Circle of Friends

Many fragments of thoughts in my head now. The following things would be mentioned with no direct links to each other whatsoever. I usually blog when I’m feeling sad. But this time it’s different.

Got cheated to be the only one from my batch to show up for Frank’s pageant competition. Moreover, the program’s really boring, unlike any other competitions I’ve seen. There were only 2 walkthroughs for the contestants in clothes that looked almost the same. The theme is not very strongly brought out. Most of them didn’t walk in a style how models walk. Their poses look pretty awkward too. Ha. Maybe the organisers had spent too much booking down Zouk for the event, probably.

This year CNY seems very short. Perhaps by CNY day 2 I already had to go back hall for presentation meeting. Ang bao amount is a lot lesser this year now that economy is really bad. Not expecting much anyway.

The relatives that I meet annually seem to be distant this year. Not sure why I felt this way though, perhaps because they really can’t tell me apart from my younger brother. The picture on the left is him. I don’t find us looking any similar though.

My cousins have grew taller. I’m still pretty much the same. Haha. I guess I’m really old and really soon I would be busy working day after day and a family to take care of when I’m back. Responsibilities to shoulder and mouths to feed. By then, would all the fun I have now disappear from my life totally? Where else can I find the strength to keep me going?

Thought about the 3 months break later this year. I think I really need to go work and earn some money, otherwise I don’t think I’m able to last 4 years with the current rate of expenditure. Ha.

Suddenly I feel like singing…  I have a melody that’s coming from nowhere, no purpose. Just a feeling I want to express. I want to thank all my friends who have been through my life. Thanks to Mingxiu and Hengyi who have made my secondary school days less monotonous. Thanks Ruth for being such a nice mei but I think I was never that nice back. =) Ha. Thanks to Jian Yuan and Esmond who have made JC seem so much more lively and entertaining. Thanks to Choonpei and Weina who have made me feel that it’s possible to have a friend who can just listen to you. Thanks to Lipsin and Hui Chuan who made my NS life less miserable. Thanks to Keefer and Jialing, Starhub clique who made my job something to look forward to day after day. Thanks Weiyen for being there to hear me out at the weirdest of times. Thanks Edwin, Shanghao, Poo Hee for making my hall stay worth it. There are still many more people I want to thank. It’s you that keeps me going. I hope I can do the same to you too. 

Thanks Bao for everything you did. It’s been difficult for both of us to find time for each other but I’m glad we tided through. Happy 2 months dear! =)

New Year Updates

 

 

It’s the start of 2009. Just finished with many of the IHRG and IHG pretty soon. There were many things I have learnt about during the year of 2008 to now and I have become more careful of what I have to and got to say. Being quiet at times becomes inevitable if I don’t want to be shot at unnecessary. Some politics will just be there even if you don’t want to believe so. It hurts when you know that it’s your friend who shoots comments at you not face to face, but through others. Everything can be used as a yardstick to compare on.

 

I’m happy that I finally see through the end of hall cheerleading. It has been an eye-opener experience to understand the sweat, friendship and teamwork of being a cheerleader. Throughout that period, many persevered while some dropped out. It’s not an easy effort from a total noobie to be trained a cheerleader. At least I’m proud of my own performance. =)

Ever since the training ended, there’s many things that had changed. No more night trainings that the team dreads. No more toleration of each other’s mistakes. No more sweat and laughter from the same few people whom I have seen almost every night. Suddenly, the night just seems to have quieten down. Perhaps I start to miss all the things that I used to do. =) 

I really feel thankful for everyone who came down to watch my performance. Big hug to you all. =) I want to thank Jian Yuan for collecting the goody bag for me. Felt bad that I couldn’t attend his event due to training.

 

Met up with Hengyi and Chris. It’s one of the rare occasions to meet up. I think my secondary school friends are generally very rich. Always tend to feel the uncomfortable distance between them and me. Be it their spending habits, hobbies, etc just don’t seem to click anymore… =/

Looking forward to Chinese new year. I’ll be another year older soon. The 2009 me that’s in the mirror seems much older, tired… I suppose ageing is something that’ll come sooner or later after 21. Mum seems to be less energetic recently. Part of me wants to graduate soon so that I can help in the family. Another part of me has reach that mentality level yet. There’s many things I want to learn, I want to see and experience before I step into the workforce for good. I can’t visualise what I’ll probably do in the future but for now I’ll be going full swing into studies. I must do much much much better this semester.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

 

 

 

 

It's kind of late to wish everyone merry Christmas here but it takes some time to sort out photos and to sum up what I want to say.

I had a different Christmas this year. I'm feeling very much in bliss although many things could have been a lot better. I am starting to see how complicated the social circle is. The more people you know, the more you would have to manage yourself and your friends better. At least that's what's expected of you if you want to maintain a nice impression in front of everyone. I have always wanted to be as nice as I can to everyone but that's not that possible it seems. Sorry friends if I have neglected some of you. I'll find a way to prioritise my time better. I'm still learning but it feels like time has less tolerance of me as I grow older.

Christmas eve is memorable for me. It doesn't matter where I spend it as long as I'm with you. =)

The food in Giraffe is very much expensive. The quality is not bad. Ambience is rather soothing for me I feel. The music they played was not the typical Christmas songs I thought. They played many Enrique's songs. What a pity it was raining that day otherwise it would have been a splendid ambience! The service is good. We hesitated for quite a bit on the Xmas meal but the waiter waited patiently for us to decide on the orders and the winning smile was more than enough to please the customers. It's worth returning on any other days. =)

We had fun in our own world playing with the party fedora hats they provided. I even wanted to play with the party poppers if it was at an alfresco setting. I figured that it would be pretty embarrassing or attention-catching if I did that. LOL. The seats I reserved were actually outdoor but the manager was nice enough to change seats for us when I asked for it. It's quite weird though as the only available table is a 6-seater table. BH and I just sat side by side at a corner of the round table that stationed right smack in the centre of the place. The rest must be thinking what's so special of us to take such a big table. Haha.

I was surprised that BH tried her best to dress up well for me. I would say she looks very elegant even without wearing skirt. Ha. Of course not in FBT shorts and VJ T-shirt that she jokingly said she'll turned out in. I supposed I had over dressed to some extent. Many people were staring at me which somehow make me feel very much uncomfortable.

After dinner, I thought it would be best to keep out of streets if I want to avoid being sprayed by foam. Although it's not legal anymore, it's still rather prevalent in the town areas. Aye, I would rather not take any chance. Movie was the next option. Twilight wasn't at all what I thought. It turned out to be a romance story that even kids can watch. Ha. I also got an ice-cream treat from her. For me, there seems no difference between Ben&Jerry's to Gelare to Andersen's ice-cream. I know ice-cream lovers will argue on that but that's just what I feel.

Grand cathay's cinema is really different. It looks so grand and the setting is very much like a musical theatre. =x Were we not supposed to take photographs in there?

After movie, we had supper over at Rochor tau huay area where we also had gift exchange when midnight strikes. She's observant to realise that my wallet's condition is much close to unusable state. LOL. *Touched* Little action speaks volume. =)

I had a Christmas party at Valerie's uncle's house too. Another mega-huge place for such parties. There were many people I don't know. Some are Edith's friends and some are Val's friends. They were many more guys than girls there and it felt like a ORD gathering. Ha. I'm glad I still feel a familiar sense of belonging to the group of friends whom I've not met for some time. I realise gift exchange is only nice if everyone makes effort to source for presents. Karma will ensure that people who wrap 'presents' from unused items will get similar treatment. LOL!

I love the part when everyone got together to play the sparklers to form words. Xuguang was actively trying to finish blowing his present (bottle of bubble foam). Come to think of it, there isn't any log cake to eat this year.

The Christmas celebration in hall was somehow not as good as I thought. Not sure if everyone was tired after playing IHG or simply not as supportive. Food and drinks were not bad but there really weren't enough time to put up superb music performance. I'm sure a little cheer and encouragement would do some good...

So far 2008 has been very much exciting for me. I tried out many things new and learnt many things. I'm grateful for all the good things that had happened and will cherish the love from the people around me. It's not possible to please everyone or do everything perfectly. I just want to look back things with a smile.

I had finished sorting my thoughts out. Good friends are like footprints in each other's sand. If you had never any more intention to step into my sand, soon the past traces of footprint will be erased by the sea and be lost. No matter how hard you try to seek it, it's gone...

Another chapter of my life is gone. My new year wish is to do better in studies and relationship. Happy 2009 everyone!