The ticket was yours, and it's still yours. It hasn't become of any worth since you said before that you don't want already. Don't want to be labelled as thick-skinned because I'm already rejected for going with you before that. Even when I'm angry, I never once say I'm going to give that ticket away...

I've come to see how love not only involves two people. The complications involved is much more. Especially when the family control is very different. There are many things I know you hope I can be. But I just cannot be that person. It's hard to tell you exactly how I feel but cherishing each other isn't just one sided. It's distressing to feel how I'm not cherished but maybe that's just how I see things... Feelings aren't objective. There's no rights or wrongs.

=Sports Carnival Day 3=
During the morning assembly, Principal and a few other representatives from Singapore Pools and other associations were demonstrating the launch of Adventure Tower by conquering the tower. From the position I am, I can't tell who reached the top first which is really a WOW... "that's fast!" One did a special route which is to walk over the balancing wooden log and was described as walking the uncertain future, bla bla... Prize presentation for the Guest of honours was up there and eh... well, it just seems weird.

I thought they're going to fly down through the belay process but ha, no. The big poster is unravelled for the finale. Somehow it got stuck and shows a bit every shake.

Came super early in the morning as I don't know the time slot for the event I'm in. Felt quite drawn back when I saw the 2.15pm slot for the year 2s. I didn't bring anything much, can't even do tutorials... Sian. Wanted to idle around with mao xin but turn out he has something on. Yep, I'll be super bright if I continue to stick around with him thus I went to library.

Thanks cp for accompanying me for the boring moments in school. There isn't any comfortable spots for me to sleep... Not even in robotics room as I don't know who will enter and see my ugly sleeping look. Lol. Had my "lunch" at 11 at KFC nearby. I thought we might be caught getting out of school by either OM or Mr Tong but nope, they aren't nearby. Besides I see torrents of TJcians coming in and out of gates... so shouldn't be a problem.. Ha. The $2 meal is nice but not satisfying for my appetite.

When it was approximately 1 hour before the event, I went to the sports complex to idle around and to check for groupings. I'm questioned by friends why aren't I with my class. What can I say? Majority didn't even come to school and those that did are those hard to talk to.

The sales of the sports apparels is good. Sports bras are running out as the selling price is very much lower than the actual price.

Sat near the 02/04 CG. Got one girl who's really talkative caught my attention with humorous and crazy things she blurted out. Can't help laughing also. Lim pin's joke was equated as cold. Ha...

Ping aik wanted to look for more people to play dodgeball as there's lack of players. Can't help as Foosball is around the same time. Mao xin and I are in the same group. The first round was a winning match but consequently lost all.. How demoralising. Every round of match, mao xin has to go back and report to somebody, Lol.. That's still all right, but b4 he goes again, he'll have to report that he has to go in a soft mushy tone. Gosh, my goosebumps are all over. Ha...

=Aurora IX=
I was feeling quite pissed off as I've forgotten to take my ticket which I've left at home but was told that it's not possible for me to enter without the ticket. After all, I've bought ticket directly from them. Moreover, I've helped with the video... Can't they give grace to that?

On my way home, I spent my time reminicising the time when I feel sad about something. I must have devoted my feelings rather much in it. Otherwise, I wouldn't be feeling that hurt.

After retrieving the ticket, I went to eat with Des. Arrived school slightly earlier so I show him around in school. Some areas are rather dark so basically there's nothing much to see. The sports complex is still very active due to the Titans activities. Des enquired if the school is always that busy with a lot of activities. Pw says he'll be late so we go ahead with the concert. Jy and cp saw us and invited us to sit near them.

The seats were running out hastily. This was when I received the message. At a dilemma what I should do. Afterall, I didn't bring that ticket out. Can't just leave my secondary school friends as they come on my behalf. Can't concentrate on watching for the 1st half interval.

The MC is quite "cold". I can't find comfort in listening to his speech. Perhaps others share my sentiments also. It's evident when he started asking teachers and students about comments of the concert. He asked the audience to ask for encore after the last piece. I felt that it's really stupid of that. Isn't it supposed to be spontaneous reaction?

Mr Lieow made the encore piece end off very "spastic". When more "encore..." was demanded, he instructed to play the last line 3 more times. Oh well, special may be, I don't really find it that amusing.

At least I'm consoled when my name is written in the aurora IX booklet and read out during the acknowledgement part. Saw Chin Seng's shocked expression when he turned around to see if it's me. Yuting also gave me a very nice made "Thank You" card. Well, I'm jubilant that my efforts are appreciated. =)

The SYF piece is really very enchanting. Firstly, it's refreshing to hear chinese piece to be played on a westernised instrument, guitar. Secondly, the switch from slow and soft to fast and loud is perfect. No wonder they got gold with honours. Ming xiu did well with the cymbals, managed to start and stop in time. Cool..

After the concert, went to see Estella. She's so surprised to see me and jianyuan. Ha, perhaps she's expecting flowers too but there aren't. =P We're too shy to give her a hug but can see that she's in a very hyper mood.

After that, we stroll around in the bedok central. Most of the shops are already closed since the time is approaching 11. Ate peanut paste and bo bo cha cha with des and pw. They've changed quite a deal. In fact, they've become quite thick-skinned with their crap. He said something about popularity. He said he's hot... lol hence I ask him about his profile view in friendster. He said 50+ so far. Mine's nearly 4 times his count... Lol

Handed over the presents to pw. He seemed a bit shocked for it perhaps he didn't even expect any presents. Hope he likes the pink shirt better than the green shirt. Ha

=School Holidays=
It's the beginning of the holidays. I should plan my days well or I'll probably end up wasting endless time playing and spend futile time lamenting on regrets. There's already a series of activities settled in the holidays already.

-Robotics chalet
-class bbq/pa's bdae
-trip with jy for e-club's stuff (er... I don't have a choice?)
-kaipin's invitations

Bingz, I can go out with you but we can do something other than night walk ok? You can also ask other NY friends to come out along also ;)

=Misc=
How long do I have to continue with the housework. Maybe I'm just not used to do almost everything myself. But I'll get use to it soon. I just need space to thrash my frustrations out.

Mood: Worn out