weird atmosphere's playing in da air...

chingz: hope u find da bread nice =) brown one represents me n da other is u, hahaz

yanyi: ok, fine.. :P i always noe i'm slow~ dun nid to re-iterate de rite.. if i wana link, could hav done so v early...

Robo:
battery got serious problem but cos it's encapsulated within da robot. It's very hard to change it. Da only possible time is on Tues. Tis's da only time when i hate labour's day. Can't repair earlier... Yanyi tell me help available but in a v pathetic form. Still muz do cheating summore... strictly, i dun tink i shuld allow... risky.. dun wan invest such risk.. lp's grp mse seems ok le. Mine oso but juz tt dumb prob. Even if tues go down, may nid to do sum DIY oso, yong tau hu wun help us dismantle n assemble i tink.

misc:
offended wj. it's nt entirely my fault ba.. dino wad happened oso... hope he's ok.

if there's anything bu shuang, shuld say out. dun say out oso shuldnt say bad things abt ppl.. it's juz wrong. besides there's always 2 sides of da story, having heard 1 side isnt close to truth at all.. not even near...

mood: -worried-

hmz.. i smell sum fishy incidents in robotics.. sum scandalous stuff again. sense sum ^@=@^.. hahaz, kidding, dun take me 4 real ya?

muaz, mouse diagonal still nt v nice but it's sumthing i've tried doing, duno whether consider much improvements.. straight dash v hard le..

juz wana everyone to contribute abit for robotics ba.. be it time or effort. shuldnt juz siam away a time like tt.. Other ppl's bothering to come n do stuff lor.

GP period do nth productive. My grp sit down there tok cok or stoning till da lecture starts... saw hw joe got 'kai'. lol... seems like gay porn though. JY's realli crappy lor, get on zhiren's nerves.. hahaz...

wahaha... got several new songs to listen le.. yay.. cos jukebox software got prob cant transfer song, sad man. Duno hw to solve oso.

mood: -busy-

in a state of dilemma. My friends dun realli noe what m i tinking. To them, things r juz tt simple and easy as it is. Of cuz i hope it is, but sumthing's juz lacking. No one is apparent upset, but maybe juz me feeling empty. trying to b cheerful juz deceives myself nothing except da perception of others. in a time when negative feedback is more frequent, one often gets discouraged.

I'm so happy for TJ Guitar Club. Gold wif honours lei! Heard dey're d only one among d jcs to get tt! even though other jcs hav put up very gd show wif both performance and appearance. Tis shows juz hw much guitar club has strived to achieve.

I din go on wed cos got BMTC k.. dun say i go elsewhere for duno wad purpose. Gona stay back every possible day to do mm. Dun wana hav any regrets when i step down. It'll be one of da last show in my jc phase le, wana get sum results. It's hard to moltivate everyone... still tinking of a way.

ZG's a v frendly chap to tok wif. A cheerful person tt can constantly bring delight to his frenz arnd him. if only i'm tt pro. hahaz...

Mood: -turbulent-

ha, realised i post twice da same post.. deleted it le..

y's everybody again so sad.. everyone's mood's like a sinusoidal wave... there's alot of secrets everyone is holding now ba juz dun share only, n i tink tt's y. i tink i m like tt oso ba.. sorry esmond for waiting so long for me... realli v sorry lei... anyway, tell me ur new blog when ready..

thx chingz for ur cookies.. realli yummy although abit chao da~ i realli appreciate ur efforts to bake tt, although not only for me la...haha

tink i'll screw up tis computing coursework la.. so damn depressed... it's very high weightage out of da A lvl sub lei... jialat la... no use crying over spilt milk le, haiz...

Robo competition coming soon le.. 5th may.. i feel tt our mse std still nt there yet... hw to compete.. haiz... mayb muz make da members stay back more.. me inclusive ba...

Mood: -unknown-

bloggin again. End of a week le..

found out tt i kinda 4gotten alot of integration stuff n thru today's remedial tt i'm aware of it.. opps..haha. Gotta rewrite GP essay for mdm lim.. haiz... i'm juz so lousy in tt...

Mum's very happy wif da bdae card i got for her... gosh, it din cost cheap... spend 5.90 for tt... dotz... shulda ask first...

still duno wad mx is unhappy abt.. but oh well muz b stressed up cos of competition ba.. hope he'll b alrite soon.

misc
found a pic lim pin was showing n finds tt it looks like mr desai. haa
forum's cg topic gettin nowhere, finding crappy topics to tok ba... haz

mood: =sian=

luv's such a fragile thing...

nvr meant to hurt her but da words i said juz seem so... hate myself for being like tt... can't seem to change but from da start tt's nvr wad i meant... if only u can see it. Y will i wan u be a dummy? If u nvr blive wad i've said, i can nvr say anything more...

mood: =speechless,hurt=

kk, posting friday's stuff... skip ahead for juz class outings.

fri's sports day so supposedly dismissed at 12, so only computing's period is skipped. supposed to come back by 1.30 so as to let everything proceeds at 2 sharp. The sports day is kinda disorganised ba... lotsa spectators din wear hse t. but quite a few ppl pon oso... i din pon cos of class outing. but betta nt too cos gotta write letter to ms fong, ha.. gd luck jee siang.

da interval between events are rather long n thus fails to capture everyone's attention constantly. Other than tt, i will say tt da program sequence should be good ba. There's a variety of programs from taekwondo, teachers-students tug of war, cheerleading apart from da usual events of running, javelin, discus etc... Cheerleading is interesting actually but somehow alpha and beta house have the same kinda dancing styles to gamma and delta... Duno hw delta won da cheerleading part... realli nt much stunts lor.. i tink beta's good... special ba.. even though got 1 gal fell twice.

Delta oso won da overall hse championship... tink, cos dey had alota participation. mm... actually, beta hse oso got v gd runners ba.. cant realli rmb da names ya...

felt caged for several hours n da pain comes in when waiting during da interval for smth interesting to happen. got tok, play games but still feel v v sian... later went to see tennis match lor. Can't realli see much actually, cos my view's partly blocked by da ppl tt had flocked in front of me alot earlier... din buy any ice cream to eat cos heard it's nt tt nice..

when finally allowed to be dismissed after da prize presentation n da sch song which is ord like 6.30, da gals had been waiting for abt 30 mins le lor... somehw managed to sneak out.. abit disappointed when after much discussion da outing wasnt according to initial plan of going to marina bay but to suntec. n i tink it's my suggestion =P haha...

played da finger rhythm game in d MRT n made realli a hell lota noise... outsiders probably will hav quite -ve impression of TJcians le ba, haha... I seem to make myself a fool lor, slow rxn time... tink all my fingers sticked out cos kana tricked so many times by joe... lol, est.. muz zi dian wo lei~

KBox was 1 of da idea when we reached but cos we din make appointment n nt a member yet, at 8 can only sing to 10 which isnt tt worthy.... so in the end din go sing... but den i realli wanted to sing de lor... haiz, hope nxt time got da chance lor, hahah...

in the end, choose to eat at kenny rogers but cos it's abit late for wei quan, he has to get off first so din join us... quite a pity, afterall he hasnt realli attended our class outing.. well.. firstly, da service attendant wasnt realli nice... she sounded like if we're nt happy wif da seats we can leave... (she din say so but her tone suggested smthin similar) but in d first place, we arent... we're juz deciding who sits where... joe dun wan share da family platter so everyone eats kenny quarters lor.. tot macaroni cheese's nice but nt to consuming a large portion down ur stomach... it's different.. for me i'll get abit sick... but cos of da chicken mainly, i'm v full... it's 1/4 chicken as d name suggests. d so called muffin dun taste v nice ba mayb cos i'm towards full limit?

but cos me, jy, mx n joe sitting in d smaller table, din get to join da fingers game again... but i get to take pics of jy's masterpiece of leftovers and eil and alex's masterpiece of smiley leftovers... (raise eyebrows, potential lao gong lao puo, haha).. after hanging in there for sometime, took our time to walk out n took pics arnd there... esmond was asked to take pics wif 2 grps..shan't elaborate more... haha

i havent transfer da photos taken from hp to here... will upload soon if managed to get it here... keep out for updates k?

=saturday=

swam from 11-1.20. now having painful sunburnt skin le... agreed b4 hand cos din noe gettin burnt wun b tt fast ba... after all esmond wana get tanned... feeling exothermic now..

went watch infection wif hoi ching. it's actually quite engaging n alot of times it's juz ppl scaring ppl... nt even ghosts or wad... earlier parts was kinda disgusting... saw hc almost cover her eyes le... haha... tot she'll b brave de ba... at least alot better den da class gals... was realli nt hungry so din share pop corns. ate a few nachos only ba... but d show din realli make much sense to me ba... haha.. tink it'll b quite some time b4 i can watch another... i'm nt sponsored for movies anymore. had a walk after tt, felt much better tokin under da starlights even though we're sumtimes juz immersed in da silence of d nite... duno hw she feels abt tt...maybe juz tink i'm boring... felt super pissed wif myself.. din send her home cos i'll definitely b locked out if go home too late but i tot i should at least send her home... haiz.

tink tt's all 4 now ba...

yea... finally hav da chance to update le..or she'll hav nth to read again, haha..

Almost considered no school today. Attended chem lesson and after tt got pink form n zao... Hav not much idea where CMPB is except tt it's around redhill.. My pa wan send me there but b4 tt end up waiting for my parents to eat their '2nd breakfast', lol. I still feel full at tt time. Forced to eat popia at least...

When i reached there, i've gotta figure my way thru. Hav no idea where CMPB is. It's actually part of the duno wad defence building.. The e-registration sys sux lor. Gotta wait so damn long b4 i can actually login. I'm pretty sure i waited more than 1 hr. Not sure whether got 2 hrs anot... probably so. Sat there like a fool... 4gotten bro's IC n end up hav to fax over dat info at a later time... sux man...

wanted to watch pacifier wif chingz but went to watch wif classmates liao... boohooz, nvm, aiming for sahara... seems like a good one... hmmz...

saw an email tt's quite touching. was abt a man n a women married for 11 yrs b4 they conceive a baby. n to them, it's almost everything. until 1 day when da father went out leaving da mother n da child. He told her to keep da bottle of medicine away from da child but da mother was pre-occupied wif sumthing. Da kid had no idea wad tt bottle was n drank all. When da mother discovered, da kid was heavily poisoned ord cuz tt's meant to b for adults to take in small quantity. In the end da kid died, n da mum was very upset but duno hw will her husband react when he come to da hospital..

When he did, he saw the child n turn to her, crying out, "I love you darling". Da mother almost couldnt believe wad she heard cos she wasnt expecting him to say tt. But da father realise wad's done is done. Both of them r v upset n she needs most is sum1 to console n not to deepen da feeling by scolding her.. If only there were such forgiving spirit around, the world will seem like a better place...

10/04 actually hav bdae celeb tis yr.. pretty surprising.. It's so rare tt everyone juz gathers together to do sumthing wad is not compulsory. So touching... haha, ate pizzas but i only manage to hav 2.5 slices n still not full.. But ms fong pay one... ha, it's ord v good for her to buy 6 boxes ba... Took alot of photos as a 'family', photos of gd frends, photos of da guys 2gether etc... But wad's eh... weird is cos it's belated one. 11/04 is celebrating and i'm nt sure abt 09/04 lor... tink yr 1 oso got ppl bdae, so canteen was quite noisy. But den all these celebrations sorta delay sum time of mr desai's lesson n i can tell he's quite angry... yup, seldom see him like tt de.

hope i wun hav too much things to do when i find out from my classmates wad had been said..

mood: -sian-

I don't know why but internet seems very slow today. MSN slow, blogger slow, maybe because it's the singnet connection.

Watched the vidlit flash movie, it seems interesting, but perhaps because it's quite long, you'll get bored by it quite soon if you don't give it extra attention. At least it's better than www.badgerbadgerbadger.com. That one really sucks, it's irritating moreover.

Pulling a smile when you're sad is really hard. But I guess everyone is doing that somehow. But I think everyone who bothers to put an effort deserves encouragement. Why make the world such a sad place and not one which is full of humanity warmth. Ok, maybe I don't know what I'm saying... Spouting rubbish again.

I'm pro at making people sad, i've kind of figure that out. Sad actually, don't know why it just have to be this way. Or am I just tormenting myself? I don't know, don't have an answer for that. I just need someone by my side to console me. Isn't that simple enough?

Mood: -erratic-

today's a fun day! though desmond as usual overslp n miss da running appointment wif me, i went for a free trip to wild wild wet as suggested by my uncle. Had to pang sei esmond again, so paiseh, sorry ah, nxt time go swim wif u.

deir's nt many fun things in wild wild wet nw tt i've played. First station was da dble man slide... duno wad's dat exact name le... had to queue bloody long b4 get a turn which lasted no more den 30s. diao rite~? but at least when at da instant of dropping off... it's realli so darn cool... i'm almost dropping off... maybe cos i'm light? felt myself almost detached from da float... din manage to open eyes for 1 sec... haha

nxt up is da shiok pool whereby i call it lazy pool: dun realli hav to move, let da wave push u along... it's v comfortable actually... i realise w/o da float, walking thru it is fun... tried tis twice... it's good for relaxing when u're giddy.

thirdly, tried da 6 ppl ular lah station n end up queueing pretty long too... but luckily due to me n my bro playin only, we're allowed to grp wif 3 other ppl in da front queue... hehez, sum ppl muz b quite annoyed by jumpin queues ba... initially, da spin off is fun.. but till da middle sect, da thrill dies off... last part even got camera auto photo shot... well, nth much unless u wana buy... if it is, make sure u're facing da camera first, haha...

fourth, played da wave pool, it's v cool, rather vigorous waveforms n almost got me sinked or so i tink... i was at da 1.5m section n ord wif da wave, it rose to probably 1.8 tt kinda engulf me when i wana breath... horrible... haz, den tried gg back to shore but da splash was also v violent n in fact can be rather painful. da grnd is rather rough n u may rub n hurt urself... my cousin did...

den later tried da 2nd lvl waterworks... it's fun oso, total pitch dark in da completely covered tube... heez, got 1 joker screamed damn loud inside like as if it's so scary... for me when i tried, din expect it to b so so long b4 i come out... yah, tried holding my breath so when i splurge out of tube it wun b so shockin...

yea, basically tried almost everything besides da rider one... but i spend 3/4 of time waiting n da rest playin only lor.. so sian, if only waiting time is reduced.

Met chingz after tt, thanx for accompanying me for dinner... wanted to spring a surprise on u but well, maybe it worked too well tt it sprang back at me... argh, end up din say wad i wanted to.. Hope u like my gift anyway! :D (maybe i'm too blunt, dun take da words i've said jk to heart, it's nt true at all when i said it's jkin, pls blive tt)

coursework n chem test is coming... argh, gotta mug...

Mood: -giddy-