=2005 Recall=
2005 has sure been a busy year for me in general. Many things I've gone through and I think I really matured a lot in that year.

In the early months of 2005, I was still in the midst of adjusting my identity in school. I had thought I still was a year 1. When the principal addressed the year 1s, I actually almost listened to it as though it's instructions for my batch. Haha. Mm.. As for the teachers, all remained the same except for GP, Mr Veera left our class and Mdm Lim joined our class. Well, Mdm Lim has an interesting appearance that is quite "unique". Her features and the dangling hair which swayed from sides to sides always reminds me of a ghost. To my surprise, I'm not the only one who thinks that way - my friends and classmates too! Lol, hope she's not reading this... =P

It's also the year I'm a senior in my pdp after the year before as a junior. The task of getting people to join robotics thus landed mostly in my hands. Oh, and it's not an easy task at all... After all, for such a pdp, naturally interested participants will join and non-interested participants will soon leave no matter how much you try to make them to be intrigued in robotics matter. Maybe Gerard is the only exception I've seen so far, I think. Come to think of it, I still miss guitar club pretty much but there can only be one me, so I have to devote my time properly.

The class had become a closer bunch than it was in 2004 and I thought of it as a good progress. There was a bbq in 2004 and it's pretty fun though. The whole class seldom get together but when we do, it's fun! The last bbq's tone was weird though. I couldn't feel the same warmth there, more of a kind of sadness. I don't know if I was over sensitive but I thought of a few classmates who expressed their mood so. Estella promised a Sentosa outing this year, hope it'll materialise. Hee.

In April, there comes to the time when I'm attached with hoi ching for a short time. Mm, I didn't know that so many people are that interested in my affairs and many had tried to dig things out and talk about it and made me rather embarrassed about it - like searching through my friendster and filtering every word I say etc... Haha. I mean it's not anything shameful but it's still my first official relationship per se so I've started with zero experience. I treat relationships as serious matters and don't think of it as a game. But perhaps I'm know too little about love affairs, things don't really work out for me. Ultimately, everything ended a month later.

In June, I was rather distracted by several things. Partly is after the broke up that lasted for quite long but mainly was due to my mother's operation. I didn't know how things will turn out for that moment. It's not a small operation also so many instructions were given to me as I am the oldest child in the family. Daily tasks had to be performed by my brother and I which is quite tough as we have to take up house chores all the sudden. Perhaps, it really indicated how lucky I was to have people to do that for me. It's not entitlement but a priviledge... The adjustment period somehow affected my june common test as I really don't have mood for it. I plunged into video games as they are the channels to escape out of reality I suppose.

After that, the teachers are kind of shocked about my results of course. It's a large contrast between that and the year 1 promotional results. Seeing those of all my classmates' which are improving steadily, I'm getting progressively worried as well. It was also the period I had to let go of things: service learning and the club. I felt that I hadn't really done the transition part well and I seemed to have added a lot of stress and unhappiness in the club. I didn't know mao xin stayed back and helped a great deal until very much later. It wasn't all sad things, service learning ended quite happily I think. I'm not sure if the kids missed us or not, but it seemed at least they gave us a nice ending to that programme. It's really not sufficient for a mentoring programme and I hope the next batch can do better than the pioneer batch.

NAPFA was the thing that bugged me throughout. I'm an unfit guy since I was young. I wasn't interested in exercising and thus it became a habit for me to not keep myself fit. Only until quite late did I realise the importance of it. At that point, my appearance can't change anymore, perhaps only metabolism rate. Haha. I still remembered the time I was called for in the TAF programme in primary school. In secondary school, I belonged to the health and fitness conditioning group which is simply one that contains those who hadn't pass NAPFA test. Even in JC, I was in the "S-paper" group since I didn't pass year 1 NAPFA test. All these certainly made me seem really lazy right? But I thought of exercising in an eager attitude now to keep up for the times that was lost. Lol. However, I still didn't know how yunhui and weina got the impression that I was a sportsman from. Haha. Fortunately, in the end, I still achieved a silver standard in NAPFA. 1st time ever in my life, lol, yeah!

Jian Yuan, Esmond are the friends in class I told a lot of things to. I guess i'm too comfortable in a small close group than to enlarge my comfort zone to too many people. Mao xin is one who doesn't really poke into my matter unless I want to let him know but on and off I wasn't too consistent as a friend to him. Perhaps initially I wasn't too comfortable with his extraordinary jokes and laughter... Well, turned out okay when I sorted out my thinking. Joel and weiquan are also another group of friends I talk to at times. It's not very frequent but it's fun just to have conversations that other friends aren't interested. Joel is a concerned friend but I just don't give a lot of things to let him dig.. Lol. My "family" is the last group that I always hang out. However the sad thing is that we're not really that close. Just probably lots to chat about because of the cheerful fiona. Hmm, going to miss the noisy voices, haha.

Next, the prelim exams had took a great toll on me. A level is the kind of studies you need to be constantly prepared to do well. Since I wasn't consistent enough, it's extremely stressful for me to cram information. Doesn't seem to digest well though. I thought A level will be better since I learnt my lessons from prelims. Well, it turned out to be partially true. There are other problems I hadn't discover till then. Now, everything's over. But I'm still worried every now and then about the results. I read the forums about whether is there any permit for NS disruptions to retake A level as a private candidate just to improve the grades and I don't think it's allowed unless A level was incompleted.

Christmas Outing was the second last outing I had. Thanks a lot chingz for making that a memorable one. Ha, I hope the presents aren't too cheapskate for you. =P But it's seldom chance where I can pour out what I want to say. Hope you can make your 2006 a good one. Mm, remember what you have promised yourself on the wrong experiences and not to do the same again and things probably won't go wrong, heez.

=2006 Events=
It's a new start to a new year. I don't really set resolutions and things like that. However, I do believe that it'll be an exciting year for me. It's probably going to be strenous in NS but with the proper mindset I can make it through. MIW website has provided me with comprehensive information through the forum.

I also hope the world will be peaceful without major disasters or outbreaks. Mm, yeah, that'll be splendid enough for this year. Haha...