond... we manage to sing a wide variety of songs like english, chinese, japanese, males' songs, females' songs, duet etc... dun ask me how we manage to sing female songs, we juz can... LOL duno if there's such time again..
GP lesson is still v stressing. mdm lim tokin abt rate of improvements... i tink although she din mention anything abt me, which i guess isnt good. i nid to do tings to improve my GP.. but how m i to get da time... i nid to give up alot of things i guess. wanted to get gp tuition but i'm told tt it may b similar to sch's teaching methods. so i get physics instead...
hey ppl, come get guitar tix.. hahaz, helping to promote for my ex-guitar mates. =X it's quite cheap, $7 oso wif gold wif honours std de lei...
aye... rushing interview stuff out... + sports carnival stuff, argh haiz...
still tinking of sum stuff but i tink eventually i still hav to shake it off... it may be better for everyone. i duno hw sad the other can b but i juz wanted da best way out, not tied together facing unhappiness every day.
nth ever da same anymore... in a myriad of feelings... all has bcome juz part of da memories to be painfully sealed... wad i cherish is no longer b any relevant anymore
awfully painful... beyond more den juz tears. essential problems undermine the outcome of a happy future. maybe it's easy to tink others r giving excuses but when u hear ur own words being accused as such, how excruciating can tt pain be... trust being misplaced
Maybe it's juz a better way out... whether it's rite anot, i duno.
hopefully everything will just be alrite for mum... she's juz acting if nth's ever happen, perhaps juz dun wan me to worry. I gotta b strong to help look out for each other in family den.
awfully painful... beyond more den juz tears. essential problems undermine the outcome of a happy future. maybe it's easy to tink others r giving excuses but when u hear ur own words being accused as such, how excruciating can tt pain be... trust being misplaced
Maybe it's juz a better way out... whether it's rite anot, i duno.
hopefully everything will just be alrite for mum... she's juz acting if nth's ever happen, perhaps juz dun wan me to worry. I gotta b strong to help look out for each other in family den.
fri 13, wee.. lolz.. wad's there to crap abt today.
had lunch alone as usual fri will b... went to AI alone to return batt, tt's even worse!
got back maths test, failed as expected... haiz. luckily still got pass chem test.. din waste tues studyin so late.
thx gerard for da WCIII. My bro's havin his post-exam activities on tt ord... lolz
grr... can't even force any lil info outta y3 except tt she's attached? hahahz...
maybe isolation isnt such a bad idea afterall
mood: -tired-
had lunch alone as usual fri will b... went to AI alone to return batt, tt's even worse!
got back maths test, failed as expected... haiz. luckily still got pass chem test.. din waste tues studyin so late.
thx gerard for da WCIII. My bro's havin his post-exam activities on tt ord... lolz
grr... can't even force any lil info outta y3 except tt she's attached? hahahz...
maybe isolation isnt such a bad idea afterall
mood: -tired-
Potato starch
woots... played water polo today. quite fun, no nid to swim actually... cos for us swimming thru will b slower. First half, our team is losing until duno y suddenly coordination bcomes v good... team members all trust each other ba. For Izzard's team, he throws to very few ppl only, hahaz..
found tis pic on the net. Got reminded that for the food chem, the lecturer showed us a pic of potato starch... Can't find the exact pic but closest was tt above.
Din go anywhere else ba... in sch till quite late. thx ky n mich for accompanying me... =D
Truly wanted to go out wif her de. Duno y always see me as reluctant feeling...
Mother's day celeb was quite fun. BBQ was almost da load of crap initially... had trouble getting proper fire. Luckily got LQ's bro who manage to help us a great deal. Ha... can't stand yanli n her bf crappin man... so lame... she delays her 21st bdae celebration to tt day... for me i tink it's weird to celeb bdae on a day nt ur bdae ba. Wad do u all think?
Fruit cake still nicer den choc cake i tink.. hahaz, den ate abit of steamboat oso. Chicken run was on da TV. rmb LQ luffin at da same crappy stuff me n my bro luffin at oso... =P I wanted to play mahjong to earn $$ but end up playin wif yl, her bf, LQ, me n my bro dai dee. Not bad.. first time win tt many rounds.. but no $$ de, how to anyway... but juz a few rounds hav to go home le... abit spoil sport but it was getting late oso le ba...
da nite sky was realli realli nice, how cool n nice it'll b to share hearts over tt nite...
Finally get to listen to almost the whole load of songs from jukebox to here. Dun nid to listen to da same old songs...
Some stuff tt i rmb, y is it tt ppl juz cant rmb? Is it cos it's so insignificant? Tt dun justify the reason y one shuld get angry ba. Besides, misunderstanding's getting so common nowadays, i hate my life now...
maybe i juz feel like running away from everything ba, anything anywhere far away...
mood: -unknown-
Mother's day celeb was quite fun. BBQ was almost da load of crap initially... had trouble getting proper fire. Luckily got LQ's bro who manage to help us a great deal. Ha... can't stand yanli n her bf crappin man... so lame... she delays her 21st bdae celebration to tt day... for me i tink it's weird to celeb bdae on a day nt ur bdae ba. Wad do u all think?
Fruit cake still nicer den choc cake i tink.. hahaz, den ate abit of steamboat oso. Chicken run was on da TV. rmb LQ luffin at da same crappy stuff me n my bro luffin at oso... =P I wanted to play mahjong to earn $$ but end up playin wif yl, her bf, LQ, me n my bro dai dee. Not bad.. first time win tt many rounds.. but no $$ de, how to anyway... but juz a few rounds hav to go home le... abit spoil sport but it was getting late oso le ba...
da nite sky was realli realli nice, how cool n nice it'll b to share hearts over tt nite...
Finally get to listen to almost the whole load of songs from jukebox to here. Dun nid to listen to da same old songs...
Some stuff tt i rmb, y is it tt ppl juz cant rmb? Is it cos it's so insignificant? Tt dun justify the reason y one shuld get angry ba. Besides, misunderstanding's getting so common nowadays, i hate my life now...
maybe i juz feel like running away from everything ba, anything anywhere far away...
mood: -unknown-
here's da long awaited updates. Quite tired recently to write much ba.. Besides there's alot of stuff tt I can't juz blog abt.
X-cube is trained over n over again so many times n not 1 time it can complete? how ridiculous. Yet when it's tried after competition is over.. it can make it... i've nth to say manz... Thanatos got score but of cos isnt even on par wif dover's timing. It's juz a world for new robots not old ones ba.. It's quite depressing for me ba... Not even an achievement in my period of duty, I've failed...
There's no prelim rounds, juz straight into da maze wif lotsa parking lots. RJ did curve turn explore but failed. NYJ hav familiar running ability as WRSS... hintz... CJ too. Some have very very slow explore pace... dun hav patience watching it run. I was having tis conclusion if it's a marketing strategy to push all schools to buy newer n better mouse so tt they hav da $$ to gain from it...
I din flirt to get da chairman position.. can criticise abt my capability n nt other stuff... I certainly did not.. If in the first place, u arent happy abt it.. shulda juz say.. duno wad else to say abt it.. i certainly m nt biased against anyone. i can joke abt sum1 but tt's certainly juz joke nth much against da person. Besides being too -ve abt sumthin juz taints anyting tt is neutral, BLACK~ Guess tt's abt all i have to say ba...
thx chingz for ur gd luck =)
bought marshmallows a while back... can't finish all.. aye~ have to eat slowly den..
Mood: -incomplete-
X-cube is trained over n over again so many times n not 1 time it can complete? how ridiculous. Yet when it's tried after competition is over.. it can make it... i've nth to say manz... Thanatos got score but of cos isnt even on par wif dover's timing. It's juz a world for new robots not old ones ba.. It's quite depressing for me ba... Not even an achievement in my period of duty, I've failed...
There's no prelim rounds, juz straight into da maze wif lotsa parking lots. RJ did curve turn explore but failed. NYJ hav familiar running ability as WRSS... hintz... CJ too. Some have very very slow explore pace... dun hav patience watching it run. I was having tis conclusion if it's a marketing strategy to push all schools to buy newer n better mouse so tt they hav da $$ to gain from it...
I din flirt to get da chairman position.. can criticise abt my capability n nt other stuff... I certainly did not.. If in the first place, u arent happy abt it.. shulda juz say.. duno wad else to say abt it.. i certainly m nt biased against anyone. i can joke abt sum1 but tt's certainly juz joke nth much against da person. Besides being too -ve abt sumthin juz taints anyting tt is neutral, BLACK~ Guess tt's abt all i have to say ba...
thx chingz for ur gd luck =)
bought marshmallows a while back... can't finish all.. aye~ have to eat slowly den..
Mood: -incomplete-
weird atmosphere's playing in da air...
chingz: hope u find da bread nice =) brown one represents me n da other is u, hahaz
yanyi: ok, fine.. :P i always noe i'm slow~ dun nid to re-iterate de rite.. if i wana link, could hav done so v early...
Robo:
battery got serious problem but cos it's encapsulated within da robot. It's very hard to change it. Da only possible time is on Tues. Tis's da only time when i hate labour's day. Can't repair earlier... Yanyi tell me help available but in a v pathetic form. Still muz do cheating summore... strictly, i dun tink i shuld allow... risky.. dun wan invest such risk.. lp's grp mse seems ok le. Mine oso but juz tt dumb prob. Even if tues go down, may nid to do sum DIY oso, yong tau hu wun help us dismantle n assemble i tink.
misc:
offended wj. it's nt entirely my fault ba.. dino wad happened oso... hope he's ok.
if there's anything bu shuang, shuld say out. dun say out oso shuldnt say bad things abt ppl.. it's juz wrong. besides there's always 2 sides of da story, having heard 1 side isnt close to truth at all.. not even near...
mood: -worried-
chingz: hope u find da bread nice =) brown one represents me n da other is u, hahaz
yanyi: ok, fine.. :P i always noe i'm slow~ dun nid to re-iterate de rite.. if i wana link, could hav done so v early...
Robo:
battery got serious problem but cos it's encapsulated within da robot. It's very hard to change it. Da only possible time is on Tues. Tis's da only time when i hate labour's day. Can't repair earlier... Yanyi tell me help available but in a v pathetic form. Still muz do cheating summore... strictly, i dun tink i shuld allow... risky.. dun wan invest such risk.. lp's grp mse seems ok le. Mine oso but juz tt dumb prob. Even if tues go down, may nid to do sum DIY oso, yong tau hu wun help us dismantle n assemble i tink.
misc:
offended wj. it's nt entirely my fault ba.. dino wad happened oso... hope he's ok.
if there's anything bu shuang, shuld say out. dun say out oso shuldnt say bad things abt ppl.. it's juz wrong. besides there's always 2 sides of da story, having heard 1 side isnt close to truth at all.. not even near...
mood: -worried-
hmz.. i smell sum fishy incidents in robotics.. sum scandalous stuff again. sense sum ^@=@^.. hahaz, kidding, dun take me 4 real ya?
muaz, mouse diagonal still nt v nice but it's sumthing i've tried doing, duno whether consider much improvements.. straight dash v hard le..
juz wana everyone to contribute abit for robotics ba.. be it time or effort. shuldnt juz siam away a time like tt.. Other ppl's bothering to come n do stuff lor.
GP period do nth productive. My grp sit down there tok cok or stoning till da lecture starts... saw hw joe got 'kai'. lol... seems like gay porn though. JY's realli crappy lor, get on zhiren's nerves.. hahaz...
wahaha... got several new songs to listen le.. yay.. cos jukebox software got prob cant transfer song, sad man. Duno hw to solve oso.
mood: -busy-
muaz, mouse diagonal still nt v nice but it's sumthing i've tried doing, duno whether consider much improvements.. straight dash v hard le..
juz wana everyone to contribute abit for robotics ba.. be it time or effort. shuldnt juz siam away a time like tt.. Other ppl's bothering to come n do stuff lor.
GP period do nth productive. My grp sit down there tok cok or stoning till da lecture starts... saw hw joe got 'kai'. lol... seems like gay porn though. JY's realli crappy lor, get on zhiren's nerves.. hahaz...
wahaha... got several new songs to listen le.. yay.. cos jukebox software got prob cant transfer song, sad man. Duno hw to solve oso.
mood: -busy-
in a state of dilemma. My friends dun realli noe what m i tinking. To them, things r juz tt simple and easy as it is. Of cuz i hope it is, but sumthing's juz lacking. No one is apparent upset, but maybe juz me feeling empty. trying to b cheerful juz deceives myself nothing except da perception of others. in a time when negative feedback is more frequent, one often gets discouraged.
I'm so happy for TJ Guitar Club. Gold wif honours lei! Heard dey're d only one among d jcs to get tt! even though other jcs hav put up very gd show wif both performance and appearance. Tis shows juz hw much guitar club has strived to achieve.
I din go on wed cos got BMTC k.. dun say i go elsewhere for duno wad purpose. Gona stay back every possible day to do mm. Dun wana hav any regrets when i step down. It'll be one of da last show in my jc phase le, wana get sum results. It's hard to moltivate everyone... still tinking of a way.
ZG's a v frendly chap to tok wif. A cheerful person tt can constantly bring delight to his frenz arnd him. if only i'm tt pro. hahaz...
Mood: -turbulent-
I'm so happy for TJ Guitar Club. Gold wif honours lei! Heard dey're d only one among d jcs to get tt! even though other jcs hav put up very gd show wif both performance and appearance. Tis shows juz hw much guitar club has strived to achieve.
I din go on wed cos got BMTC k.. dun say i go elsewhere for duno wad purpose. Gona stay back every possible day to do mm. Dun wana hav any regrets when i step down. It'll be one of da last show in my jc phase le, wana get sum results. It's hard to moltivate everyone... still tinking of a way.
ZG's a v frendly chap to tok wif. A cheerful person tt can constantly bring delight to his frenz arnd him. if only i'm tt pro. hahaz...
Mood: -turbulent-
ha, realised i post twice da same post.. deleted it le..
y's everybody again so sad.. everyone's mood's like a sinusoidal wave... there's alot of secrets everyone is holding now ba juz dun share only, n i tink tt's y. i tink i m like tt oso ba.. sorry esmond for waiting so long for me... realli v sorry lei... anyway, tell me ur new blog when ready..
thx chingz for ur cookies.. realli yummy although abit chao da~ i realli appreciate ur efforts to bake tt, although not only for me la...haha
tink i'll screw up tis computing coursework la.. so damn depressed... it's very high weightage out of da A lvl sub lei... jialat la... no use crying over spilt milk le, haiz...
Robo competition coming soon le.. 5th may.. i feel tt our mse std still nt there yet... hw to compete.. haiz... mayb muz make da members stay back more.. me inclusive ba...
Mood: -unknown-
y's everybody again so sad.. everyone's mood's like a sinusoidal wave... there's alot of secrets everyone is holding now ba juz dun share only, n i tink tt's y. i tink i m like tt oso ba.. sorry esmond for waiting so long for me... realli v sorry lei... anyway, tell me ur new blog when ready..
thx chingz for ur cookies.. realli yummy although abit chao da~ i realli appreciate ur efforts to bake tt, although not only for me la...haha
tink i'll screw up tis computing coursework la.. so damn depressed... it's very high weightage out of da A lvl sub lei... jialat la... no use crying over spilt milk le, haiz...
Robo competition coming soon le.. 5th may.. i feel tt our mse std still nt there yet... hw to compete.. haiz... mayb muz make da members stay back more.. me inclusive ba...
Mood: -unknown-
