Fabulous Feb

Blogging during my rest period… Can’t stand the stress of my peers in furious progress of the lab project. Maybe I should have target to do something simpler instead of trying to make a piece of silicon be a game machine. I shall re-plan my project. My lab partner doesn’t seem to do anything at all… Sigh.

I thought this year’s birthday would be much lonelier. Why? Because I’m not so involved in hall nor CAC. So I don’t have time to mix around with fr iends here nor there. But to be realistic, I wouldn’t be able to handle all that outings and meet-ups if I am trying hard to cope with my studies. None of my freshies messaged me a happy birthday message…

Nevertheless, I’m still happy to have it celebrated with my OG friends and bao. I should stop indulging in self-pity and move on. 23 years old is just 2 years old adult right? Haha, I’m not so old after all…

People usually wonder why I seem to be that close to my brother. I don’t really know. It’s just that we can talk about anything at all even though our characters are so world apart. I recently wondered why he became so addicted to clubbing. There were many nonsensical replies from him. After much probing, eventually, he finally revealed. “现在我的心里其实很空虚…”

Even for the usual no worries kind of guy said that. I didn’t expect that. Maybe what we need is people who can understand us for who we are and to spend time together…

The late nights have made me more moody I guess. When I feel sad, I’ll feel really sad. Same when I’m angry. I’ll feel like smashing anything in my way… Sometimes it made me feel a little retarded too. For example, I’ll mispronounce a word I usually can… So the point is sleep early right? I wish I can.

Hai… I’m sorry. I really want to go for that outing…