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=Disaster Anniversary=
Yesterday last year was the unfortunate loss of many lives during the unexpected disaster. My console goes to all who lost their kins. I suppose the following christmas will probably remind them of the loss instead of a peaceful celebration. To have health, to live on is the greatest bliss I think. Without those, material possessions are nothing.

=New Favourite Song=
Lyrics of Mariah Carey - Hero

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

[Chorus:]
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

[Chorus]

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

[Chorus]
=Merry Christmas!!=
Ha, I think this is the festive season many young people will love to celebrate no matter whether they are seriously into it or not.

I went out with hoi ching for christmas eve and it was so crowded everywhere. Of course, it takes much patience to walk from place to place. Lots of spray, whatsoever party stuff you can think of, and I think that was what make the place so happening for countdown. Unfortunately, I did not countdown there. We count down at a quieter place at somewhere near esplanade.

All the way from citylink mall to marina square to esplanade, the crowd is comparative little and in contrast much more breathing space for people. Haha, although it wasn't what I expected from, nevertheless, still turned out to be fun in another flavour.

I managed to knock out some secrets from her at least. Nah, it sounded as if I was the bad person. I was quite truthful also... lol. There's little drizzle somewhere in the night and with the wind, it's actually quite cold. Fortunately, it stopped after a while. There isn't any synchronous countdown timing so we just went on our own pace, lol. I received a box of "Merci" chocolates from her. Oh no, looks like I have to go on "sinful" indulgence for some time... Ha. The chocolates sort of melted in my bag when brought home. Well, it's already the best place to hold the chocolates. If I had held it, it would have become worse due to the morning downpour.

I don't mind if it's just raining but the harsh wind makes everyone shivers like crazy. Chingz already wearing very thick but still shudders in cold, my jacket on her seems useless too. Lol.
Plus, both of us are very sleepy already... Imagine 2 fur balls wrapping up in a corner hibernating, haha, must be quite hilarious I think.

Now must catch sleep to cure my cold... For my brother, I don't know why and how come he got to be acquainted with a friend that is so generous to sponsor almost everything he plays... Chalet, movie, taxi fees, arcade fees, etc... Oh man, I'm so jealous!!
=Vorce Site update=
It's another major update to my website this time. It took quite some time due to my account got deleted for no particular reasons. Fortunately, it's just the login approval, not the whole archive. It takes extremely long time to upload you know? The photos should be on the website. Previews are 100 x 75 in general. The actual images are really big. Have not gotten the time to optimize yet. I still need some more time to add in the photos for graduation night, christmas lightings, miscellaneous stuffs etc... Please visit the image gallery under TJ Memories.
The site is: http://hkc.vorce.net Thanks!

=Movie/Outing=
Hmm.. Don't know what's wrong with me yesterday. I can actually forgotten how to walk to cineleisure from Orchard. Dotz... spent erm, more than 30 mins to figure out. I'm just too embarrased to ask strangers... =x Mum got quite frustrated walking here and there and both our mood kind of turned bad...

Anyway, the show we watched was "King Kong", $9.50 tickets on a Saturday. A great show after all these while... Too bad we missed approximately 30 minutes of show time when we arrived in. The usher thought we were catching the next movie in theatre 5 and told us to wait. Ha... How embarrassing...

Perhaps I missed out all the boring talking parts in the front portion and what I see is the journey out on sea to SKULL island already. I thought I went into the wrong theatre out of panic when I see the sailors and the actor dancing on the ship... Oh, but nevertheless, I still like the action and the humorous parts. The ending was like the previous "King Kong" show I watched when I was young or that was the only part I can remember from the old show. But the proportion of the gorilla is too out of ratio... Thus, I wondered why the building did not collapse when it was climbing up.

Anyway, the movie was good. Before the movie, I bought a bag at Bugis Street. The things on sale are really very cheap. Probably some of the designs you see there are sold otherwhere else also but more expensive in the latter place. However, they are still making a lot of money from it. Does that imply those in other shops are ripping much more benefits?

I just realised there's second floor to that place. Not sure if it's a big place because I did not go up. But one shop caught my attention which is the 'xing qu dian' the 'xing' is sex in chinese. Ha.
=Christmas Lightings @ Orchard=
Hmm... I just feel that this year's christmas lightings aren't that good. Perhaps because I visited them too early, that's why no christmas feel?

Christmas lightings will look good only at night so during the evening, Chingz and me dine out at Seah's Street place. It's not as crowded as when Thomas brought me there. Well, so, we don't have to wait as well. I don't seem to notice any jazz music playing that night too. The atmosphere's kind of different... Hah, don't know if it's the apt word to speak of it. It's really nice when you don't have to rush through your meals and be able to take pleasure in taking hours to enjoy eating. Lol...

Didn't really take much photos of the lightings there. The place is just too crowded and stuffy! How I hope cool air accompanies christmas in Singapore, that will be splendid. Can you imagine I was sweating while strolling leisurely on the streets? The theme this year seems to be of music related stuff. I saw musical notes hanging above the traffic all over the streets. At a junction, I saw a pair of "musician" decoration hitting the drums. Haha, I still prefer dancing christmas tree, looks cuter to me.

Here's the christmas tree behind us. Don't know why it looks that dull in the photo. It's supposed to look much more livlier, haha. This photo was taken by a stranger, not that bad but just worried that he'll run away with that. Lolz. I don't know why I look so dumb in this photo. Haha. The christmas tree near City Hall is the nicest of them all but too tall and sparkling to take photos too near. Saw one family taking photo of their children and the tree from opposite the traffic!

I feel bad for making her walk long distance here and there when her runny nose seems to act up only after walking some distance. She said the air wasn't too clean and I really think so. Fortunately, my nose is just sensitive to extreme fragrance from body shop perfume.

After some time, we reached the esplanade. I didn't know along the fenced up coastline of the esplanade is installed with animated lights until I notice that night the colours seem to run through the coast. I thought I saw that due to my eyes turning blurry. Ha, no, it's confirmed so. Oh yeah, the durian really looks gorgeous at night.

At that place, many people were taking photos. Who knows what they are taking. I saw lotsa flash here and there but I think only Merlion and Esplanade landmarks are worth taking.... or are there something else? Here's the merlion which is among the last few photo before the camera's battery runs out. When my cousin lent me her digital camera, it wasn't fully charged and she forgotten to bring the charger too. So it's actually not bad to capture 55 photos for graduation night plus a few on that night. Haha. It takes me some time to configure the right settings on the camera and as well as on my k508i.

The sea breeze there is really cooling... Nice spot for hearty chats too. I haven't been talking that much since A level was over. Many matters ran through my mind. I feel that life's coming to a cross-road since the future is almost uncertain but ironically, there should be nothing I need to make decisions over since what I have to face soon is NS and the girls at my age will become my seniors in their respective universities soon.

Yep, I think I will stop writing here. Quite bored this whole afternoon coaching someone. I wonder how will I spend my christmas...?
=Navy Invitation/Openhouse=
Ok, since I've signed up, I went for it. It's not that bad decision to go after all - a fun trip for me. Here's the program throughout.

1) Validation of registration details at the waiting stop:
-I signed up alone so I kind of expected a lonesome trip throughout. But to my surprise, I see familiar faces at the waiting stop. Saw Jiamin and her taekwondo friend, ah Q, christopher and zuhui. All of them came alone too. Just a pure coincidence that I meet them. So the trip won't be as bored as I supposed.

2) Bus ride to Naval Base:
-I'm not sure exactly where is the location when I arrived. It's a very isolated place away from the heart of Singapore but it's still within the boundary of the mainland. All camera phones have to be kept at the visitor centre before approaching into the base. The Navy people are kind of thoughtful - planning bus rides wherever moving from destinations to destinations even though distance between is short.

3) Briefing of Navy Missions and Technology:
-Well, it seems pretty cool presentation they have put for us. I suppose part of the credits go to the speaker. (Convincing and bhb) From their presentation, I can see that the force is relatively small compared to other countries. However, the technology compromise for that and competency level is thus high. Their team spirit is good too (even if it's acted out) but I do believe they are close working partners. Free goodie bags are given out too. Nothing too amazing in it, just brochures.

4) Ad-hoc Breakfast:
-It was not pre-planned part of the program. They decided to put in due to the courtesy of it for inviting everyone so early in the morning. The food is nice. =) From the place where the breakfast buffet is held, I can see the broad view of loading and unloading port of the ships. The water glisters in the early morning and the scene looks spectacular through the clear glass panels around the buildings everywhere.

5) Exploration of largest navy ship
-Hmm.. It certainly looks cool from the inside and outside. But it's also quite difficult for me to move fast in the ship. Almost every sea-tight doors have high stubs to cross over. The stairs look scarily steep especially when coming down than moving up. Control centre looks just like the movie too! Ha. Most of the control of ship is quite automated, replicate components here and there and no more reading from map already. It's a pity we can't get to explore the stealth frigate yet. It's a newer ship and they are in the midst of adding in more components. Although it's actually ready for operation, the luxurious facilities in the largest ship is still missing in that frigate.

6) Ride on Fast Craft Utility (FCU)
-All were asked to wear float jackets before boarding FCU. Its maximum speed is very fast I suppose. But within the base, the speed is limited to 6 knots. It's already quite fast for me from the rush of the wind.

The trip ends off with free "King Kong" tickets given off. Yay! Still managed to catch a last movie before NS.

=Job Hunting @ Clarke Quay=
Esmond recommended this job to me when I asked him if he has any recommendation, seriously I wonder if he gains any commission from that. Shortly after that, he's off for his vacation in Hong Kong. Seems pretty much like a planned trick.

From what he and his senior's speech, I still can't figure out what the nature of the job about. He insists that I should come down for briefing at Clarke Quay to know more about the range of jobs that can be undertaken. Esmond recommends other than me, some other friends too. Jian Yuan after getting conned once, is precarious about such dubious stuff. Hence, he rejected to go for it.

When I reached there, Caleb, Weiyan, Joo Fang and Man Ting already there. They were waiting for me only. Shortly thereafter, we were brought to FLP and were introduced to the place and its activities. Oh well, the senior could have told us it's a particular place that we were going to work for but didn't... I get to know the 4 others soon as all were unknowingly victimized by our dear friend.

It seemed to be their company annual prize giving ceremony day and I do think it's not appropriate for us to join in such a ceremony just to know what the company is about or to feel their family spirit. It's just too time-consuming. Besides, their overwhelming enthusiasm kind of scares me to a large extent because I've never ever seen anything like that. All seemed like fake or acted out. If not Weiyan and Joo Fang initiated to move off, I guess we'll be stuck in that place for a much longer time.

I'm not really trying to say that the company is conning people but more like the situation of us people aren't really suitable for the job yet. Firstly, the time we're able to contribute is much lesser and the social group or contacts are mainly students, not rich millionaires who will willingly buy the expensive health-care products. There are many things to consider. I would rather get a down-to-earth job than a pyramid job. It's just not suitable.
=Graduation Night=
This is one of the big days for all TJCians graduating this year. I have always looked forward to it because it is my first ever grand party I've had so far. Secondary school's leaver ceremony isn't half as grand and cool as this. Haha..

It took me lots of time and money to buy clothes and do preparation for grad. It may sound kind of vain but no, I was just doing the minimum what others did. It's a fun thing having to reach Ritz Carlton early and see everyone coming in various styles...

Geraldine seemed bored almost throughout, complaining "sian" all the time. Jian Yuan had a hard time trying to entertain her. Ritz Carlton's signposts don't seem to be quite effective as the plates under the dim lights, merge well with wall and its position is somehow very near the place you want to find and that's like duh~ so redundant as you can already see the place before signposts lead you to it.

This is Hoi Ching looking great! I hope I didn't let others think I'm "da pai" because I have to be asked to take photo. I really love to take with all the friends I know. Afterall, there isn't going to be the same people, same time, same place walking into my life again. Ah, how nostalgic. =x

There are some wearing quite interesting costumes. Kai Yang, Daphne and one girl wearing Old England style are some of those I can think of.
Kai Yang was wearing some blue jacket with black t-shirt within. Daphne is wearing white cap and cool coat. Below are some photos I took with friends. It appears that the LCD screen on the camera is not accurate. I thought the photo was rather bright in the camera but appears not so on my computer. Hmm...

Also, I can't help but feel so amazed at fiona's appearance. Wow, so lady-like. She can look so pretty if she's less rough. Lol. However, it seems that she cannot stand how others look at her - hiding behind Estella's back initially. I think the change is more of good than otherwise for her.

Yunhui looks fantastically different. I can't recognise her for a while. Ha... I'm not tall and all girls are wearing high heels, that makes me seem even shorter. Sobx. Nah, that's fine.. I'm used to it. The first time I met her was at Choir audition and so far we've maintained some level of contact since she's living quite near to me. She's always very close to student council. After all, her boyfriend's from Student Council too. Haha.

The food isn't sufficient for me I feel. It seems like the greater the stars rating of the hotel, the lesser the quantity of food is provided. Nah, just joking. I like the dessert nevertheless. Strawberry flavour never tasted that good for me before. =P

Before the class left, we took a trio photo beside the great christmas tree standing near the entrance. Nice right? Alex looks like he's got a lot of things on his mind. Wonder what's he thinking about. Ha.

Here's the grad queen candidate from our class: Cirong. Well, I suppose she's chosen due to high popularity unlike some which may be due to other reasons... It's not easy to do the patting action when there isn't anything to show eh. At least there's a crown to be received. Ha... For guys, it will really be more fun if all put in more enthusiasm in performing for us especially the "Herhh.." part. But afterall, prizes don't seem to be much attractive anyway.

Here's Ms Fong without her beloved spectacles. Well, looks odd but maybe I'm just not used to it. I wanted to try contact lenses too but seems like there's no absolutely* free trial pair which wei jie insistently said there is. Mr Tong looks like a rich indonesian business man and Mrs Lim looks like a chic lady. Oh well, at least the MC felt so. She convinced everyone with her catwalk and the sexy moves taught by the MC. I don't have a picture on that. Ohh...

Here is Yuting. Her cheeks may look a little pinkish due to the colour editing. Quite embarrasing, she was taking photo with her friend when I suddenly just came in and she's OK for a photoshot. Her friend gave me a look that I was cutting queue.. Ha, but just said, "Oh nevermind, I help you two take." =X
Here's another popular girl - Yee Xian. Saw her and company at Marina Square shopping for stuffs. <= Her rebonded hair is quite nice right? Anyway, JiaYin is rather busy with her boyfriend so didn't take photo with her. =x That's all from the group of people in her gang that I know of.

This is the first and the last time I've taken photo with Xiao Yun I assume. It's of a funny incident that I got to know her. My friend, Haryl drags me to this christian sharing session for no particular reason and she's one of the very proactive people who enjoys opening herself to people. Frank and outspoken person. She always calls me Leonard because I look like the person she knew called leonard. Even her friend agrees so. I thought I'm unique? Lol.
This is Xiao Yun's friend, I think she's called Serene. I don't really know her but she said she always sees me on bus 88. Hee, I guess I aren't really observant. Glad to take photo with her anyway. So.. a new friend that night? Ha. I didn't see Haryl there so I guess he's not going. Strange, I thought somehow his friends will definitely be able to drag him there by hook or by crook. =P

Here's Angela Tan. Her make up is better than previous ones I would say. Not trying to hint anything though. Mm, she's a nice girl anyway, I've been rather impatient with her sometimes during pdp sessions. I think she would have sensed it but didn't take it personally to heart anyway... -----

Next is the gang of Marists in TJ. Not all but some. I really look like a dwarf or hobbit in the photo. See what I mean? If you ask me if TJ or my secondary school is better, college is where most of the most memorable events take place but secondary school is the one that makes me see what I am and the people around me. I believe both are meaningful to me.

Look at Hafiz. Isn't he cool? Ha, didn't expect him to wear like that. Maybe he's too close to Student Council initially and thus isn't close to the class. This year I realise he's a much nicer person than I thought, should have talked to him more to know that. Many dotA outings with him, zhiren and company aren't successful. Either tuition or something is in place. Ha.

Here's Estella looking very elegantly. She seems much slimer, wonder if she tried visiting slimming session. Opps, that's bad to talk of my "mum". She told me that when Esmond called her that time, she wasn't having a good mood and thus didn't think twice about the post-grad outing, it's not that she cannot go. (Hope Esmond reads this) I'm not clear what Esmond told jian yuan later in the night also. But like what Jian Yuan says, when the outing is at 2am. 9pm should seem early...

I'm tired of putting all the photos in. These are just a few. Drop me a message in the tagboard to ask for the photos taken not posted then I'll post accordingly.
Breathing in the first air of freedom... But now, it leaves me pondering how I'm to spend the remaining last month or so... Perhaps like what geraldine says, when you're studying A level, using computer is like heaven but when you're not, it's just one of the mundane task.

Just came back from my run. I've deteriorated to a very horrible state now, can't seem to finish my run. Got stitch (if that's how you spell) somewhere in between. Hope to be just ok in time for NS.

I've started playing ffx-2 english version and at the same time receiving immense pressure from my brother not to play. He threatened to return that game to his friend if I continue to do so. I guess he probably can't stand girl power. He said yuna using guns and dance sphere is crap. Wearing that little shouldn't be the consequence of believing in Machina. Oh well, I'm still a ff fan so I'll still play.

I've downloaded sony ericsson theme creator. Anyone wants me to create skins can tell me, I'll try, first attempt. Hee... I'll do a good one, worry not.
Received the arrow from weiquan and I'm supposed to carry on the game. :S

Here are the 5 weird things about me:
1. I'll suspect people why they are good to me... (=x)
2. I'll think a lot what people will think of me
3. I'm both childish and mature.
4. Although I've been a leader all the way till today, I'm still a very bad one.
5. Remember things that aren't important and forget those that are... (A lvl vs games, ha)

Mm.. maybe there's more but no good to say so many. Ha, who shall I pass the arrow to... Maybe to ycube! Haha...

I'm seriously going to cry my heart out when I see my results. 2 subjects which I had tuition for turns out to be screwed up. I still can't say exactly what's the cause. Nervousness? or still insufficient practice? .... I thought physics all the way is not hard to get A.... (But losing 40 marks already isn't a joke) and GP I thought I did many practice (but leaving AQ almost blank and doing an unsure essay isn't promising me anything) oh man... I hope I don't faint on that day...

I wonder how will my testimonial be like. Same monotonous piece of comment similar to many others out there I presume. Wonder exactly how much effect it'll serve in getting me anywhere. At this point in time, I'm so unsure of my future. What lies in my future seems like a blank slate waiting for me to carve something out. Some invisible immense pressure's acting on me, tantamount to me carrying 200kg thing. Just an example...

Hm... Still haven't got a clue what I'm going to wear for graduation night. Maybe I'm going to ask around who's wearing what. Don't want to look like a total "outstanding" person there. Lol. I want to dye my white hairs away but seems quite unworthy since all those are going to be gone by 6 Jan. Now that I think again, the table only has 2 guys, me and jy along with the girls... So weird.

I've managed to transfer games into my k508i! Yea! Searched many forums to find out how to.. Ultimately, I use floAt Mobile Agent to help me upload the games. There aren't perfect things on earth because most of the fun games I found aren't the size for my phone so it ran very slowly. Argh, what a pity.

After As, I'm going to fall into comatose... Ha, joking. I'm going to:
1) Train my body
2) Play lotsa PS2 games
3) Re-learn my guitar
4) Some leisure reading
5) Hang outs! (Movies!!)

Oh, not to forget, I have computing paper 2 on wednesday. Got to grab this last chance if possible.
=10/04 Pasta Outings=
I didn't manage to get high quality photos as yet from my friends. All these are posted ones. I think only after A levels ba. I'll try to get more if possible.

Anyway, I really appreciate Ms Fong as a kind, concern teacher to everyone in the class. Even though right from the start I never really do well for chemistry, she didn't give up on me which only make me feel more guilty... She told us that the class aren't united enough and hope we can always help each other along. I think more or less, we're moved by her actions and words. Even Sean attended the treat after all. Haha.

The following are the photos we've taken during the trip there. I've had a long time since I felt that nostalgia surging in me.. This isn't much like what I always thought as I wouldn't feel much about leaving the class but hmm... maybe it isn't true, I do care for the time I'm with the class. Haha.

=Farewell Concert & Events in School=
The year 1s' student council and the teachers have collaborated a concert for the year 2s as the farewell concert. I'm quite surprised by the effort that was put in. Initially, I thought it wouldn't be anything more lame than some singing and corny words. But the performance items are more to that. Ha.. The big birds and the maths department words are something that still strikes in my mind. I suppose such an annual event is kind of meaningful. Other than the thanking part which is too awfully long, other parts are really great.

Mr Tong, who's always so strict in discipline, surprised the year 2 cohort with his untidy attire in the play. I suppose that's the only time we can catch him in that. I can still remember he catch me not wearing polo t-shirt or school uniform for a really unreasonable cause.

Mr Bala as cool as ever, does his rapping with Sam and gang. I suppose if he hadn't come to TJ, he would have been in the music entertainment industry making big money. Lol.

Well, before the concert, the class spends the moment together taking photos. Same with other classes too. 10/04 took at the Temasek Square's flag raising podium. This other photo on the left is in front of the General Office, with pond and leaves, bla bla.. supposedly to be one of the best places to take photos I guess. Ha, it's the 3 of us again. I can't remember how many photos we take together already. Yup, buddies forever~!

=Friends=
Not forgeting other friends like thomas, bingz who encourage me all along. Of course there are others too... Long list... Thanks! Plus people who wrote testimonials for me in friendsters, thank you all.

I also wrote farewell cards for my robotics juniors and Mr Goh. I hope that should do for a simple farewell. Just thought it's been rather abrupt for me to give them the burden of running the club and shoo... there I go. If only there's been more time I can go competitions with them. Ha. Jian yuan read the card I wrote for Mr Goh and told me my tone was a bit weird. Ha, I wrote all those very late at night but my intentions are to thank everyone who work with me. Hope he doesn't feel the same way too.

=NS=
I'm going in to Training Camp 1 on 6 Jan. Anyone going on that date too? Most of those I know are going to Camp 2 which I think is commando camp on that day. Correct me if I'm wrong but I think those who hasn't received the notifications this month will probably be going in April? There are some in my class who hasn't got letter though.

I can't say if I'm eager to go in. Ha.. I suppose just go in with a normal positive attitude. That should be ok to last me through. Perhaps I should start thinking whether I want to sign on for officer or not... It's a lifetime (10 yrs?) commitment I feel. I can't foresee what course I'll be taking in universities not say the jobs I'll be apply in the future so it's hard for me to decide.

Esmond's news of becoming a "C..." is quite well known in college already but seriously I can't see the reason why he minds that people know about it and he's so insistent about friends not to spread such news. It isn't a scandal anyway so be open about it. It's quite prestigious I thought.

=GP Mock=
I came EXTREMEly late for the mock exam on that day. Mdm Lim was shocked that I came, even LATER than geraldine who's also late. Hmm, I told her the honest reason why I was late and rushed into my paper 1. It's such a disaster having to double the pace for every process I have to do for essay. Choosing a suitable question isn't easy not to say plan thoroughly for the essay. In the end, I only wrote about 2 paragraphs excluding the introduction. I knew very well it's a fail script just how bad I'll fail.. So I expected 16,17 marks. Mao Xin told me I can probably get higher than that if my content is reasonable and not many language errors.

Afterwhich when the paper came back, I got 22 instead. She said it's not a bad mark for someone who came that late. I don't know to feel comforted or what. Jian Yuan can even get 30. There are many others who get high up in the 25+ and 30+. Hmm... I should work harder...
=Mug Mug Mug=
It's really a scary thing to do for countdown to exams. It's just horrifying to compare the time to preparedness ratio. Ha.. seriously, can the miracles shown to us by Mrs Lim really happen? E and O to A and B? Sounds like a rather steep learning curve.

=WindowBlinds Vista?=
There's a madness going on for the pursuit of transparency in skins and everywhere you can skin. So what will the final version be called? There's already skins made for version 5 when the public beta has not even arrive. That I mean the version not only available in Object Desktop Network. The marketing strategy for Windows Vista will be changed rather drastically to attract the investors but profit is an issue. Let's see what will be done then.

=Class=
Happy Birthday Weiquan! Ha, I didn't know it's your birthday until I see Kelvin hand you the present. Ha, your touched expression looks kind of funny.

Ha, thanks PA for accompanying me for my lunch and also for the 2 papers you've been helping everyone to collect, haha.

Mr Desai gave 10/04 this black and white note with the saying pasted inside, "You cannot teach a man anything; you can only help him find it within himself." - Galileo. It's a small gift but at least he has the sincerity for that. Thanks for all the comical jokes besides imparting us precious physics knowledge. Lol.

=Misc=
On Tuesday, Jy crapped to PA that I have things to tell her when he doesn't dare to tell her himself. Cirong then thought I want to find her to talk to. Ha, then again, JY replied for me. When it's done, cr asks if I'd finished my conversation, I joked, "Yar, you jealous that I didn't talk to you is it?" She replied, "Ya lor, never come talk to me." I finished with, "Oh.. Never mind la, I talk to you later privately k?" She laughed and nodded and afterwhich I sense the uneasiness of Daphne who later asks her what secrets I have with cr. Lol, I should have bluffed Daphne and observe her reaction.

Ngian Xin bluffed her birthday and I end up sending a happy birthday message at the wrong date. It's not the first time anyway but I still feel embarrased about such awkward situation.

Thom, take care of your health ah! Ha.

=Lyrics=
This is From Guang Liang. Quite a nice song other than tong hua.

-=*握你的手*=-

山顶的风凉的想钻进我内心 沉默是我们最近唯一的话题
看曾经亲密的爱慢慢像友谊 爱是流星 一坠落就不停

我们尝试让彼此差异能隐形 遗憾的是回避不能解决问题
当我疲倦的凝望你憔悴表情 再不舍得 也该让你远离

握你的手 坚持到最后一秒钟
哪怕爱要冰凉了 至少让回忆是暖的
了解比爱难多了 我们都尽力了
也许温柔 是停止(再)挽留

握你的手 像耳语轻声说保重
让眼睛就算湿了 不只是痛也有感动
以前每一次挥手 都为了再握手
但这一次 是为了放手
=Graduation Night=
Today is the supposed last day for the submission of applications to the graduation night. I hope it won't get cancelled afterall. I hear that they need at least 350 people to attend before it can be retained. However, after yesterday's night, jianyuan's efforts have to gone to waste. Managed to persuade Estella and some others to convince fiona which in turn will force others to go. Ripple effect maybe, and well, now almost all the girls are going with the naggy persuasion Ms Fong speaks to us. But haha, fiona sure will look cute in gown, lol.

Esmond got quite pissed about the sudden turnout for graduation night. More to because probably the cruise trip will not be successful. From the start, I already didn't want to go but because I don't want my decision to affect anyone so I just keep quiet about the idea. I didn't know when I started giving him the idea that I want. =P

=Studies=
I'm already getting so tired in studying... Yucks.. Need to find motivation...
=Sick=
Down with fever again. Feeling blank after taking medicine. Thanks geraldine for your panadol. =) And jy, cp and elin for your concern. Haha. But this time, I don't think I'm sick because I'm too stressed. It's not an excuse to work less hard.

=Prelims=
Got back all papers except GP. Moderation n grading has not been done yet. I'm really worry-sick of GP, don't know why I'm so anxious about it this time. After being in tuition for sometime, I do hope I can see some improvements at least. My essay is marked by Mr Dustin Chin, hope he isn't too strict about that question I did. Ha

I don't have anything to say for now. That's all I'm going to write..
=Web Updates=
I've just updated my defaced web site hosted on vorce.net. It's the 1st website created this year. Haha, and it's completely original this time. I didn't get any image resource anywhere. A minimalist style applied and view should be comfortable with 800*600 and above. The site is http://hkc.vorce.net/. Feel free to visit. It's not completed yet but the basic framework is there already. Probably be adding more to my portfolio and another tagboard soon. Give some comments on that if possible too, thanks! =)

=Book=
I've read a book entitled "Life's Mysteries" by Shirley Lim. The stories are kind of weird. I can't seem to make sense of the stories. I suppose it's the intrigueing description of things and views that thrills people to read. But I'm more into the framework of stories, so obviously I felt "duh" after reading the story "Journey". =P It's just my piece of mind.

=Blog Responsibility=
Recently, Blogger has implemented this flag features to help create notice questionable blogs. But I wonder if anyone will abuse that function by clicking that whichever blog he or she comes across and creates more annoyances of the stuff from Blogger. Other than that, there's lawsuit filed against people who published political sensitive things on their blog and got caught. I'm not sure how intense that comments were but I know how I should try to watch out for myself then.

=JPop Albums=
Ayumi just released this "Heaven" Single. It's nice. Ok, I admit I say that because I'm her fan but so support her ok? Besides that, BoA's new album also look nice. Her appearance has taken quite a significant change since her 18 years old album. From cute to mature, innocent to sassy (sexy?) Now, I'm also listening to Koda Kumi's Songs.

=FF7=
I've watched advent children already. Absolutely good I should say. But don't know if I'm too absorbed into the show that I think the show ends too fast. Thought that when Sephiroth says "I won't just be a memory..." implies something more. I don't know what prompted Square-Enix to create a rendered movie out of FF7 and not other FF. Is it because it's really more popular? Will there be a continued sequel to that video? Besides that, I just found out that there's also an anime video "The Last Order" coming along with Advent Children.

By the way, good luck year 1s with your coming exam! =)
Yea~ Finally time to update my blog. Lots of things had happened.

=Dengue Fever=
It's scary just to think of how many people got bitten each day. The statistics is alarmingly high! I thought it. I thought the statistics were based on monthly basis but no, it's daily or weekly basis!

The scarier news of what I've heard is that. A person cannot get bitten twice if not, chances are that the person will die if the second time the person is bitten is from another strain. I'm not sure about the entire thing. Why can't the body produces the antibody for the second time? I shall find out...

=Prelim Aftermath=
Don't know if I should look forward to receiving the results... For maths, it's really finished! I believe it'll be the lowest among all my maths papers. Perhaps I didn't practise enough...

MCQs have become one of those papers that are really "challenging". Not in terms of the difficulty perhaps but to race against time to complete the paper. I thought I had done a lot faster but no, I still didn't complete solving the problems. I had to resort to "tikam" the rest of the answers left undone in 30 seconds. What a challenge that is...

It's really time to prepare for the final challenge that's daunting upon me. I can't see myself reaching the grades I want to achieve. Can I really do it?

=Wiki Entries=
Wikipedia really has full of information in the encyclopedia. I suppose that's the advantage of open-source. People can add on to the existing foundation, creating and editing the knowledge articles. But sadly, nothing really comes free in this world. For the Wiki-lovers, I suppose they have to do their part to help raise funds to establish something, I can vaguely remember anything..

=Windows Vista=
The latest announcements that I know of is about the release versions of the coming windows, it will come in mainly 2 package of which will be further split into several editions. All together there will be 8 editions I think. It's really confusing for the newbies which will most suit them. Even with the descriptions that come along, I can hardly trace out much difference in each version along with the longer and longer names of the windows product that comes in each time.

There's also lots of comparison of its features to Tiger 10.4 features. It's controversial to say who asimilates which features. I got lost in the discussion I read from wincustomize. Some of which the gadget ideas I thought originates from either Stardock or Pixoria. But whatever it is, I hope the ultimate aim is to make computing in the features really simple.

=People=
Haven't been seeing the friends I missed for a long time. Thanks to all those people who wished me good luck one way or another. The order is not in any particular. Edited* Looks like i'm getting old so dun blame me for tt. hehez

1. Yanyi
2. Geraldine
3. Jian Yuan
4. Bingz
5. Eileen
6. Hoi Ching
7. Francis
8. Thom
9. Li Zhen
10. Esmond
and so on. Forgive me if I missed out somemore... =P

Sadly some friendships have to be forsaken for life to move on. Is this necessary? I don't know if that's really reality's facts.

=Personal Grooming=
I've so much pimples around my mouth. Not sure why's that region more popular than the forehead or cheeks or wherever else. Got feedbacks that it's so awful. Hope to be ok soon. Ha, sounds vain.

I think I've put on weight too. Time for some exercise.
=Friday=
It's supposed to be early celebration of Teachers' Day for TJ. Reason being so is that the year 2s will be having study break the next week so celebration will be better if it's held on this friday to include the year 2s.

Leo Club has proposed selling slippers to the school for charity purpose and also proposed to the school to allow us to wear slippers on friday. Okay, the school has allowed slippers with bright home clothes then. So friday was a rather different day for TJcians. Even other schools' students look at us in a queer manner in the morning while making our way to the school. This is the slippers I wore to school. I didn't buy the nokia slippers though, don't look very durable although I like the black design.

As usual the first 2 lectures on a celebration day is not at all effective. The lecturers somehow know it and lower their expectation on the level of noise in LTs. My feet are feeling kind of cold and unused to the condition as it's almost always wrapped in socks and shoes. Ha..

I want to thank all my robotics juniors for the card. Yep, it's a very good encouragement for me, I'm so touched. haha. Yes, I will go forward and be motivated. Thanks =) and... I won't have my wrinkles out, I'll still retain my IP kid look.

The celebration programme literally sucks... I'm feeling ultra bored staring at the meaningless video the year 1s created. It's so awful with the heavy noise echo in the video bluring almost any sound in the video. Those that I hear is often very high pitch, sending creeps down my nerves. Perhaps the plot is good, not anymore with lousy director (or video maker). Therefore, I only find the dance by the dance club entertaining. This year, there seems to be a lot of girls joining it and seems like the modern dance club should just rename their pdp title to something else since no guys are joining it. Anyway, not a lot of people attended the celebration I think, at least I didn't see mao xin... O_o Haha...

After the class skipped Aces day, we went around finding teachers to give presents to. They are quite happy just to receive something from us. For the subject teachers it isn't anything significant from us. It's just the cd with the presentation of slides done by jian yuan. I've never seen mdm lim smile like that, oh yeah, it's rare... But I like the expression on Ms fong when we hand her the photo album we did for her.

It really took us quite long time to prepare and plan. I'm not in the planning committee and I would like to say the planning committee has really done a good job. In doing this, we shouldn't blame one another for who did more or less. It's supposed to be a contribution that comes from the heart, something we put in willingly. I really don't hope to see factions arising out of small issues... It's not easy involving many people to come together and plan things. Patience is really the key thing. Afterall, 10/04 don't have many time together anymore, we ought to cherish the friendship we've built so far.

Anyway, Ms Fong flipped through every page, scanning her eyes briefly across every photos... She's rather amazed that everyone is so cooperative in churning out a creative gift for her. The girls are so obsessed with praising themselves continuously in front of Ms Fong how much effort they put in to decorate their page. Only alex rebuked and said that his page is the best... Oh okay... but Ms Fong thought that 1 of the photos ping aik might want it.. Lol.

Jian Yuan bought something for his e club teachers to represent a gift from the exco of his batch. I'm intrigued by the details of the gift. It's really very nice.. I don't think my camera can capture the essence of the gift, there's reflections of light in it that makes it look really beautiful.

Esmond and me also went around taking photos with teachers and friends. Ha, the teachers are quite accomodating even though they are busy with the long queue of students waiting to take pictures with them too. Haha. Ms fong even followed our camera pose.

The 02/04 people has drawn something quite creative and I happen to see it so I captured photos of it. Integration of Mrs Leong = Not applicable. You (rock). Haha, there's still another one for Mr Desai. They drew the mean power graph and showed error in the graph and his comments: "Drop physics". I heard they also did some poster thing for the form teacher also but of course not as elaborate as 10/04. =)


Study hard people, let's strive for good results ok? =)
=Natsu Matsuri=
I went with Esmond, Jian yuan and Alex on saturday in the evening for this japanese summer festival held in Japanese School of Association. It's my first time visiting a japanese school, first time attending japanese festival, so I thought it'll be quite fun. (Except for the waiting time for ahem and the queues...)

There's many japanese+locals going. Some who have fukata (japanese traditional costumes) wore there, so they won't need to loan there. There's a shuttle bus that will fetch us directly to the venue from opposite tanah merah bus stop. I think the bus we caught was the last bus... Most likely... I saw some TJcians going also but not very familiar to them so didn't say "hi" though.

When we reached the venue, it's already very saturated with crowds of visitors. Therefore, we cannot get the supposed free fans and tickets at the counter after queueing for a damn long time, in fact about 10 people away from the counter. That means we have to buy the tickets inside where some booths still may have the tickets.

As the name suggests and what common sense can infer, the festival is one that sells japanese food. I can't remember all the names of food there but only remembered seeing all the main dishes selling out. Even those that are not, it's not within our reach as we didn't buy the coupons with main dishes. It's only the main dishes that are really yummy... What a pity... Eventually, I had some pastries, watermelon/honeydew drink, pop corn, sausages, ice-cream x 2 and asahi beer for dinner. That's roughly about $8 I think.

Later in the night, esmond encourages us all to join in the traditional dance. I felt a bit reluctant due to shyness but since a lot of young people are dancing, soon everyone of us joined in. It's really quite simple to follow and learn. Basically, the crowd is dancing around in circle, and I remember some of the songs are "localised". I mean some elements of Singapore identity is brought into the songs. That's why there's songs like "chan mali chan" and "hey singapore". Overall, it isn't anything very much exciting but a pure sense of fun which I hasn't got for some time already.

We took many photos just before leaving, some are quite idiotic of course. I think I'll post those esmond and jian yuan took up here later. I only have those I took with my phone. Not very clear in night conditions though. Haha.

=Random Lyrics=
This is also one of the nice songs I like to listen. Don't ask me why this. Just another random thought.

**A1 - Learn to Fly**
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When you feel the dream is over
Feel the world is on your shoulders
And you lost the strength to carry on
Even though the walls may crumble
And you find you always stumble through
Remember never to surrender to the dark
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time, you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each *tear that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly

In your head, so many questions
The truth is your possession
The answer lies within your heart (within your heart)
You will see the doors are open
If you only dare to hope
And you will find a way to fight
The fears that kept you down
Cuz if you turn another page
You will see that’s not the way
The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time, you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each *tear that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly

Looking at your situation
There’s so much that you can do
Now’s the time to make your stand
This is just an observation
In the end it’s up to you
The future’s in your hands

And if you need to find a way back
Feel you’re on the wrong track
Give it time, you’ll learn to fly
Tomorrow is a new day
And you will find your own way
You’ll be stronger with each tear* that you cry
Then you’ll learn to fly

Give it time
Then you’ll learn to fly
Another weekend for blogging. Yay~

=NAPFA Updates=
I managed to attain silver finally. 1st time of my life, I got that. I've failed NAPFA throughout except primary 4 when I got bronze.

I don't know if I should thank the practice session on wednesday which I've jumped over 20+ times for standing broad jump in hoping to achieve at least a D standard. Due to the poor cushioning of my shoes, my back and thighs aching severely even till now. But my jump improves slightly already though I don't believe in last minute work for physical conditioning.

I applied some medicinal pad (Is that how it's called?) on my back and thighs. It's not of the big and smelly ones but the newer types that are small and have no unpleasant smells. It sort of relieves my ache quite much. Otherwise, my shutter run and 2.4km run will suffer more repercussion.

Pull ups improve due to the pressure the sports guys are asserting on me unintentionally. They are doing so many to get A and so I just tried to do more than needed for silver. Shutter run allowed to run once since the teacher told me obtaining a B is more than enough. Diao~ Sit-and-reach can do better, not sure why but the grade is still the same. For sit-ups, I got no idea why the teacher has to minus 2 from my count. Well, still A anyway.

2.4km run came much later after everyone has completed their 5 items. I got lizhen as my recorder. During the run, she psycho her friends to cheer for me also. Wahaha... thanks to lz and friends... I tried to run at higher speed but my thighs are just too tired to catch up. Only at the last quarter of the last lap, I gathered all my energy to my legs and sprint as madly as possible.

After all, I hope jy don't be so sad about the results, after all there's still this programme to let you get silver..

=Charity?=
Today, I bought a shirt along with esmond and jian yuan. It's said that 3 shirts will give cheaper price so we agreed, though not exactly willingly. Maybe I should be the one to be blamed for relenting to esmond's relentless demands that upset jian yuan. I do think that the shirt is not very very nice and I have no idea what prompted me to buy the shirt. Lol... Perhaps Jian Yuan's money is meant to watch "The Maid" with whoever that is. He insists that doing charity is no good and besides the slippers look better. I'm speechless...

=Computing=
I just realise how bad it can be when all lectures focusing on theories are crammed together. It's so horrendous to start that only at 3/4 of THIS year. Similar to chemistry and physics, there's one on environment. Kind of weird to learn something about that, but I've yet to read through so I have no idea what's in it.

The way Wei Quan comments on Joel is quite funny. I don't know how I should put it but I think I shouldn't be so bad and say that, oh well...

=Embarrasing moments=
These are the moments that are so randomly thought out in my mind...

-When sleeping in bus and didn't realise how er... your image is...
-When tap water splashes on your pants which is mistaken to be....
-When someone wrongly thought that you're doing some disgusting things when viewed from an angle
-When you fall asleep on bus and your head constantly knocks on someone's else shoulders
-When you drip gravy or soup on someone else you are not familiar with
-When you tell a joke and the person looks at you sternly and says 'it's not funny'
-When you thought something is cool and somebody says it sucks
-When you are serious on a matter while everybody thinks it's a joke
-When you are still teased about the sweet things your gf/bf did to you
-When everyone knows about what's going on except yourself
-still more of it... end of part1, haha
=Zhong Se Qing You=
Ha, recently someone has raised this issue. Not regarding me actually. I suppose it's natural to feel irritated when your good friend's being "occupied" by someone and somehow neglected you indirectly. But actually, no one really OWNS anyone so I suppose it's actually right of anyone to talk to and be with anyone he or she feels comfortable with. Sticking to someone due to obligation rather than willingness is pointless. Perhaps, it's often that one's loneliness can make a person feel jealous or low self-esteem...

=Borrowed Items=
I've managed to fold a dinosaur from mao xin's origami book. I actually borrowed for quite a long time and here I am with only a T-rex that's out of proportion. I can't get the legs folded properly by the way. But at least, there's a rough shape you can tell that it's dinosaur right? Say yes please. Lol. Hansui's FFX2's also back with her already. I returned her today since I won't have the chance to play at this time of the year. Maybe after A Level, I will have the short period of freedom.

=Robotics=
I'm gathering all holy power to pray for my club for the coming competition. People, must buck up. This is your time to make a mark in TJ's history. Hope you all can sincerely fight for the club. (Not literally of course...) Gambatte!

=National Day=
I didn't manage to use the computer on national day. But I did manage to take photos of the firework. It's not very nice at all but it's the best I can take out of it. Lol. They just appear as spots in the picture.

I also played mahjong that day. No win no lose. Most of the times, I'm supposed to win at least half the bet with my relatives... Lousy performance this time. National day parade's interesting. I didn't expect the separated venues to have a different taste of variety for this year. Lots of defence show-offs this time. Some are things I've never seen before. Goody bag looks nice too! Warh~ Blame my luck for not getting chosen for tickets.
Updates...

=Mugging Process=
I'm getting restless once in a while but still in a good swing for more.. Syllabus has ended for almost all, soon will be into the full-blown revision lectures and tutorials. Many of my friends has already planned their revision schedule in details already and there has also been additional emphasis on that by the principal. I've never done one in my entire life so far, wonder if it'll work for me?

=Gossips=
Got photos of jy n ahem studying together, Alex n pa studying together. These are the evidences contributed by jy. Ha, hope you don't mind. Tsk~ Haha.

I would say that some teachers are really alert or have an acute sense of information gathering. Not to mention who, but there are some who really know about what's going on between their students, more than what grades that should matter to them most. Ha.

=NAPFA=
I'm feeling so irritated by my results. But at least it's better than usual. I scored A for sit-ups and shuttle run, D for chin-ups and 2.4 run, C for sit-and-reach, E for standing broad jump. The requirements for standing broad jump is 222cm for 18 year old guys. The first 2 times I jumped was an embarrasing 180+ due to the worn out grip from my shoes and the slippery concrete floor. It's a little bit of unfair to let us jump on that ground instead of the mat. It would have been better but since everyone can jump so far, I see no reason why my performance for that would be lousy. I tried the third and fourth time bare-footed and got 219 and 215 respectively. Haiz. The re-test has to be conducted with all items regardless of how many items failed to achieve a D. That sucks...

=National Day Preparation=
TJ allows chalk and rice graffiti to be decorated under the LT and the stretch of walkway around there. I thought it will be quite messy but turned out to look pretty good! Response is applausible as many classes enthusiastically participated in that. 07/04 and 11/04's combined design is cool! These are the photos. I could only take them separately as the view's too big for my hp. Nice right? 10/04 also did both rice and chalk graffiti for Singapore too. Although not as nice but it's the thoughts that matters. Haha. For the rice ones, it's contributed by jian yuan, esmond, alex and me! For the chalk one is ping aik, alex, esmond, jian yuan and me. We wanted to include everyone in the class but turns out to be quite messy. However the main message can still be seen. Heez.



=Anime=
Naruto episode for this week's a bluff! I heard from lim pin that there's no new release for this week so there can't be a translated episode which I thought there was. The video that I downloaded was about some weird comedy which I've not watched yet. Wasted my time downloading that.

The way Inuyasha and Shaman King portrays fighting scenes are actually quite simplified, I feel. It lacks the depth of reality how matches are fought steps by steps and some parts are over-looked. It resembles the older films of martial arts whereby the person just strikes and the enemy either dies or runs away. Hope to wish for a more exciting thrill to fights in the later episodes.
=Mugging Progress=
I don't know if my pace is considered slow or fast. I've covered more than enough for tutorials definitely. Revision right now is purely for maths and chemistry. Other subjects aren't there yet. But somehow I've found my motivation to do what I should do and I'm relieved I did.

=Windows=
I've just downloaded the theme for Windows Vista, the next windows OS coming to town, previously known as longhorn. It's quite cool I thought, after reading the review of it. The aim of the new windows is to simply tasks and make it real easy for newbies to handle. Vista means visual clarity according what Microsoft somehow has stated. The review of the site is at http://www.winsupersite.com/reviews/winvista_beta1_01.asp. What I can simulate is only a portion of it. Here's the screen shot of my com. =) Looking forward to it, it'll be available at early 2006.

=NS=
Quite a lot of my classmates have gone for the NS checkup already. Not that many came back with PES A. I wonder what sort of training will the PES A guys be undergoing. I'm feeling kind of anxious about what will go on in there, but no use thinking about it right now. Hope it's nothing surprising... Ha.. At least I don't have to go back there to recheck PES status.

Esmond got selected for the pilot test sometime ago which seems interesting. Ha, but it's beyond my reach due to my myopia degree. =X

=Fever=
I've reached 38.3 degree fever on wednesday morning. It's quite terrible at that time, not only about the feverish effect but it also sends chilling pain sensation through all my bones. It's really nerve-wreaking... I was told that I curled up like a ball when I slept on Tuesday night.

Ok... my fever's gone but here comes the irritating cough and sore throat. I can hardly swallow my saliva without causing any discomfort. Now with the disgusting phloem sticking down my throat. Yucks..

=Life=
I heard from my brother that his form teacher has suddenly passed away on wednesday. (Yes, same day as my illness and several others including JY, Jeremy, Es, Ms Fong that didn't come to school also.) It's really too unexpected and I can hardly believe the reality. She's only about 20++, just became an official teacher and just got married and she just left the world like that for an unknown cause yet to be known. Perhaps everyone should fill their days with meaningful things, better to do things you always wanted to than to procrastinate and leave behind regrets. Tomorrow is something you can never be sure will arrive...
Recent tutorials and remedials have almost drawn the life out of me. I suppose it's due to the sudden change in lifestyle I'm facing that makes me so uncomfortable for this period. I've always lack the discipline to do the right things automatically. But I'm doing it right now. I want to be proud of myself for A level results.

Tutorials are ahead now. That should be the pace. Doing revisions for chemistry nowadays...

These are the photos I took some time ago and only managed to get this to my computer after I bought the cables yesterday. It refreshes the fond memories I've had with my friends and family. Here they are:

=Robotics=
This is the one taken during roboGP competiton. There are many things I've yet to see from micromouse competitions I've gone through in the past. The competition atmosphere is not that dead, haha and there's interesting designs for robots like what you can see... Yes, they are roboracers!









=Class Memories=
These are the class photos taken in school and at the 10/04 outings. I guess there are not many outings whereby 10/04 gets together all the time. I think I'll probably miss you guys a lot when I leave TJ. Thanks for all the fun time that was shared. =)
Yea~ Another day for me to blog...

=Today=
Jy, Es and me was supposed to meet up at 4 for the $1.60 movie as offered in straits times at orchard cathay cineleisure. However as expected, there'll be long queues of people going for the offer. When they reached there first, there already isn't any slots... I'm so disappointed. T_T A change of plan to watch a rented movie at Es's house. Since it's almost on my way home, I thought it'll be fine to go there. Fortunately, I talked to joel and wq for approximately 1 hr before leaving. Otherwise, I may have to stone in Rivervale Mall.

We watched white noise. I thought it'll be exciting, perhaps somewhat like 'Shutter'. Eh, I'm wrong again. The tempo of the show is generally slow with some exceptional sharp scares in between but mostly due to sound effects. The amplifier is good and luckily we didn't just give up when we thought there's no sound. The show reminds me of boogeyman, or at most slightly better.

=Class Cliques=
After computing lesson today, I had a discussion with wq and joel about class politics. Ha, it's quite fun to talk about that at a higher level, analysing everyone. Being in cliques has its pros and cons although there seems to be more cons than pros. It's obvious what cons are as the word 'clique' is already hinting of it. For the pros is that you'll really get to know a friend very well and someone to depend on. I guess that feelings beat having a lot of friends but none to confide to.

Just for some reason, perhaps a wrong mix of people together, I think. Ha, I sound quite gossipy but at least it's something new to talk to wq with. Haha. But joel touched my hair again.

=Robotics=
There seems to be a rough time during transition of positions. I feel that no matter what has happened, it's bad to call people names... For me, blog is something for many to read about. So there's some sense of responsibility involved when writing our feelings... Anyway, I really hope things do turn out better and all the best for their years in robotics. Will miss you all, =)

=JCT aftermath=
It has landed everyone either in serious despair or an infallible determination to do even better. My classmates haven't been doing very well compared to my seniors who took their JCT last year, did relatively better. Jy has been quite sad for some time already... I think cp's too.

Well, for me I'm going through a bit of both. I'm even more depressed after the talk with Mrs Leong. Haiz, do I really have to end up dropping a subject before I can do well? I haven't really decide what course to take on in university and thus holding on to 4 is still quite important for me. I hasn't fail overall requirement but this definitely isn't anyway near the standard I can perform. I don't want to face disappointment next time round.

=NKF saga=
I'm sure the news has indeed delivered much shock to everyone. With a pay so high, toilets so comfortable, holiday flights so high class, bonuses so attractive, who'll not have the urge to make a fuss about it? Especially when it's supposed to be a charity organisation. People didn't donate to make him that 'successful'. Ha, there's much more complications to this. Although NKF has in actual 30 years of reserves, there'll need to be someone popularly trusted to take over the management of it in order to allow people to regain trust. Otherwise, I believe the donation amount will be going downhill... Other charity organisations will also probably have hard time trying to persuade people to believe that theirs aren't money-conning organisation. Now is a time where full transparency should come to play perhaps.

=Misc=
Ha, friendster lately has launched a games section. Something I never thought it'll be. The classified sections already amazed me sometime before. But nevertheless, it's still quite useful.

I was thinking about opportunities for people to be singers. They say that looks aren't that important but height was never mentioned at all. But I guess it does affect to great extent. Or I mean I've never seen a short singer before especially for males. Then perhaps, it's just another thing to illustrate nothing is absolutely fair on earth.
A summary for this week's updates:

=Dating Video=
Hmm, it's interesting to see actually there's so much teens that have very open concept about sex be it casual sex or those involving relationship. The statistics say about 10% but it's definitely under-reported.

This girl Karen has about 50 sexual partners. Omg, that's really a lot. Why don't someone give her a right piece of mind about the real concept of true love? Maybe there's addiction involved but I think no one will like to feel that cheap about themselves.

For me, I don't really have a clear line as to where I'll allow dating to go. But still I don't see myself going far if I start dating now. Probably almost impossible. Ha, but I don't like the idea of casual sex anyway.

=GP Video=
It's about the effects of outsourcing due to globalisation. Outsourcing refers to the procuring of services or products, such as the parts used in manufacturing a motor vehicle, from an outside supplier or manufacturer in order to cut costs. Overall, I find the video quite interesting except for the saturated high pitch sound produced as the AV room is locked, thus unable to reduce the volume.

Can't remember if it's the Bangladesh or Bangalore indians that's featured... Should be the latter one. The way how their culture is transformed through outsourcing is very much similar to Singapore in the past. They have become rather westernized or americanized in just a short period of time. The difference of ideas shared by just 2 generations can be quite significant.

This leads me to think about whether that is the inevitable outcome of globalisation. However, the relative idea of americanisation is rather controversial I think. Since America happens to be the first to start such consumerism trend and other countries follow doesn't neccessary mean that they're incorporating American culture. If it's some other nation that start out as a super power, they will develop along the same kind of pattern I believe.

However, focusing on the call company alone which recruits large numbers of educated indians can already make their lives rather different. They are trained in American's accent. The 't' sound is being softened to sound like 'd'. 'Water' have to sound like 'wader'. Ha, I find it personally rather amusing as I've never really taken attention to nuances in pronunciation especially in English accent.

On the other hand, the idea of 'glocalised' as defined by the journalist of CNN is to embrace globalisation and yet localised it to their culture is pretty much demonstrated so far. Some festivals such as the Valentine's Day is not broadly accepted as they believe love is spontaneous. The indians also have close family ties that bond them very connected to one another. Another thing that freaks me off somehow is the pool of talents that are produced annually. Imagine how much competition there'll be when I enter the working pool. Will employment be unprecedentally challenging in the future? I suppose only dilligence can give me a better insurance for that...

=London=
Basically, I have no comments as to it being chosen as 2012's hosting venue. I suppose anywhere will do as long as the spirit of Olympic is there. Shouldn't that be the main purpose? Of course, the implications of it being chosen is far more attractive other than the prestige. Tourism and economic sector will benefit from it for sure.

However sadly, just after the day they won the venue for Olympic, it's being bombed by terrorists. I've scanned through a couple of lines from the news and I wonder if it'll make visitors drop their confidence of visiting London. I suppose so, but 2012 is still 7 years away, who'll know what lies ahead. Their last bad scale of deaths was during WWII when the german drop missiles on them I think.

=TJ VP=
Eh, another person has just become a vice principal in TJ. Oh man, how many vice principalS do we need? Addressing all of them during morning assembly will seem like a funny issue. Such a long list of names, ha.

=Computing Coursework=
Being dilligent will help but sometimes I just wish I were a little more smarter. Perhaps that will save me quite a great deal of effort and time. There's quite a lot of things I cannot grasp it very well. It seems to me that Maran and Quang Hung can... Haiz.. I shall try harder then.

=Misc=
For no reasons, I seem to reminicise the times when I was in NYJC. I miss all my friends there. Wonder how they're doing.

I hate people who will just be very nice to me only when help is needed from me. Other than that, they don't talk to me. Don't need to pretend to be nice. Even if you don't take pleasure in talking to me, just being normal will do.

I just hope my friends can be a little more caring...

This is what I found out from an analysis of a personality web site. This is interesting as the questions asked are somehow not related to my character or at least not directly. Most descriptions should be rather accurate I think.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

=JCT=
Got very lousy results this time. I think I scored last in computing. How outrageous... Perhaps I spend too little time in it. Maths may be better but due to the fact that it's an easy paper. Physics as compared to promos is very much below standard. On a rather high pressure to elevate my physics grades. As for Chem, I hope it won't be too disappointing. News of it so far isn't very positive. There's single digit mark for Chem in my class. GP is hard to spectaculate. It won't be anything good, that's what I can conclude for my past experiences.

=Birthdays=
Finally managed to get an opportunity to buy presents for mx and y3. I remembered last year mao xin was groaning about his unpopular presence as no one is willing to buy him presents except lz. Yea, he was telling me... and I happen to be one of the guilty ones. Haha. Jy and me decided to do a little work on the presents to make things even more meaningful for the couple. Haha. If there's more time, it'll be even better as we'll be able to sort things out nicely.

=Class Outing=
Aww... missed the class outing to Sentosa. Heard it was very fun even though few turned up. I thought probably the guys and girls will be playing separately and it'll be quite boring. Looks like this time, it's not. Ha...

=Sakae Sushi=
Yum... Thx kor for your sushi treat. Really so apologetic to cause such a big hole in your pocket. Ha. Mm.. It's my first time to eat there anyway. I hope I didn't appear too 'suaku'. Ha. Anyway, don't worry so much about your health. You'll be blessed! =)

=School Work=
I saw the lessons schedule for physics and chemistry while I was arranging the files last night and I happen to realise that the pace after June Common Test will be ultra fast. Probably there'll be no room for slacking anymore. Computing coursework will start on this friday... Haiz... I'm so panicky about it. Hope it won't end up like the second coursework. =<
Thanks kor for your present. Heez, I like it. =) I'll use it during A's.

Quite a boring day today. Wanted to run but in the end too lazy to. Naruto comics is really a lot much more ahead than the videos. It's already so cool with just static pictures, what more to say for the videos. So addictive for me, ha.
For those who find the story I posted before interesting, I found it in friendster bulletin... I shall try to post more of different varieties stuff in the future provided if I can remember what interesting sightings I've seen so far.

=JCT review=
I'm quite disappointed in my performance this time. Somehow, I already can foresee how things will probably go from now. I've never done that badly in physics before, damn... Moreover, it's ridiculous to spend my money on things like tuition when there's no significant improvement on my grade at all!

=Strange News=
Lately, the announcement of Apple to switch to using Intel chips has amazed me quite much. My first thought was to install the latest Apple Mac OS on my PC since the processor would be the same... However, as expected, they will have installed some protection to recognise if the hardware is the authentic Apple's one.

=Latest Recounts=
I was wondering how tall I will grow up to be when I was a kid. It just surprise me so much to see everyone relatively gigantic to me. Ha, in the end, didn't end up growing tall.. Aww, that's sad.

=Reflections=
As I grow much older than I was, I beginning to hate the control I'm in. Is it a blessing that I still have parents to control me or curse that I can never do things what other people will think it's definitely okay to do? I don't have an answer. I hope to get to work soon and be more independent. Only then, I can choose how I want to live my life.
Hmm... If only life's like fantasy, where guys and girls can just be in purely in love and be happily ever after. Or maybe there is, just that it hasn't happen on me. I still find that I cannot be the unfeeling person I've tried to be. It's hard being a cold, ruthless person. Sometimes, I just don't like to admit things directly or it's just more natural of me to be truthful to trusted friends whom I believe that they won't hurt me..

Shi ne... That's romanji word for die.. That's how I'll become for JCT. Just merely touch a bit of organic chemistry today only... Yucks, that's sheer slow. Got to hasten my pace triple!!

Ha, I can't seem to find things of some cartoon characters to buy as gifts. Not like winnie the pooh whereby I can see almost anywhere... Hmm...

Just downloaded a few lyrics to my comp, maybe I'll just post one of those lyrics here. =P

=98 Degrees - The Hardest Thing=

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

Chorus:
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free
We're not meant to be
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be cruel to be kind
Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending
And you will never know
There can be no happy ending

Chorus
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
(Ooh)
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that

Chorus
I don't want to live a lie
What can I do
Yo people, I'm finally tagging another entry after the last entry which was quite outdated already. I don't know why but I just don't feel the addiction to come online that often for those days. Somehow I feel fatigue's accumulating a lot even though I try to relax myself.

Thanks people for making the chalet a nice one! The only regret was that not many year 1s are free on these dates of chalet. Otherwise, year 2s will need only to idle around during bbq. Ha, joking. This time round only manage to get Jaron to come down for the bbq. Youquan and Sabrina are uncontactable.

=Chalet Day 1=
Before I set off to meet y3 2.45 at downtown east lobby, I have myself searching for ezlink card for 15+ minutes that caused me to be slightly late. Therefore I may as well wait for lim pin knowing he's on the way to interchange soon.

Turnout's pretty good on day 1. The room isn't big so it seems squeezy for all that turned up. Compared to the last visit to Downtown East, the room decoration seems to have improved. When the TV ads of DE show up, it's a strange how fun the ads show DE to be when I'm not ready to spend on anything much.

Don't know how the check in system works. The lobby changes its place to another part of DE. Got a free swim board upon checking in. The receptionist somehow gives me that stare when I tell her I'm over 18. I don't look that old yet? Perhaps she didn't mean that way. Ha I think maybe I was just too sensitive. Ha.

The couple now willing to let others acknowledge their relationship after a long time... Hahaha, wanted to grill them with more (interview-type) questions but didn't as I thought somehow it'll turn out to be pretty stupid.

Everyone first watch superstar on channel U then spongebob squarepants on central.. It's y3's favourite show, so she cannot miss it. Lim pin was commenting on the lameness of the show. Ok, I've witnessed it.

Had dinner at BK which is so damn expensive. The only thing nice was the star wars bottle. But since there's no cap, I doubt it can be used as a bottle. Anyway, I should have tried the "galatic burgers". Looks yummy at least.

Didn't have mahjong sets to rent this time. We resort to borrow one from gerard's mother. Haha. Jaron and lim pin's hands already itching for mahjong. Ha.. Gibson's luck was really extremely bad. Lost all rounds, hahaha...

Halo 2 was most of the time what is on the TV set. Gerard brought that and MX, james, gerard were taking turns to play that. Everyone else seems bored. Or at least I am. I think y3 too, she's either stoning or smiling at her handphone.

=Chalet Day 2=
Y3, Mx, Gerard, James, DK and me stayed overnight. I was playing cards initially, then change to become a teacher. I taught y3 and DK mahjong after I teach DK bridge. There's many terminologies to remember which seems to pose more difficulty to beginners than other things else. DK has exceptionally strong sense in entertainment stuff. He picks every fun things rapidly. Oh man, either I'm just dumb or he's just smart. It takes me quite a while to pick off last time. James joined in later on and I got to re-explain.

Occasionally, I need to purposely refocus my eyes to elsewhere but it's hard with the loving couple eh... I wonder if DK has the same sentiments. =P

Had my shower quite late. Around 12 plus I think. I thought at least 1 person will bring toothpaste but turn out, opps, NO ONE!? Everyone wasn't in a sleeping mood then so I didn't sleep as well. I start making pyramid out of mahjong before extending it to igloo as claimed by y3. There's eiffel tower and jenga tower as well. Ha. After that, I still succumb to my fatigue. I'm so sorry y3 n mx have to help to keep those mahjong tiles away. Aiya, just take that as an appreciation for my effort in teaching them mahjong then. =P

Ask so... many times for the breakfast. No one gives a proper answer. End up eating the instant noodles y3 n I bought back. Diao~ I sponsor $8 for the food but seems like not much of it was eaten. Ehh....

Lunch at the food court. It's almost half as expensive as BK. But still, I felt cheated. $3 for a damn small plate of "char siew" rice. Except for gerard's $3 "char kuey" which seems lesser than mine, mx and y3's ones are a lot more.

Felt kind of bored so request wei jie to come earlier. I went for a swim with him at the pool which people can see through the sides and bottom. Yay, I think I learn a few more interesting tips from him to improve my frontcrawl style aka freestyle. I still need to practise more to ensure I can swim a longer stretch.

BBQ goes as normal... The part about skewering chickens is a bit more problematic. It's not "I" who want to skewer it. I just think it'll be easier for even heat distribution and for everyone else to eat easier.

Heineken made me quite bloated. I wasn't feeling drunk, just super uncomfortable due to the fizzy gas in my stomach.

=Chalet Day 3=
No Halo this time. Only bridge, bridge and more bridge... Somehow, mx is in his madcat form. He's rather high, keep raising the bid to 4 no triumph level and make everyone go crazy with it.

Woke up later than the checking out time. Rushed to pack and go...

=Election of New EXCO=
It's roughly the same way how lp, wj and I got elected last year. It's an event that will make some people surprised and some disappointed. There was really a serious consideration of every year 1s, who'll be more appropriate for the EXCO posts. I think that communication within EXCO and to other members need to be stressed. For my batch, I think I can work really well with lp and wj but maybe slightly lacking in the way message is passed down to members.

One who have the technical experience for a job is of course good. But for certain things, character is very important to look at when choosing a suitable person for a role as interpersonal relationship is often the underlying factor to keeping the club united.

Of course, whoever got or didn't get the posts, I wish to see all to stay united. We're still as 1 club. Hopefully, everyone can contribute indiscriminately to the club.

=Misc=
Somehow I find myself rather immature. I don't know myself that well yet. I take things on when maybe I may not even be prepared. That can only end up hurting myself ultimately. Opportunity is rare and it often slips through my hand as I'm indecisive. I need to learn to be a better person and then perhaps others will learn to cherish me as a valuable individual more.