Had a 10/04 outing few days back. Mm, before that I was wondering to go for it or not. So far, it hasn't really been very fun for me. Honestly speaking, the class is really fragmented. I wasn't sure if everyone is genuinely interested in the outing or just going with the flow, the mass of people in the class. Every time, when I'm out with them, I either feel happy talking to the girls or the guys at one time, not as a class no matter how much I try to sort out my conversations to suit both. Somehow I just never get to voice this out but it just feels so uncomfortable...

However, it's a rare occasion for my class to get a gathering with Ms Fong especially after J2. Everyone changed a little bit especially the girls. Some guys still remember pretty much the same. Ha, I don't know for them how much or little I've changed... Ha, I hope other than appearance, my character is better?

The session wasn't that fruitful in that I haven't really found out what they've gone through so far. But I thought it's inevitable that the gap will widen once we embark on our separate ways... I miss the old days.

Mm... I didn't know what's on my mind... Have I become partially numb by the pain of what happened to me before? Has that made me unable to see my true feelings? I really don't know what's going on...