Bought 2 bags over the weekend. Spent about $70 in total. It's quite a lot to buy in one go but I'm quite satisfied about my choice, hee. I'll make sure it'll last me quite a while again.

End of course already. Really enjoyed my time in WSTC. I think it's one of the wonderful time you can have in NS. The instructors are really nice and I feel quite closely knitted with my friends in OEW class. Really felt kind of sad to leave my friends. They are humorous and caring. I feel at ease telling them about my stuff. I think I will always miss the time when I see Lip Sin gets whacked for acting cute, Ser Jing for getting bullied by Salvin, Ah Gong for being such a "nice" friend who will always "sabo" me, Jason for always motivate me with the word "cougar", You Shen for always being so "off" and gabriel for always taking care of me like a brother.

Initially thought that I will be posted to LST after hearing from my classmate who overheard SI's conversation with Staff Lee. Ultimately, there seems to be a new slot for frigate and SI seems to be keen in putting me in frigate. Actually, I have no particular preference between these two ships just that I have a tendency to think that frigate is more tough because it's supposed to be an elite ship and the system is new. Thus, as a new ship crew, I will probably need to learn more things and do more things as the ship crews are probably more "garang". As to whether how different I'll turn out to be after the training, I'm not sure. Hopefully, I'll be a better ship crew, a better man.

=Sentosa Outing=
It's a half day celebration at Sentosa for Tracom anniversary celebration I think. Tracom means training command for Navy. First half of the day is to play the compulsory games as set by the organisers. I was pretty bored making straw sculptures actually to be honest. They wanted everyone to be there by 7.30 am but the event starts at 9! I suppose they expect many people to be late, that's why. Here are some of the photos taken by my camera:

Gabriel and me. Yep, one of the closer buddies I have in camp. I think he'll miss us when we post out. Master Chua told us that he felt quite emotional when he sees that we are going to post out. He just doesn't show up emotions in front.

The next photo shows my friends from ex-cabin 4-49 during the days we are called Tekong group in IMOS. That was a few months ago already. Time flies.

The next photo is with my OEW classmates. They are fun people to be with. I'm glad to have gone through JTQT with them. Although some are more noisy, some quite innocent, some quite irritating but funny, they aren't the backstabbers type; Willing to help each other. I think I'll miss the noises when they're gone.

Next photo is me and my buddy, Eugene. Ha, always remember him as a hot tempered friend. He's straight-forward to things he doesn't like. But hm, he's one I find very comfortable to talk to and about anything in the world. We have different interests but common mindset. That's why he's someone I like to talk to.

This photo is chanmama and me. Ha, he's jason chan. He has a warm and innocent personality. Always loves to pinch Lip Sin and my fats around the waist. Irritating but reminds me of my brother. Haha.

See how the cute boy is trying to get away from us? Jeffrey loves our companionship but is scared of us doing something to him. For me, I only feel like pinching his cheeks because his cute expression is so irresistibly adorable. Ha... Oh, I sound so much like a paedophile.

Ha, here is the sandcastle built by my clan. I find it not bad because I don't know how to build one. Don't know why we only got 1 out of 10 pts. Hmm.. What do you think?

Here is the straw sculpture of a bicycle made by me and my friends. The additional criteria is to make the wheels mobile. Mine is able to rotate but didn't know why only got 1 out of 10 pts. Wonder if the judge is biased against my group. However, overall, Tangs clan scored 29 pts which is not a bad score since the beach soccer game scored full 10 pts and got a prize for that.

After that, some of us went to play beach volleyball. From there, I learnt a bit of what that game is about. Fortunately, the guys are accomodating to my standard and are willing to teach me how to play better. All in all, it's a nice day on that island.

Thanks pal for keeping up with the updates in my blog. I thought due to the infrequent post, no one will continue to support this. :)

Had a hard time finding the neccesary bios file needed for GBA emulation. A new emulator gPSP was written in a new method and supposedly more efficient than the PSPVBA which was updated so often but not still isn't up to mark. Now many roms can run already. Hoping to see both programmers not to give up in their projects and work for the benefit of everybody.

Had a discussion with my parents regarding the voluntary trip for iraq mission if I ever get to post to the LST going for the mission. They strongly felt that I shouldn't go for it just because I was attracted to the regular pay plus the risk pay which can sum up to $20 thousand+. The weather condition is harsh and the situation may be quite chaotic. No one can guarantee my safety during the mission. I have to sign a paper which to be approved by both parents in order to go for it. Now, after delibrating for some time, maybe it isn't worthwhile to make that kind of sacrifice for that money which I can earn more than that in the future.

Sometimes, I can't stand talking to very rich guys. They just got some kind of ego in them that they don't realise. Worse still, when you start talking to them, they begin flaunting what kind of choices they will make to purchase something that you can compromise for a much cheaper but yet for the same usage. Well... it hurts them if I do tell them that they are being arrogant in saying things like that but I figure out that they don't realise at all. They don't understand how people poorer than them feel about the kind of things that people feel sensitive about. It's all about pride when talking about money matters. By not getting annoyed in such conversation I have to resort to changing topic which involve little mention about wealth. Bleahz... No choice, I just hope when I become rich one day, I don't become such a person nor will I want my son or daughter to be a spoilt brat.

Saw cousin Yoong Fa at the CNB cookhouse. He's a 2wo officer in navy. Oh well, I didn't know he was in navy as no one had informed me about it. I did say hello to him there and got too much attention due to that. When I came back to my food, I can hear the whole class talking about relationship and pulling strings etc. My classmates asked me lots of questions and made jokes out of that but I can tell it wasn't meant to be a hostile insult, just a casual but irritating joke. I didn't ask a lot when I talked to him because of another officer sitting beside him. I was afraid that something sensitive about my comments or questions will not be nice if the other person hears. After all, I don't know if his collegue is that close to him or not.

Thus, through out the week, I'm being "suan" by friends as a 5WO because I've got WSTC SI and cousin to watch over me in Navy and so I'm not worried that I'll get bullied. It's not true in anyway... SI may have a better impression of me but that'll not take me far because I have to score well to go to whichever platform I want and to keep a positive attitude in order not to suffer in OJT. It's all about me, myself and I. So the only thing to do is to learn to make the best out of myself.

My brother just received the invitation magazine from singapore polytechnic. A thought just flashed in my mind. It seemed only a while ago that I remembered myself looking at a similar poly magazine, trying to make up my mind over the choice of embarking on the learning route of junior college or polytechnic after secondary school. Time passes so fast and now it's my brother 3 years later having the same dilemma as me back then. I felt that I have to cherish my time. There aren't many 3 years in a lifetime. Got to make good use of it.

Just heard something that is so hurting to me. Is it me who don't know where I stand or is the person too judgmental... I find the thing that happened so lame, dumb, stupid, whatever you can think of and I just couldn't give any sense to what I agreed or was doing... Don't think I'll ever do the same again. I just need someone who appreciates me to be by my side, someone whom I can totally connect to. Is that so hard to find? If someone can be so superficially evaluated, there's no value in knowing a person at all already. Forget it, I'll just try not to think about it.

Almost all the girls I know in my batch are going to university. I'm feeling kind of left out. Don't know why I feel this way. I'm getting to feel old already. Yet, by the time I enter university, I'm already much behind in the academic pace already. Just having lots of confused thoughts right now. Don't know if I'm making much sense here or not.

Listening to Rainie's sentimental songs make me feel something out of it... I guess that's how I'm feeling right now.

It's been approximately another month away from my last blog update. I think I'm getting lazier to blog about things. I prefer to get things straight away. Somehow, I seem to realise a change in character in me. I'm getting more hot-tempered and impatient now. I don't have the patience to read long text and to create something from scratch. I don't want to teach people something that takes a lot of effort... There's also many other things I just don't care. Is that normal for me?

I'm getting addicted to PSP nowadays. I just can't live without it. Surfing pspupdates.qj.net is a frequent thing now other than finding skins for windows. It's just amazing to be able to play so many commercial games on a small media console like that. It's able to do many other things that's beyond the legal scope allowed by Sony. There's no fast and effective way that Sony can do to destroy the homebrew scene since it's growing. I guess the only way is entice the users to update the psp by some other attractive features that will be provided for free.

Will be getting half year supply of contact lenses soon. I wonder how will I feel when I wear it. I want to know if it's really tiring to wear it, difficult to maintain versus the appearance... Actually I didn't really want to get but didn't know why I agreed to Sebastian's suggestion. Ha, so be it. There's always a first time to everything.

It's the end of JRC. I miss Bravo class. I think it's really fun to be with them... I just can't believe that all these already are going to end... Most of us are not sure with the vocation yet but had to say goodbye to those people posting out for 195, NMA and Chef. Well, hmm.. I wonder what awaits me by the time I onboard ship. Since I've gone for helo fire-fighting, it's almost a confirmation that I'll be posted to LST as a gunner. I think many of them onboard will be regulars and NSF will almost be nothing but a mere labour for them. Haiz, not to mention OJT which will be the worst times ahead of me.

I heard that if I got posted to LST which is to be sent for missions, I'll probably get much extra money too. But the duration is quite long too. Well, I wonder will the experience be eye-opening or will I miss home due to the long period away.

Talked to Swee Kwan about relationship. Spurred me to think about it once more. What's the reason that I'm not really considering about being attached now? I don't really know but I guess it could be that I think I will feel detach from a love that buds from a new relationship. It's a painful feeling to not see someone for a week during this time. I'm reassured by so many to let nature take its course for now. Perhaps that's the best way for me.

Another short weekend out... Sian...

There's a group of foreign navy cadets from Hong Kong, Canada and India staying in IMOS for some foreign exchange programme I think. Because of them, IMOS has organised many activities for them and baiyi's trying to show them who's the authority as usual in colours by getting the whole contingent's 11B. Another major thing put up for them is the campfire. Bravo class which is my class is selected for the working party to help out for the entire day to carry and prepare all the stuff needed. Fortunately, the direct organisers which are the CPOC personnel aren't that bad and so I feel okay helping them. I'm the game master assistant so my job is actually to prepare items needed for the game, nothing much actually...

However, because there's one chio Hong Kong girl in my group, "Grey Rhino", many of my friends suddenly came over to "talk" to me but in fact I doubt that intention. Well, that girl is actually quite cute when she smiles and many wanted to talk to her but is either shy or lack the chance. We guessed that she's attached since we see the same Hong Kong guy around her most of the time. During the campfire dance, zhao qin managed to hold her hand and ultimately got walloped by the rest of the jealous guys. Haha... I think I feel the same too. LOL.

This time the passing rate of swimming CAT test for the rest is surprising! There's only 3 left in CAT 2, the rest passed! This means that my cabin can all wake up together at a later time for colours from now on! Yeah~ I think I'm beginning to like my cabin mates. They are really cool people, haha. Even Weixiang says so...

Hmm... stressed again. Supposed to coordinate JRC project for my group. Not forgetting the crest for the Bravo polo t-shirt. Bleah~

Since I'm writing journal every day as required, I have a habit to shorten my journal from now... However, I'm trying to learn some style in writing such as to add humour in it. I really love reading ryan's journal... It's always so amusing. LOL

=Excitements!=
I just passed my swimming category 1 test which is the final test for all navy seaman to take before getting posted to ship. I hate the feeling of unsure of when I can pass the test, hate the punishments I get from instructors, hate the disruptive nature of the programme in my early morning sleep and evening leisure time, hate the unlimited time I have to spend threading water with coverall and I hate when it takes away saturday time... Now no more, I'm free!

=Boredom~=
This week is the passing out week for the navy recruits. Hence, the BMT sergeants are not free to meddle with us anymore. It's back to the good old days where I can just relax in my cabin. Now, I'm wondering what to do with the free time... Literally, I scroll through my phone contacts thinking of people to message. It's a bit awkward to start messaging people I haven't keep in contact for ages and I start to think how much I've actually lost contact with many friends around me. Other than that, I resort to playing reversi and scrabble in camp. However, I find that scrabble is a bit too intellectual to play in my cabin. Most people choose not to squeeze their brain juice, something that is fun and brainless will do.

IPPT is coming and I still can't get a decent standing broad jump distance. Help!!

=Habits=
There's some change happening within me unknowingly until I think about it recently. Blogging has become not naturally part of my life anymore. It's been really ages since I blog. Movie watching, splurging on food, clothes seem normal to me at this point in time. I sincerely will enjoy celebrate occasions with anyone I cherish even if I have to spend more.

=Character Training=
I'm appointed as the IC for my class and it's never easy any moment being an IC as I have to appear steady and ready all the time in front of my class and officers and other sergeants whom I have to report to. Other than being class IC, I am also the cabin IC which is in charge of the area cleaning of my cabin. Generally, the tough part is to appease everyone as much as possible because sometimes some people just don't really like you to do things the way you see. But fortunately, my class and cabin mates are easier-to-cooperate lot of people which in a way a blessing in disguise.

=Camp Happenings=
It's never more happening for minor outbreaks of illness in my unit. Firstly, the chicken pox outbreak cause much inconvenience for the whole school. After which the chicken pox trend was over, now comes the sore eye outbreak. Troublesome... Wonder what comes next.

CAT I Swimming proficiency. It just seems so hard for me to achieve. So far, I've only managed to remove my coverall after swimming and threading in water for 5 mins. It's not easy at all as the coverall soaked with water feels pretty much like a 5 kg weight on your body. Every seconds in water drains your physical energy... I just want to end my swimming remedial training so as to end the suffering I receive from instructors. It's also a mental torture to swim every day morning and evening. I get sick when I look at swimming pool, yucks.

Life run. I had the first official run organised since I was posted to the school in April. Most other time which it was supposed to be on happened to crash with other activities or CAT I lightning conditions. Anyway, it's not as tough as I thought it will be. After all, most other permanent staff runs much slower for the run and there is no pressure to run fast at all. Just 4 rounds around the school and the distance covered will be 3.2km. Through this, I found out that the navy PT rig is NOT at all good for running or exercise. I feel so hot wearing that. The singlet will be a much better alternative but too bad we are not issued with it.

I had ship visit to Navy's MCMV (RSS Punggol), MCV (RSS Vigour) on one of the days. The vessels are generally quite small and definitely not comparable to even a LST. I was quite horrified when I saw that there can even be people sleeping in the ammo room. It's such a poorly ventilated place and looks pretty much like a slum. Other sleeping quarters in MCV looks similarly bad too. MCMV is comparably more luxurious and I hope if I get posted out, it'll either be LST or MCMV. The furniture in MCMV is IKEA wooden furniture and is generally much cooler than MCV. Mess does look more proper and comfortable.

I had my first academic test in this year in Navy. I can't believe serving the nation involves much academic intelligence. The seamanship exam is set by the exam syndicate and it's so confidential that only on the actual day will the conducting warrant officer and us will get to know the questions on the spot. Although it's supposed to be very easy, I just didn't have the mood to study. Hope I won't fail the test.

I'm not sure if now somehow I can see my influence on others. I can literally see my buddies opening up due to interaction with me. It's a wonderful feeling to know that you actually make a difference or impact to some people's lives. It's not only a one way thing. My friends sometimes do things that touch my heart too, just that as guys we don't usually tell each other. Ha.

=TJ=
Haven't got a chance to go back yet. Heard from yanyi the new exco is chosen. Can't wait to see them. I'm sure they'll be a capable lot. Memories of it still flies through my mind very often. It's nice to think back, the nostalgia seems like a well-brewed coffee that is so rich in flavour, so much so that you wish to savour that taste again.

~Well~ That's about all for now.

=Navy Life=
Ok, now I'm really in navy man. I'm not really sure this was what I wanted but since I'm posted to navy, I've got to learn to adjust to it.

My current group of friends are frank, direct especially those in my class. They will voice out whatever things they are unhappy about in a rather uncouth and rude manner. Thus, my platoon is often in trouble and there is little the rest in the platoon can do to salvage the situation they ruined with the words. Well, I'm still figuring out how I can go along with them and yet still be the Kai Cheng I was. Their life experience is rich and in depth through many difficulties in life and hence they will go to illegal extent to do things which I find it disturbing personally. However, I cannot comment on anything about that, it's their life anyway and I've never been through it.

Most of the time in camp is quite slack. Awaiting for the pre-JRC period is like that, I heard from the privates in the earlier batch. I can't see the reason why we're put in camp till Saturday when there is basically nothing to do except to pass swimming CAT test and I heard that the privates from the earlier batches showed unsatisfactory performance in their JRC and so the permanent staff decides it this way to maintain higher standards of discipline. I wonder how true is that.

My allowance isn't a lot. But ever since I gotten allowance from NS, my mum stopped giving any form of money to me. She became almost stingy to the extent that meal money also refused to pay for me... I've got nothing much to say for the reason she gave. Well, since I aren't attached now, I may as well pamper myself a little given the chance. I need to grow up emotionally. I still feel I ain't having the treatment of a 19 year old man.

Since most of the time in camp, I'm not maximising the use of time, I'm deliberating whether to buy entertainment console to play in camp. Otherwise, I'll be bored to death watching my cabin mates play their gameboys... Afterall, reading novel is just one alternative and I need several more so I won't feel bored in camp.

=BMT Life=
I start out like many others as recruits on the Tekong island. The moment I step into SFT, I see many SAF banners, one of which has a line "It's not what you left behind but the things you gain ahead". It marks a start of the millitary life soon. Parents were ushered to see the good and comfortable parts of SAF while recruits were led to collect personal items.

Afterwhich, came the recitation of the SAF pledge. It would be a memorable moment for many fathers witnessing their sons taking pledge. It's not the same for my dad though, haha. There weren't anyone I know of in my section and I thought it'll be quite hard to be very close to them. Most of them are from RJ and they already know each other. I had to adapt to sleep early during the first 2 weeks as I usually sleep very late. Commanders need to yell at us most of the time to get lights off timing work.

But all these didn't bother me after a while. I really learnt to make myself know how to enjoy when times are tough. I just need to have the right attitude. There are several things that are new to me such as water parade, rush-to-wait, wait-to-rush, rank system, chin up regime, platoon system, buddies system etc... But what's nice about the commanders is that they will try as much as possible to explain the rationale behind the orders given to us. At least I will do things with understanding.

I married my rifle with butt C025 since the first day in camp. No matter where we go unless instructed otherwise, the rifle has to be with me all the time. The only issue I dislike is when the stricter sergeant is on duty in the armskote. Signature must be reproduced exactly from the norminal role each time a rifle is signed out or in. Not even a dot can be missing otherwise, ...

We were taught how to fire accurately in the IMT which feels like playing a computer game. It really feels very different firing a virtual target with fake rifle and firing a real target with real rifle in terms of recoil, sound and light conditions. Of course it feels so damn "shiok" when the target is hit. But too bad my friend dropped my rifle during range causing my zeroing to be off and I got to do manual adjustment myself. Actual range activity ended very late and the moment we reached back company line, it's really bunk sweet bunk.. =)

Field camp is the longest camp for me so far. I should thank god I'm not placed in Ninja company or some other xiong companies in school 2. Most of my memories of it are rather good. The place is also very ideal for my platoon mates to get to know each other closer. Cooperation is needed between buddies especially when it comes to build a basha tent. Since we need each others' equipment to build a basha tent, buddies have to be cooperative. My buddy is a bit "special" and I tend to have heated argument with him. Lol, but in the end, it's still not that bad at all. Mosquitoes and other wild animals are all around the forest. I'm the unlucky one who got multiple bites on and have lots of swelling around my face and hands region. There are about 80+ bites on me for each site we moved to throughout field camp.

Other than that, I learnt how to adapt to finding things in the dark relying less on torchlight. I appreciate the experiences my section commander share with my section. Those are things that I would never be able to learn about it personally in the civilian world. The latrine is also one place you may not like to go due to the overwhelming shit smell concentrated together. I would rather dig a hole for myself. Haha.. I heard of many stories during field camp but I find nothing so ghostly yet. Maybe it's better not to be able to see that sort of stuff.

Getting a proper camo and not dozing off are challenges to me. As the weather is so hot, I sweat a lot more. The more I sweat, the less likely I'll be able to apply good camo. The IFC lectures are usually quite boring and manage to send many eyelids down. The practice makes us dirty but is fun to carry out in actions especially when we are allowed to shoot blanks without giving any concern that we will run out of ammunition. There's more than enough, in fact plentiful.

Bookout days and meal times are things I always look forward to. It's just the pleasant sight of things when other activities just shag you out. There were times when I'm just too tired to be of my normal physical standard. It's stressful to see many of your platoon mates who are so good in their fitness getting great improvement.

Last but not least, I am happy to join the drill team and be able to perform for games day and POP graduation. I set my mind to do it and I was able to prove myself right and this is one of the few things I decided and has not gotten any regrets even though my admin times are all burnt to train for the drills.

Route marches are tough but fortunately it's progressive. Every march strengthens my physical and mental endurance and at last I manage to complete the 24km route march. Singing songs along the way really help to forget some of the sufferings along the way. The final route march is memorable. Everyone took turns to lead songs and the satisfaction can be seen through the smiles on everyone's faces. Cougar company 01/06 is coming to an end and everybody's feeling nostalgic about the times together but still, it's time to move on. I hope for my friends who wish to lead, to go to command school. Cougar rocks!

=2005 Recall=
2005 has sure been a busy year for me in general. Many things I've gone through and I think I really matured a lot in that year.

In the early months of 2005, I was still in the midst of adjusting my identity in school. I had thought I still was a year 1. When the principal addressed the year 1s, I actually almost listened to it as though it's instructions for my batch. Haha. Mm.. As for the teachers, all remained the same except for GP, Mr Veera left our class and Mdm Lim joined our class. Well, Mdm Lim has an interesting appearance that is quite "unique". Her features and the dangling hair which swayed from sides to sides always reminds me of a ghost. To my surprise, I'm not the only one who thinks that way - my friends and classmates too! Lol, hope she's not reading this... =P

It's also the year I'm a senior in my pdp after the year before as a junior. The task of getting people to join robotics thus landed mostly in my hands. Oh, and it's not an easy task at all... After all, for such a pdp, naturally interested participants will join and non-interested participants will soon leave no matter how much you try to make them to be intrigued in robotics matter. Maybe Gerard is the only exception I've seen so far, I think. Come to think of it, I still miss guitar club pretty much but there can only be one me, so I have to devote my time properly.

The class had become a closer bunch than it was in 2004 and I thought of it as a good progress. There was a bbq in 2004 and it's pretty fun though. The whole class seldom get together but when we do, it's fun! The last bbq's tone was weird though. I couldn't feel the same warmth there, more of a kind of sadness. I don't know if I was over sensitive but I thought of a few classmates who expressed their mood so. Estella promised a Sentosa outing this year, hope it'll materialise. Hee.

In April, there comes to the time when I'm attached with hoi ching for a short time. Mm, I didn't know that so many people are that interested in my affairs and many had tried to dig things out and talk about it and made me rather embarrassed about it - like searching through my friendster and filtering every word I say etc... Haha. I mean it's not anything shameful but it's still my first official relationship per se so I've started with zero experience. I treat relationships as serious matters and don't think of it as a game. But perhaps I'm know too little about love affairs, things don't really work out for me. Ultimately, everything ended a month later.

In June, I was rather distracted by several things. Partly is after the broke up that lasted for quite long but mainly was due to my mother's operation. I didn't know how things will turn out for that moment. It's not a small operation also so many instructions were given to me as I am the oldest child in the family. Daily tasks had to be performed by my brother and I which is quite tough as we have to take up house chores all the sudden. Perhaps, it really indicated how lucky I was to have people to do that for me. It's not entitlement but a priviledge... The adjustment period somehow affected my june common test as I really don't have mood for it. I plunged into video games as they are the channels to escape out of reality I suppose.

After that, the teachers are kind of shocked about my results of course. It's a large contrast between that and the year 1 promotional results. Seeing those of all my classmates' which are improving steadily, I'm getting progressively worried as well. It was also the period I had to let go of things: service learning and the club. I felt that I hadn't really done the transition part well and I seemed to have added a lot of stress and unhappiness in the club. I didn't know mao xin stayed back and helped a great deal until very much later. It wasn't all sad things, service learning ended quite happily I think. I'm not sure if the kids missed us or not, but it seemed at least they gave us a nice ending to that programme. It's really not sufficient for a mentoring programme and I hope the next batch can do better than the pioneer batch.

NAPFA was the thing that bugged me throughout. I'm an unfit guy since I was young. I wasn't interested in exercising and thus it became a habit for me to not keep myself fit. Only until quite late did I realise the importance of it. At that point, my appearance can't change anymore, perhaps only metabolism rate. Haha. I still remembered the time I was called for in the TAF programme in primary school. In secondary school, I belonged to the health and fitness conditioning group which is simply one that contains those who hadn't pass NAPFA test. Even in JC, I was in the "S-paper" group since I didn't pass year 1 NAPFA test. All these certainly made me seem really lazy right? But I thought of exercising in an eager attitude now to keep up for the times that was lost. Lol. However, I still didn't know how yunhui and weina got the impression that I was a sportsman from. Haha. Fortunately, in the end, I still achieved a silver standard in NAPFA. 1st time ever in my life, lol, yeah!

Jian Yuan, Esmond are the friends in class I told a lot of things to. I guess i'm too comfortable in a small close group than to enlarge my comfort zone to too many people. Mao xin is one who doesn't really poke into my matter unless I want to let him know but on and off I wasn't too consistent as a friend to him. Perhaps initially I wasn't too comfortable with his extraordinary jokes and laughter... Well, turned out okay when I sorted out my thinking. Joel and weiquan are also another group of friends I talk to at times. It's not very frequent but it's fun just to have conversations that other friends aren't interested. Joel is a concerned friend but I just don't give a lot of things to let him dig.. Lol. My "family" is the last group that I always hang out. However the sad thing is that we're not really that close. Just probably lots to chat about because of the cheerful fiona. Hmm, going to miss the noisy voices, haha.

Next, the prelim exams had took a great toll on me. A level is the kind of studies you need to be constantly prepared to do well. Since I wasn't consistent enough, it's extremely stressful for me to cram information. Doesn't seem to digest well though. I thought A level will be better since I learnt my lessons from prelims. Well, it turned out to be partially true. There are other problems I hadn't discover till then. Now, everything's over. But I'm still worried every now and then about the results. I read the forums about whether is there any permit for NS disruptions to retake A level as a private candidate just to improve the grades and I don't think it's allowed unless A level was incompleted.

Christmas Outing was the second last outing I had. Thanks a lot chingz for making that a memorable one. Ha, I hope the presents aren't too cheapskate for you. =P But it's seldom chance where I can pour out what I want to say. Hope you can make your 2006 a good one. Mm, remember what you have promised yourself on the wrong experiences and not to do the same again and things probably won't go wrong, heez.

=2006 Events=
It's a new start to a new year. I don't really set resolutions and things like that. However, I do believe that it'll be an exciting year for me. It's probably going to be strenous in NS but with the proper mindset I can make it through. MIW website has provided me with comprehensive information through the forum.

I also hope the world will be peaceful without major disasters or outbreaks. Mm, yeah, that'll be splendid enough for this year. Haha...

=Disaster Anniversary=
Yesterday last year was the unfortunate loss of many lives during the unexpected disaster. My console goes to all who lost their kins. I suppose the following christmas will probably remind them of the loss instead of a peaceful celebration. To have health, to live on is the greatest bliss I think. Without those, material possessions are nothing.

=New Favourite Song=
Lyrics of Mariah Carey - Hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

[Chorus]

=Merry Christmas!!=
Ha, I think this is the festive season many young people will love to celebrate no matter whether they are seriously into it or not.

I went out with hoi ching for christmas eve and it was so crowded everywhere. Of course, it takes much patience to walk from place to place. Lots of spray, whatsoever party stuff you can think of, and I think that was what make the place so happening for countdown. Unfortunately, I did not countdown there. We count down at a quieter place at somewhere near esplanade.

All the way from citylink mall to marina square to esplanade, the crowd is comparative little and in contrast much more breathing space for people. Haha, although it wasn't what I expected from, nevertheless, still turned out to be fun in another flavour.

I managed to knock out some secrets from her at least. Nah, it sounded as if I was the bad person. I was quite truthful also... lol. There's little drizzle somewhere in the night and with the wind, it's actually quite cold. Fortunately, it stopped after a while. There isn't any synchronous countdown timing so we just went on our own pace, lol. I received a box of "Merci" chocolates from her. Oh no, looks like I have to go on "sinful" indulgence for some time... Ha. The chocolates sort of melted in my bag when brought home. Well, it's already the best place to hold the chocolates. If I had held it, it would have become worse due to the morning downpour.

I don't mind if it's just raining but the harsh wind makes everyone shivers like crazy. Chingz already wearing very thick but still shudders in cold, my jacket on her seems useless too. Lol.
Plus, both of us are very sleepy already... Imagine 2 fur balls wrapping up in a corner hibernating, haha, must be quite hilarious I think.

Now must catch sleep to cure my cold... For my brother, I don't know why and how come he got to be acquainted with a friend that is so generous to sponsor almost everything he plays... Chalet, movie, taxi fees, arcade fees, etc... Oh man, I'm so jealous!!

=Vorce Site update=
It's another major update to my website this time. It took quite some time due to my account got deleted for no particular reasons. Fortunately, it's just the login approval, not the whole archive. It takes extremely long time to upload you know? The photos should be on the website. Previews are 100 x 75 in general. The actual images are really big. Have not gotten the time to optimize yet. I still need some more time to add in the photos for graduation night, christmas lightings, miscellaneous stuffs etc... Please visit the image gallery under TJ Memories.
The site is: http://hkc.vorce.net Thanks!

=Movie/Outing=
Hmm.. Don't know what's wrong with me yesterday. I can actually forgotten how to walk to cineleisure from Orchard. Dotz... spent erm, more than 30 mins to figure out. I'm just too embarrased to ask strangers... =x Mum got quite frustrated walking here and there and both our mood kind of turned bad...

Anyway, the show we watched was "King Kong", $9.50 tickets on a Saturday. A great show after all these while... Too bad we missed approximately 30 minutes of show time when we arrived in. The usher thought we were catching the next movie in theatre 5 and told us to wait. Ha... How embarrassing...

Perhaps I missed out all the boring talking parts in the front portion and what I see is the journey out on sea to SKULL island already. I thought I went into the wrong theatre out of panic when I see the sailors and the actor dancing on the ship... Oh, but nevertheless, I still like the action and the humorous parts. The ending was like the previous "King Kong" show I watched when I was young or that was the only part I can remember from the old show. But the proportion of the gorilla is too out of ratio... Thus, I wondered why the building did not collapse when it was climbing up.

Anyway, the movie was good. Before the movie, I bought a bag at Bugis Street. The things on sale are really very cheap. Probably some of the designs you see there are sold otherwhere else also but more expensive in the latter place. However, they are still making a lot of money from it. Does that imply those in other shops are ripping much more benefits?

I just realised there's second floor to that place. Not sure if it's a big place because I did not go up. But one shop caught my attention which is the 'xing qu dian' the 'xing' is sex in chinese. Ha.

=Christmas Lightings @ Orchard=
Hmm... I just feel that this year's christmas lightings aren't that good. Perhaps because I visited them too early, that's why no christmas feel?

Christmas lightings will look good only at night so during the evening, Chingz and me dine out at Seah's Street place. It's not as crowded as when Thomas brought me there. Well, so, we don't have to wait as well. I don't seem to notice any jazz music playing that night too. The atmosphere's kind of different... Hah, don't know if it's the apt word to speak of it. It's really nice when you don't have to rush through your meals and be able to take pleasure in taking hours to enjoy eating. Lol...

Didn't really take much photos of the lightings there. The place is just too crowded and stuffy! How I hope cool air accompanies christmas in Singapore, that will be splendid. Can you imagine I was sweating while strolling leisurely on the streets? The theme this year seems to be of music related stuff. I saw musical notes hanging above the traffic all over the streets. At a junction, I saw a pair of "musician" decoration hitting the drums. Haha, I still prefer dancing christmas tree, looks cuter to me.

Here's the christmas tree behind us. Don't know why it looks that dull in the photo. It's supposed to look much more livlier, haha. This photo was taken by a stranger, not that bad but just worried that he'll run away with that. Lolz. I don't know why I look so dumb in this photo. Haha. The christmas tree near City Hall is the nicest of them all but too tall and sparkling to take photos too near. Saw one family taking photo of their children and the tree from opposite the traffic!

I feel bad for making her walk long distance here and there when her runny nose seems to act up only after walking some distance. She said the air wasn't too clean and I really think so. Fortunately, my nose is just sensitive to extreme fragrance from body shop perfume.

After some time, we reached the esplanade. I didn't know along the fenced up coastline of the esplanade is installed with animated lights until I notice that night the colours seem to run through the coast. I thought I saw that due to my eyes turning blurry. Ha, no, it's confirmed so. Oh yeah, the durian really looks gorgeous at night.

At that place, many people were taking photos. Who knows what they are taking. I saw lotsa flash here and there but I think only Merlion and Esplanade landmarks are worth taking.... or are there something else? Here's the merlion which is among the last few photo before the camera's battery runs out. When my cousin lent me her digital camera, it wasn't fully charged and she forgotten to bring the charger too. So it's actually not bad to capture 55 photos for graduation night plus a few on that night. Haha. It takes me some time to configure the right settings on the camera and as well as on my k508i.

The sea breeze there is really cooling... Nice spot for hearty chats too. I haven't been talking that much since A level was over. Many matters ran through my mind. I feel that life's coming to a cross-road since the future is almost uncertain but ironically, there should be nothing I need to make decisions over since what I have to face soon is NS and the girls at my age will become my seniors in their respective universities soon.

Yep, I think I will stop writing here. Quite bored this whole afternoon coaching someone. I wonder how will I spend my christmas...?

=Navy Invitation/Openhouse=
Ok, since I've signed up, I went for it. It's not that bad decision to go after all - a fun trip for me. Here's the program throughout.

1) Validation of registration details at the waiting stop:
-I signed up alone so I kind of expected a lonesome trip throughout. But to my surprise, I see familiar faces at the waiting stop. Saw Jiamin and her taekwondo friend, ah Q, christopher and zuhui. All of them came alone too. Just a pure coincidence that I meet them. So the trip won't be as bored as I supposed.

2) Bus ride to Naval Base:
-I'm not sure exactly where is the location when I arrived. It's a very isolated place away from the heart of Singapore but it's still within the boundary of the mainland. All camera phones have to be kept at the visitor centre before approaching into the base. The Navy people are kind of thoughtful - planning bus rides wherever moving from destinations to destinations even though distance between is short.

3) Briefing of Navy Missions and Technology:
-Well, it seems pretty cool presentation they have put for us. I suppose part of the credits go to the speaker. (Convincing and bhb) From their presentation, I can see that the force is relatively small compared to other countries. However, the technology compromise for that and competency level is thus high. Their team spirit is good too (even if it's acted out) but I do believe they are close working partners. Free goodie bags are given out too. Nothing too amazing in it, just brochures.

4) Ad-hoc Breakfast:
-It was not pre-planned part of the program. They decided to put in due to the courtesy of it for inviting everyone so early in the morning. The food is nice. =) From the place where the breakfast buffet is held, I can see the broad view of loading and unloading port of the ships. The water glisters in the early morning and the scene looks spectacular through the clear glass panels around the buildings everywhere.

5) Exploration of largest navy ship
-Hmm.. It certainly looks cool from the inside and outside. But it's also quite difficult for me to move fast in the ship. Almost every sea-tight doors have high stubs to cross over. The stairs look scarily steep especially when coming down than moving up. Control centre looks just like the movie too! Ha. Most of the control of ship is quite automated, replicate components here and there and no more reading from map already. It's a pity we can't get to explore the stealth frigate yet. It's a newer ship and they are in the midst of adding in more components. Although it's actually ready for operation, the luxurious facilities in the largest ship is still missing in that frigate.

6) Ride on Fast Craft Utility (FCU)
-All were asked to wear float jackets before boarding FCU. Its maximum speed is very fast I suppose. But within the base, the speed is limited to 6 knots. It's already quite fast for me from the rush of the wind.

The trip ends off with free "King Kong" tickets given off. Yay! Still managed to catch a last movie before NS.

=Job Hunting @ Clarke Quay=
Esmond recommended this job to me when I asked him if he has any recommendation, seriously I wonder if he gains any commission from that. Shortly after that, he's off for his vacation in Hong Kong. Seems pretty much like a planned trick.

From what he and his senior's speech, I still can't figure out what the nature of the job about. He insists that I should come down for briefing at Clarke Quay to know more about the range of jobs that can be undertaken. Esmond recommends other than me, some other friends too. Jian Yuan after getting conned once, is precarious about such dubious stuff. Hence, he rejected to go for it.

When I reached there, Caleb, Weiyan, Joo Fang and Man Ting already there. They were waiting for me only. Shortly thereafter, we were brought to FLP and were introduced to the place and its activities. Oh well, the senior could have told us it's a particular place that we were going to work for but didn't... I get to know the 4 others soon as all were unknowingly victimized by our dear friend.

It seemed to be their company annual prize giving ceremony day and I do think it's not appropriate for us to join in such a ceremony just to know what the company is about or to feel their family spirit. It's just too time-consuming. Besides, their overwhelming enthusiasm kind of scares me to a large extent because I've never ever seen anything like that. All seemed like fake or acted out. If not Weiyan and Joo Fang initiated to move off, I guess we'll be stuck in that place for a much longer time.

I'm not really trying to say that the company is conning people but more like the situation of us people aren't really suitable for the job yet. Firstly, the time we're able to contribute is much lesser and the social group or contacts are mainly students, not rich millionaires who will willingly buy the expensive health-care products. There are many things to consider. I would rather get a down-to-earth job than a pyramid job. It's just not suitable.

=Graduation Night=
This is one of the big days for all TJCians graduating this year. I have always looked forward to it because it is my first ever grand party I've had so far. Secondary school's leaver ceremony isn't half as grand and cool as this. Haha..

It took me lots of time and money to buy clothes and do preparation for grad. It may sound kind of vain but no, I was just doing the minimum what others did. It's a fun thing having to reach Ritz Carlton early and see everyone coming in various styles...

Geraldine seemed bored almost throughout, complaining "sian" all the time. Jian Yuan had a hard time trying to entertain her. Ritz Carlton's signposts don't seem to be quite effective as the plates under the dim lights, merge well with wall and its position is somehow very near the place you want to find and that's like duh~ so redundant as you can already see the place before signposts lead you to it.

This is Hoi Ching looking great! I hope I didn't let others think I'm "da pai" because I have to be asked to take photo. I really love to take with all the friends I know. Afterall, there isn't going to be the same people, same time, same place walking into my life again. Ah, how nostalgic. =x

There are some wearing quite interesting costumes. Kai Yang, Daphne and one girl wearing Old England style are some of those I can think of.
Kai Yang was wearing some blue jacket with black t-shirt within. Daphne is wearing white cap and cool coat. Below are some photos I took with friends. It appears that the LCD screen on the camera is not accurate. I thought the photo was rather bright in the camera but appears not so on my computer. Hmm...

Also, I can't help but feel so amazed at fiona's appearance. Wow, so lady-like. She can look so pretty if she's less rough. Lol. However, it seems that she cannot stand how others look at her - hiding behind Estella's back initially. I think the change is more of good than otherwise for her.

Yunhui looks fantastically different. I can't recognise her for a while. Ha... I'm not tall and all girls are wearing high heels, that makes me seem even shorter. Sobx. Nah, that's fine.. I'm used to it. The first time I met her was at Choir audition and so far we've maintained some level of contact since she's living quite near to me. She's always very close to student council. After all, her boyfriend's from Student Council too. Haha.

The food isn't sufficient for me I feel. It seems like the greater the stars rating of the hotel, the lesser the quantity of food is provided. Nah, just joking. I like the dessert nevertheless. Strawberry flavour never tasted that good for me before. =P

Before the class left, we took a trio photo beside the great christmas tree standing near the entrance. Nice right? Alex looks like he's got a lot of things on his mind. Wonder what's he thinking about. Ha.

Here's the grad queen candidate from our class: Cirong. Well, I suppose she's chosen due to high popularity unlike some which may be due to other reasons... It's not easy to do the patting action when there isn't anything to show eh. At least there's a crown to be received. Ha... For guys, it will really be more fun if all put in more enthusiasm in performing for us especially the "Herhh.." part. But afterall, prizes don't seem to be much attractive anyway.

Here's Ms Fong without her beloved spectacles. Well, looks odd but maybe I'm just not used to it. I wanted to try contact lenses too but seems like there's no absolutely* free trial pair which wei jie insistently said there is. Mr Tong looks like a rich indonesian business man and Mrs Lim looks like a chic lady. Oh well, at least the MC felt so. She convinced everyone with her catwalk and the sexy moves taught by the MC. I don't have a picture on that. Ohh...

Here is Yuting. Her cheeks may look a little pinkish due to the colour editing. Quite embarrasing, she was taking photo with her friend when I suddenly just came in and she's OK for a photoshot. Her friend gave me a look that I was cutting queue.. Ha, but just said, "Oh nevermind, I help you two take." =X
Here's another popular girl - Yee Xian. Saw her and company at Marina Square shopping for stuffs. <= Her rebonded hair is quite nice right? Anyway, JiaYin is rather busy with her boyfriend so didn't take photo with her. =x That's all from the group of people in her gang that I know of.

This is the first and the last time I've taken photo with Xiao Yun I assume. It's of a funny incident that I got to know her. My friend, Haryl drags me to this christian sharing session for no particular reason and she's one of the very proactive people who enjoys opening herself to people. Frank and outspoken person. She always calls me Leonard because I look like the person she knew called leonard. Even her friend agrees so. I thought I'm unique? Lol.
This is Xiao Yun's friend, I think she's called Serene. I don't really know her but she said she always sees me on bus 88. Hee, I guess I aren't really observant. Glad to take photo with her anyway. So.. a new friend that night? Ha. I didn't see Haryl there so I guess he's not going. Strange, I thought somehow his friends will definitely be able to drag him there by hook or by crook. =P

Here's Angela Tan. Her make up is better than previous ones I would say. Not trying to hint anything though. Mm, she's a nice girl anyway, I've been rather impatient with her sometimes during pdp sessions. I think she would have sensed it but didn't take it personally to heart anyway... -----

Next is the gang of Marists in TJ. Not all but some. I really look like a dwarf or hobbit in the photo. See what I mean? If you ask me if TJ or my secondary school is better, college is where most of the most memorable events take place but secondary school is the one that makes me see what I am and the people around me. I believe both are meaningful to me.

Look at Hafiz. Isn't he cool? Ha, didn't expect him to wear like that. Maybe he's too close to Student Council initially and thus isn't close to the class. This year I realise he's a much nicer person than I thought, should have talked to him more to know that. Many dotA outings with him, zhiren and company aren't successful. Either tuition or something is in place. Ha.

Here's Estella looking very elegantly. She seems much slimer, wonder if she tried visiting slimming session. Opps, that's bad to talk of my "mum". She told me that when Esmond called her that time, she wasn't having a good mood and thus didn't think twice about the post-grad outing, it's not that she cannot go. (Hope Esmond reads this) I'm not clear what Esmond told jian yuan later in the night also. But like what Jian Yuan says, when the outing is at 2am. 9pm should seem early...

I'm tired of putting all the photos in. These are just a few. Drop me a message in the tagboard to ask for the photos taken not posted then I'll post accordingly.

Breathing in the first air of freedom... But now, it leaves me pondering how I'm to spend the remaining last month or so... Perhaps like what geraldine says, when you're studying A level, using computer is like heaven but when you're not, it's just one of the mundane task.

Just came back from my run. I've deteriorated to a very horrible state now, can't seem to finish my run. Got stitch (if that's how you spell) somewhere in between. Hope to be just ok in time for NS.

I've started playing ffx-2 english version and at the same time receiving immense pressure from my brother not to play. He threatened to return that game to his friend if I continue to do so. I guess he probably can't stand girl power. He said yuna using guns and dance sphere is crap. Wearing that little shouldn't be the consequence of believing in Machina. Oh well, I'm still a ff fan so I'll still play.

I've downloaded sony ericsson theme creator. Anyone wants me to create skins can tell me, I'll try, first attempt. Hee... I'll do a good one, worry not.

Received the arrow from weiquan and I'm supposed to carry on the game. :S

Here are the 5 weird things about me:
1. I'll suspect people why they are good to me... (=x)
2. I'll think a lot what people will think of me
3. I'm both childish and mature.
4. Although I've been a leader all the way till today, I'm still a very bad one.
5. Remember things that aren't important and forget those that are... (A lvl vs games, ha)

Mm.. maybe there's more but no good to say so many. Ha, who shall I pass the arrow to... Maybe to ycube! Haha...

I'm seriously going to cry my heart out when I see my results. 2 subjects which I had tuition for turns out to be screwed up. I still can't say exactly what's the cause. Nervousness? or still insufficient practice? .... I thought physics all the way is not hard to get A.... (But losing 40 marks already isn't a joke) and GP I thought I did many practice (but leaving AQ almost blank and doing an unsure essay isn't promising me anything) oh man... I hope I don't faint on that day...

I wonder how will my testimonial be like. Same monotonous piece of comment similar to many others out there I presume. Wonder exactly how much effect it'll serve in getting me anywhere. At this point in time, I'm so unsure of my future. What lies in my future seems like a blank slate waiting for me to carve something out. Some invisible immense pressure's acting on me, tantamount to me carrying 200kg thing. Just an example...

Hm... Still haven't got a clue what I'm going to wear for graduation night. Maybe I'm going to ask around who's wearing what. Don't want to look like a total "outstanding" person there. Lol. I want to dye my white hairs away but seems quite unworthy since all those are going to be gone by 6 Jan. Now that I think again, the table only has 2 guys, me and jy along with the girls... So weird.

I've managed to transfer games into my k508i! Yea! Searched many forums to find out how to.. Ultimately, I use floAt Mobile Agent to help me upload the games. There aren't perfect things on earth because most of the fun games I found aren't the size for my phone so it ran very slowly. Argh, what a pity.

After As, I'm going to fall into comatose... Ha, joking. I'm going to:
1) Train my body
2) Play lotsa PS2 games
3) Re-learn my guitar
4) Some leisure reading
5) Hang outs! (Movies!!)

Oh, not to forget, I have computing paper 2 on wednesday. Got to grab this last chance if possible.

=10/04 Pasta Outings=
I didn't manage to get high quality photos as yet from my friends. All these are posted ones. I think only after A levels ba. I'll try to get more if possible.

Anyway, I really appreciate Ms Fong as a kind, concern teacher to everyone in the class. Even though right from the start I never really do well for chemistry, she didn't give up on me which only make me feel more guilty... She told us that the class aren't united enough and hope we can always help each other along. I think more or less, we're moved by her actions and words. Even Sean attended the treat after all. Haha.

The following are the photos we've taken during the trip there. I've had a long time since I felt that nostalgia surging in me.. This isn't much like what I always thought as I wouldn't feel much about leaving the class but hmm... maybe it isn't true, I do care for the time I'm with the class. Haha.

=Farewell Concert & Events in School=
The year 1s' student council and the teachers have collaborated a concert for the year 2s as the farewell concert. I'm quite surprised by the effort that was put in. Initially, I thought it wouldn't be anything more lame than some singing and corny words. But the performance items are more to that. Ha.. The big birds and the maths department words are something that still strikes in my mind. I suppose such an annual event is kind of meaningful. Other than the thanking part which is too awfully long, other parts are really great.

Mr Tong, who's always so strict in discipline, surprised the year 2 cohort with his untidy attire in the play. I suppose that's the only time we can catch him in that. I can still remember he catch me not wearing polo t-shirt or school uniform for a really unreasonable cause.

Mr Bala as cool as ever, does his rapping with Sam and gang. I suppose if he hadn't come to TJ, he would have been in the music entertainment industry making big money. Lol.

Well, before the concert, the class spends the moment together taking photos. Same with other classes too. 10/04 took at the Temasek Square's flag raising podium. This other photo on the left is in front of the General Office, with pond and leaves, bla bla.. supposedly to be one of the best places to take photos I guess. Ha, it's the 3 of us again. I can't remember how many photos we take together already. Yup, buddies forever~!

=Friends=
Not forgeting other friends like thomas, bingz who encourage me all along. Of course there are others too... Long list... Thanks! Plus people who wrote testimonials for me in friendsters, thank you all.

I also wrote farewell cards for my robotics juniors and Mr Goh. I hope that should do for a simple farewell. Just thought it's been rather abrupt for me to give them the burden of running the club and shoo... there I go. If only there's been more time I can go competitions with them. Ha. Jian yuan read the card I wrote for Mr Goh and told me my tone was a bit weird. Ha, I wrote all those very late at night but my intentions are to thank everyone who work with me. Hope he doesn't feel the same way too.

=NS=
I'm going in to Training Camp 1 on 6 Jan. Anyone going on that date too? Most of those I know are going to Camp 2 which I think is commando camp on that day. Correct me if I'm wrong but I think those who hasn't received the notifications this month will probably be going in April? There are some in my class who hasn't got letter though.

I can't say if I'm eager to go in. Ha.. I suppose just go in with a normal positive attitude. That should be ok to last me through. Perhaps I should start thinking whether I want to sign on for officer or not... It's a lifetime (10 yrs?) commitment I feel. I can't foresee what course I'll be taking in universities not say the jobs I'll be apply in the future so it's hard for me to decide.

Esmond's news of becoming a "C..." is quite well known in college already but seriously I can't see the reason why he minds that people know about it and he's so insistent about friends not to spread such news. It isn't a scandal anyway so be open about it. It's quite prestigious I thought.

=GP Mock=
I came EXTREMEly late for the mock exam on that day. Mdm Lim was shocked that I came, even LATER than geraldine who's also late. Hmm, I told her the honest reason why I was late and rushed into my paper 1. It's such a disaster having to double the pace for every process I have to do for essay. Choosing a suitable question isn't easy not to say plan thoroughly for the essay. In the end, I only wrote about 2 paragraphs excluding the introduction. I knew very well it's a fail script just how bad I'll fail.. So I expected 16,17 marks. Mao Xin told me I can probably get higher than that if my content is reasonable and not many language errors.

Afterwhich when the paper came back, I got 22 instead. She said it's not a bad mark for someone who came that late. I don't know to feel comforted or what. Jian Yuan can even get 30. There are many others who get high up in the 25+ and 30+. Hmm... I should work harder...

=Mug Mug Mug=
It's really a scary thing to do for countdown to exams. It's just horrifying to compare the time to preparedness ratio. Ha.. seriously, can the miracles shown to us by Mrs Lim really happen? E and O to A and B? Sounds like a rather steep learning curve.

=WindowBlinds Vista?=
There's a madness going on for the pursuit of transparency in skins and everywhere you can skin. So what will the final version be called? There's already skins made for version 5 when the public beta has not even arrive. That I mean the version not only available in Object Desktop Network. The marketing strategy for Windows Vista will be changed rather drastically to attract the investors but profit is an issue. Let's see what will be done then.

=Class=
Happy Birthday Weiquan! Ha, I didn't know it's your birthday until I see Kelvin hand you the present. Ha, your touched expression looks kind of funny.

Ha, thanks PA for accompanying me for my lunch and also for the 2 papers you've been helping everyone to collect, haha.

Mr Desai gave 10/04 this black and white note with the saying pasted inside, "You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him find it within himself." - Galileo. It's a small gift but at least he has the sincerity for that. Thanks for all the comical jokes besides imparting us precious physics knowledge. Lol.

=Misc=
On Tuesday, Jy crapped to PA that I have things to tell her when he doesn't dare to tell her himself. Cirong then thought I want to find her to talk to. Ha, then again, JY replied for me. When it's done, cr asks if I'd finished my conversation, I joked, "Yar, you jealous that I didn't talk to you is it?" She replied, "Ya lor, never come talk to me." I finished with, "Oh.. Never mind la, I talk to you later privately k?" She laughed and nodded and afterwhich I sense the uneasiness of Daphne who later asks her what secrets I have with cr. Lol, I should have bluffed Daphne and observe her reaction.

Ngian Xin bluffed her birthday and I end up sending a happy birthday message at the wrong date. It's not the first time anyway but I still feel embarrased about such awkward situation.

Thom, take care of your health ah! Ha.

=Lyrics=
This is From Guang Liang. Quite a nice song other than tong hua.

-=*握你的手*=-

山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心　沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊　爱是流星　一坠落就不停

我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形　遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望你憔悴表情　再不舍得　也该让你远离

握你的手　坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了　至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了　我们都尽力了
也许温柔　是停止(再)挽留

握你的手　像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了　不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手　都为了再握手
但这一次　是为了放手