I think after what she's done to me, I'm quite touched but still unable to feel that real connection between me and her. I think the fault lies in me. She has tried very hard on her part for it yet I did nothing in comparison. I wonder should I really do things with my heart or is it better to fool myself to do things out of my will? By then maybe things would have become different?

I'm just so lost. She may not be coming back. I'm utterly speechless, what am I going to say. What good will I do even if she stays...?