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Another favourite song "Tank - 专属天使". It's touchy~ I didn't really watch "花样少年少" but just like the song in it.

Metal Gear Solid Portable Ops is fun. Its functionality seems nothing different from the one on PS2 platform. It's engaging and even has the multi-player capability with other PSPs. Graphics is good and doesn't lag so far. No wonder it has received such good rating from Gamespot. However, I'm just not the type of person for that type of game. Die quite easily. My brother's hooked on it though. Will try out Gurumin soon!

My brother's friend says I have nasal tone in the way I sing. Haven't realise that yet. Thought mine was quite light if at all... My brother has been training singing all day long. Probably trying to attract girls by his vocal charm I guess. Hmm, seriously, there are other ways of getting to know more girls in his social circle. Wonder why he chooses to do that? Anyway, because he tried to perfect the same few songs he played on the computer every day, he made me get sick of those songs! Yucks, now I hate to hear the nice songs to be sung either by him or someone else again.

Don't like drinking beer or alcohol... But environment makes me drink pretty much. Puked last Saturday... My stomach's totally upset and I just want to refrain drinking alcohol...

Watched "Just Follow Law" today. It's quite funny throughout. It turned out better than I thought. Well, although the idea of switching gender spiritually is rather cliche, it highlights many other issues existent in the society pretty well... Made me think about it and feel touched. Ending is crappy though. Haha...
Happy Chinese New year to all!

It's not that bad to do duty on Saturday which is a New Year Eve day. There isn't any fire drill and we can enjoy steamboat dinner together. Not that bad, I'm just worried what the CO will think or do when he sees us having it at a place that we shouldn't. Ha, can't mention where though. It's really becoming more and more unbearable doing duty. Firstly due to the hot sun which makes me feel really dehydrated and de-energised. Secondly, having no one to talk to and having nothing to do make it all worse for the QM on watch. Like a idiot hanging around the QM brow. At least for the night shift, there's someone for me to talk to. =D

::CNY Day 1::
I'm really very tired due to previous day's duty doing 2nd watch. Nevertheless, I was still rather excited for the Chinese New Year. Tried so hard to bear over so many days not to wear the new clothes till CNY comes. Hee, no particular rational over it but I believe it feels much better to wear it for the first time during CNY. Hmm, this is what I wear for day 1. Actually, I saw many clothes I like when I did shopping earlier. But they were all in black and white colours which my mum won't like it for me to wear during CNY. The photos I took with my relatives aren't in my camera. I'll get them later along with those taken in Malaysia earlier.

After praying, went to 2nd Uncle's house and stayed there throughout. It's quite boring as usual and I fell asleep eventually. When I woke up, it's about time to have dinner already. Blackjack started late in the evening. I didn't seem to have much luck that day. My $10 capital losses fluctuate a lot. Ultimately, I quit after recoup $8 which makes a balance of $2 loss. Okay, I'm quite a miser in terms of losing money for gambling. Lol.

::CNY Day 2::
This was what I wear for CNY day 2. Mm, it's a wrong choice actually. The day is actually quite warm and the houses I go to don't switch on their air-con in spite of the weather condition. =X This is actually the day I collect more ang pao for me most of the times. Amount not going to be disclosed of course. Ha, I think it's quite little compared to many of my friends'. Heh, shouldn't compare... Different family background anyway.

After I collect the ang pao for the day, LAIS asked me out. I realised I didn't bring my wallet out and decided to join them later. =P However, they agreed to sponsor all my expenses. Ha, think I'm getting too embarrassed to go out with them anymore since I seem to be spending their money all the time.. =X As usual, the gang this time is GY, LAIS, Sgt Eng Joo and me. Staff Ong is out because he has a family to look out for during this time I guess. Had dinner at Sakae Sushi and ate plenty of food before we left. There's really a long queue when I reached there and all the food ordered will be served at a minimum waiting time of 30 minutes. Whew... I remembered my stomach's still growling then. Lol.

After that, we idled around for some time to take photos with our respective birth year animal sign. Photos are with LAIS. GY was rather reluctant to take photos... I think there's a reason behind it... After much plee, GY finally agreed to take photos and go to party world KTV to sing. Hmm, I think it's rather expensive there consider no extra time allowed for singing, cheapskate fruits and tidbits given. Only the drinks are of larger proportion. Yep, there's a variety of genres everyone is interested in singing so it's quite interesting. The only common thing is that everyone was singing rather sad songs in there. Lol... Why so~?

::CNY Day 3::
This is what I wear for today. Found out today that my cousin Yan Li broke up with her boyfriend. We all thought that she ditched him but turned out the other way round. She's gotten so much attention today from many relatives on how to choose prospective spouse. Oh man, spare me such attention in the future. Ha. Had "Lau Yu Sheng" at 3rd Aunt's house. Reminded me of the time I participated one at Resolution recently. That one was really madness... even the officers are not spared from the flying speckle of food. Anyway, it's crammed and noisy in there. I was sweating a lot in there. To sum up these 3 days, I didn't really gamble much or eat that much... Didn't seem much like the Chinese new year I knew since young. Anyway, here's the CNY decoration I saw at Esplanade. Many other cuttings were there, neat, intricate and creative... Really a "wow" when I look at it. What do you think?

Busy busy now... will update again when there's a chance...
I think after what she's done to me, I'm quite touched but still unable to feel that real connection between me and her. I think the fault lies in me. She has tried very hard on her part for it yet I did nothing in comparison. I wonder should I really do things with my heart or is it better to fool myself to do things out of my will? By then maybe things would have become different?

I'm just so lost. She may not be coming back. I'm utterly speechless, what am I going to say. What good will I do even if she stays...?
Had a really really pleasant birthday this year!

First of all, thanks to Kai Yang, Choon Pei, Ping Aik, Aiping, Francis, Jaron, CAIS, GY, Hoi Ching, Kingsly, Ruth, Padma, Navin, Serene, Hanwei, Karin for wishing me a happy birthday! I'm quite guilty because for many of them, I've forgotten to do the same last year.. =P

Anyway, was really surprised when Esmond messaged me to ask me out. I was thinking it's just a casual outing with the JC guys again. I agreed to him nevertheless. Least did I thought it was a gathering to celebrate my birthday. Some did not go because they were waiting for reply. Ha. It's a celebration at KBox. Didn't bring any camera so the photos are of quite low quality. Here's a snapshot of my cake. Hee, looks nice right? Lots of cream and chocolate for me to feel sinful again. Ha. The two candles sadly indicate my second phase of life. I'm now 20 already with the digit 2 in front. Lol, ok... everyone grows old, no one can be stagnant in their youth so I guess I should quit complaining and start to cherish, enjoy and lead a meaningful youthful life. Thanks Estella, Fiona, Esmond, Jian Yuan and Weiquan for being able to make the celebration successful.

:: O bar celebration ::
After the ops dinner, GY and Staff Ong insists to bring me to bar to celebrate my birthday. I'm a bit anxious about it because I hope they don't bring me to those "places". I won't want to go anyway. Anyway, I managed to go in even though I'm underage. Lol. The bouncer inside wanted to check my entry proof seal before allowing me to enter 2nd level. Ha. For the first few hours we are there, the place is still not warmed up yet. Not many people are dancing except for Keng Xiang's friends. Mm, there are only 1 eye candy there initially. Not for my age anyway. Just that Eng Joo and GY were staring at her. GY wasn't that obvious... The group of us played some games as initiated by Staff Ong to warm up the conversations. I learned quite a few but my reactions were slow and ended up getting mocked by everyone. It's okay...haha. Leslie felt a bit out of place and soon left O bar before everyone gets high enough. Mm, I'm not sure if I bored everyone when there's girl called Rachel sat beside me and started talking to me... Eng Joo told me that it's the case why he left. Erm... Anyway, here are the photos I took with my colleagues. The one in cap is Rachel. I wasn't that drunk as her and LAIS I guess. I was still alert but in a rather good mood that's all. I think it was overall quite an enjoyable experience. Thanks to GY, Staff Ong, LAIS that I can enjoy the session for free... =P It's quite expensive for having ordered so much drinks...

Mum did something simple... She bought a cake for me, sang me a song and gave me ang pao. Ha, I still like it nevertheless... I hope this year will be a good year for me and my friends.. Life's actually can be pleasant if everything is that simple.. =)
The new contact lenses feel much more comfortable. They're thinner and less dry. Should I be contented with that or should I try acuvue? I realise colour contact lenses are hard lenses. Haven't try before but heard that it's not as comfortable.

I think I should set my mind off relationships for the time being. I'm not getting it right at this moment.. I should have been in it when I'm ready and not stuck in a situation like that.

Feeling feverish since yesterday night. Been feeling emotional again... Don't know why I feel like crying every time I hear that song.